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What the hell?
Amy’s in the evidence room, trying to process that Captain Holt is leaving. This can’t be real.
Add that to the list of things to freak out about is that she and Jake kissed—not once, but twice.
And she liked it. A lot. There was nothing weird or confusing or scary about kissing him.
Amy hasn’t been able to stop thinking about her conversation with Kylie two days ago. Well, the term ‘conversation’ is stretching it; Kylie just dumped an oral form of an analytical essay Amy’s way and hit the bullseye every time as she verbalised the complicated feelings churning through Amy for the better part of the year.
Fear. Is that all to which it really boils down?
Fear of things getting weird between them. Fear that everything’s going to change. Fear that Jake doesn’t feel the same way she does.
But things have changed. Things neither of them can control. And no matter how much Amy’s tried to make things more normal and keep things professional, things just got awkward and weird; the very thing she was trying to avoid.
And now Captain Holt is leaving.
(What the hell!?)
At the sound of the door opening, she turns and finds she’s not exactly surprised to see that it’s Jake walking in; that he’s found her.
They pull away from their third kiss—but something about it feels different, more earnest and real and honest than either have been for a long time, or maybe ever—and Amy comes to a startling realisation: Jake Peralta is chaos. He frustrates her, challenges her and makes her life exciting. He’s fun and dorky and loud and imperfectly perfect.
He’s nothing she thought she wanted, but everything she knows she needs. He’s the opposite of who she is and they clash in the best way possible.
A year ago, Amy was wrong—and yes, she can admit it. In her world of black and white, Jake doesn’t just smudge the lines for greys; he unceremoniously splashes an array of vibrant colours that seep into her life. For all the craziness that Jake whips up around them, she’s starting to see that she finds stability within them.