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Morning came too soon.
Obi-Wan woke to the faint hum of Coruscant’s air traffic filtering through the window, the smell of caf steeping somewhere in the apartment, and the quiet shuffle of Kix moving about the kitchenette. For a heartbeat, he let himself stay still. His leg ached faintly – a whisper of what Maul had left him – but the pain no longer ruled him. Granted… the vicious hangover he was currently nursing was not helping matters in the slightest.
He almost smiled as he recalled the previous night at 79s, then the memory of Mace’s message returned and he bolted upright on the sofa, grappling for his datapad as all of his joy was replaced by a deep, sickening dread.
He exhaled shakily, muttering under his breath. “So much for peace.”
Kix looked up from the counter. “You said something, buir?”
Obi-Wan gathered his thoughts carefully and cleared his throat, trying to move the morning roughness from his voice. “Just thinking aloud.”
Kix arched a brow, then passed him a steaming mug with a faux-casual ease. “That’s never a good sign. You look like you’re about to volunteer for something.”
Obi-Wan gave him a wry look over the rim of his mug. “You know me too well.”
“Unfortunately for me,” Kix muttered sarcastically, setting his own mug down. “I heard you tossing half the night. You were dreaming again?”
Obi-Wan hesitated, not wanting to layer yet more of his personal problems atop of Kix, but he knew Kix would pry it from him eventually, so nodded once. “Old ghosts.”
He didn’t elaborate, and Kix didn’t press. Instead, he rested a hand against Obi-Wan’s shoulder in a silent reassurance. The kyber pendant around his neck pulsed faintly, catching the morning light, and Obi-Wan felt it resonate deep in his chest.
Alive. Connected.
That tether of warmth was all that kept him steady when he walked into the Council chamber hours later and heard the words:
“Satine Kryze has been taken by Death Watch. Intelligence suggests that Darth Maul has returned to Mandalore.”
The world seemed to still. Obi-Wan’s heart lurched once, violently, then steadied behind years of discipline, the force wrapping around him like a defensive blanket as he fruitlessly attempted to hold himself together.
“He’s still making moves?” he asked quietly.
Yoda’s ears dipped, the lines of his face grave. “Darkness grows, where vengeance stirs. Seek her, you must. But careful, you must be.”
Mace leaned forward, his expression carefully neutral but his eyes pained. “We can’t commit Republic forces without violating Mandalore’s neutrality. You’ll have to go alone, unless you are willing to wait for the senate to make their decision.”
Obi-Wan inclined his head calmly, the perfect Jedi mask back in place. “Then I’ll leave immediately.”
When he returned home to pack, Kix was already waiting by the door, his expression carved from stone.
“Let me guess,” he said. “Maul.”
Obi-Wan froze halfway through securing his saber to his belt.
“How did you–?”
Kix crossed his arms, arching his brow in a way that suggested that was a rather stupid question. “You talk in your sleep, remember? You muttered his name more than once. And I’ve read the reports. Dathomirian, double-bladed saber, very personal vendetta against you…” His jaw tightened. “You think I’d miss that?”
Obi-Wan wanted to lie – to tell him it was nothing, that this mission would be quick and simple – but Kix had inherited his father’s patience for waiting out liars and Cody’s glare. It's quite the combination.
“It’s not your fight,” Obi-Wan said at last.
“The hell it isn’t,” Kix snapped. “He nearly killed you. He did kill her–” he stopped himself, visibly reigning in his incurable anger, hands curling at his sides absently. “I’m not sitting on Coruscant while you walk into that alone.”
For a moment, Obi-Wan almost relented, then he remembered Satine. He remembered watching his master fall before his eyes, Maul’s laughter echoing through the years. He stepped closer, placing his hand gently against Kix’s cheek, just beneath the faint pink scar over his brow.
“I need you to stay here,” Obi-Wan said softly. “If I fail, you’ll feel it through the crystal and you can come rescue me like you always have. But I won’t. I promise you that.”
Kix stared at him, eyes burning, and Obi-Wan felt the storm inside his son’s mind, fear, love, defiance. He was still learning to temper his emotions, but the heart beneath them was pure.
At last, Kix exhaled shakily and pressed into the affection properly. “Fine. But you don’t get to make a habit of this, you hear me?”
