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How oddly poetic this all was.
Soul, the one so devoted to his cause, the one so willed to keep them all alive and well - 'for Whole's sake' - was to be their downfall.
He laughed dryly, staring at the noose in his hands, the one tied in the exact same spot Heart shot at Mind. How ironic, he thought, that the place where so much misery was caused was now having extra weight put onto it.
Inanimate nouns cannot have emotions or anything of the sort, he knows this, yet he dwells on the thought of how they can be associated with each other.
Graveyards, was his first thought. They were sad, a place of grief for those who have lost, a place feared by those who are losing, and a place of little concern to those who are yet to lose.
Its funny, he thinks, how different people had different views on certain areas based apon experience.
Maybe thats why Mind avoided where he was currently at all costs. Maybe that was a good thing, considering what he was about to do.
Now that he dwells on it, who would find him first?
...
Would they even look for him?
Would they even notice he was missing?
Surely they would, Soul was the one upkeeping everything around here, they would probably need him at some point!
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Would the loop reset if he died?
That he didnt know, and now a morbid curiosity had planted himself inside him, unwilling to let go.
He had to find out.
He hung the rope round his neck, staring at his shaking hands.
Was this the right thing to do?
Because, on Harmonia, he fucking hated living. He hated dealing with Mind and Heart constantly arguing, he couldnt take it anymore. He hated insomnia, he hated his coping methods, he hated himself, he hated them.
...He hated them.
He hated the only people he had in this hell. The only people that had a chance of caring about him.
Fuck. Soul began crying, still staring at his hands.
This wasnt fair on them, was it?
This was so selfish of him.
He had to be there for them.
...
Fuck it.
He kicked the stool he was standing on away, sealing his fate.
Peace. Finally. He could rest.
This is all he wanted.