Obi-Wan chuckled faintly. “I’ll do my best.”
—
The shuttle’s engines settled into a steady hum, a sound Obi-Wan catalogued automatically. Constant pitch. Minimal variance. Predictable. He adjusted the straps of his harness until the pressure sat evenly across his chest, then let his hands rest in his lap, fingers interlaced so he would not pick at the fraying edge of his glove.
Alone.
The Council had framed it as a necessity. Neutral world. Delicate politics. No clones, no Padawan, no husband at his back like a living shield against the noise of the galaxy. Obi-Wan understood the logic. Understanding did not make his skin prickle any less at the absence of familiar presences in the Force.
Without Cody, the shuttle felt cavernous. Without Kix, the silence stretched in strange ways, every thought echoing back at him sharper than before. From this distance, he couldn’t feel Anakin or Ahsoka in the force.
Mandalore swelled in the viewport, all cold greys and disciplined geometry. A planet that prized control. A planet that had once asked him to be something other than what he was. He found his thoughts looping, as they often did when anxiety threaded itself too tightly through his mind.
If I had stayed. If I had chosen. If I had been braver, or weaker, or less obedient.
He pressed his thumb to the inside of his wrist, grounding himself in the pulse there. Alive. Present. This life, not the ghost of another.
Satine had always been difficult to think about because she existed in the spaces between definitions. Not attachment, not quite regret. A parallel line that had run too close to his own for too long before diverging. Obi-Wan liked clean categories. They made the world navigable. Satine resisted them entirely.
The Force around Mandalore felt dense, metallic. It did not flow so much as it pressed, each current heavy with consequence. Obi-Wan breathed carefully, regulating the input, narrowing his awareness until it did not overwhelm him. He could do this. He had learned how.
The shuttle touched down with a soft, almost apologetic thrum.
Obi-Wan rose, movements precise, ritualistic. He checked his lightsaber, then his comlink, then his mis-matched, itchy Rako Hardeen disguise, even though he knew they were fine. Familiar actions to anchor himself before stepping into unpredictability.
The moment his boots hit Mandalorian soil, the tone of the Force shifted.
He did not allow himself to dwell. There would be time later for introspection. Now required action.
The guard never saw him coming.
Obi-Wan moved like water, finding a crack in stone. A brief distraction, a surge of the Force, a controlled strike to the nerve cluster at the base of the skull. The man went down without a sound. Obi-Wan caught him before he hit the ground, easing him down with care that surprised even himself.
He stripped the armour quickly, efficiently. The weight of it settled wrong across his shoulders, unfamiliar angles pressing against his senses. He forced himself to tolerate it, adjusting the fit until the discomfort dulled into background noise. The helmet’s interior smelled faintly of oil and sweat. He breathed through his mouth to avoid the sensory spike.
He walked into the city like he belonged there. Every step was calculated. Every glance measured. The Force became a map, threads of attention and intention he slipped between with practiced ease. The prison rose ahead of him, stark and uncompromising. Obi-Wan felt his pulse quicken, the earlier dread returning with teeth now.
Satine.
He found her cell with ease. Too much ease. The locks disengaged at his touch, systems yielding as if they had been waiting. The moment she looked up and saw him, something in his chest went painfully tight.
“Obi-Wan?” Her voice caught. Hope, fragile and bright.
“Come with me,” he said, already reaching for her restraints. “There isn’t much time.”
The Force screamed a warning an instant too late.
The ground shuddered. A distant explosion reverberated through the structure, a violent rupture in the tapestry of the Force that made Obi-Wan stagger. He knew that signature. Knew it with sickening certainty.
His ship had just been blown up. Anakin was going to kill him.
Maul’s presence unfurled across Mandalore like a blade drawn slow and deliberate, savoring the moment. The doors slammed shut, durasteel seals locking with finality. Red light flooded the corridor, alarms shrieking in sharp, painful bursts. Obi-Wan pulled Satine close without thinking, positioning himself between her and the threat he could now feel closing in. The past had not just caught up to him.
It had planned this.
And as the trap snapped fully into place, Obi-Wan understood, with a cold clarity that cut through the chaos, that Maul had not come for Mandalore at all.
He had come for him.
—
Mandalore was burning.
The once-pristine domes of Sundari stood silhouetted against a sky choked with smoke and shadow. The wind carried the scent of metal and ozone – and something older, something rancid. A memory. Obi-Wan’s stomach turned. The first time he had faced Maul, he had left him broken and dying. The second, he had almost killed his brother, assuming that the injury would at least slow their progress. He had sworn it was over. Yet the Force whispered otherwise, even then. Especially now.
Some evils simply wait.
He was escorted through the shattered halls of the royal palace under heavy guard, borderline dragged down the corridors by their hands under his arms. The banners of Death Watch hung where the sigil of the New Mandalorians once did, red and black against marble. At the end of it all, the throne room waited, hollow, echoing, and cruelly familiar. Satine knelt beside her own throne, her wrists bound, her composure radiant even through exhaustion. And beside her, the darkness he had tried for years to forget.
“Master Kenobi,” Maul greeted, his voice honey and venom. “So good to see you alive. As much as I have fought for that to change.”
Obi-Wan’s breath caught. The Force coiled around the Sith’s presence, a storm of hate, bound in flesh. Maul’s eyes burned yellow, his grin too sharp. He took a single step forward. Every muscle in his body screamed no, but his heart betrayed him.
“Let her go, Maul,” Obi-Wan said. “Your quarrel is with me.”
“Oh, I intend to settle it,” Maul said, pacing slow, deliberate circles. “You took everything from me. My limbs. My pride. My purpose. And now–”
He turned, hand outstretched.
Satine rose into the air with a strangled gasp, clutching at her throat.
“Now I will take everything from you.”
“Satine!” Obi-Wan surged forward, only to be struck down by the force of a guard’s electrostaff. His lightsaber flew from his grip. Pain lanced up his arm as the electricity fried his already-damaged nerves.
In the chaos, Satine collapsed to her knees, coughing, trembling, but alive. For the moment.
“I wanted you to suffer as I did,” Maul whispered, circling him. “To lose her as I lost everything.”
Obi-Wan’s blood ran cold. The meaning was clear before the motion came. He lunged – too slow, too late. Always too late.
The jagged black blade of the darksaber split through Satine’s chest.
Time stopped with a jarring suddenness as he lurched forwards to catch her limp form.
Her face – so calm, so heartbreakingly gentle – turned toward him as her body fell into his arms. The hum of Maul’s saber faded into the background. All that remained was her breath against his collarbone.
“Satine,” he whispered. “No– please–”
Her fingers brushed his cheek, soft as air, already cold where they brushed against his skin.
“I’ve always loved you,” she breathed. “I always will.”
And then she was still. Heavy in his arms, limp.
The Force howled. The bond between life and light shuddered. For one terrible heartbeat, Obi-Wan felt the echo ripple across the galaxy, through the kyber, through the bond, through Kix. He can’t clamp down on his shields quickly enough to protect his son, fumbling against his own emotions.
He heard his son’s voice in his mind, distant, pained, calling out: Buir–?
It anchored him. It kept him from falling into Maul’s abyss.
“I’m okay, ad. Stay at the temple.”
The message carries, and he can feel the moment that Kix reluctantly retreats from their bond, safe.
When he lifted his head again, his tears had dried.
Maul leaned forward, eyes alight with cruel satisfaction. “Now you see what I have made of your life, Kenobi. All your precious code, ashes.”
Obi-Wan’s voice came quiet, but steady. He was relieved when it didn’t crack or waver. “You misunderstand, Maul.”
He rose to his feet, gently laying Satine’s body down.
“You cannot break what was never yours to touch.”
And then he struck, the force carrying him with such speed it’s as if he’s moving without touching the ground. Maul startles as Obi-Wan appears at his side, and it’s only because he already had the darksaber drawn that he doesn’t lose his head to Obi-Wan’s precise strike. Maul makes an awful, inhuman growl, and then they’re moving, flashes of light and sound and violence.
The duel was nothing like Naboo. It was not the dance of master and monster, no, this was grief made precision. Obi-Wan fought with measured fury, each movement clean, deliberate, controlled. He would not let Maul take that, too. Savage joined the fray while Obi-Wan was distracted, brute strength and raw power crashing against form and patience. The walls shook, marble scorched by their blades. Maul screamed, a sound more beast than man. But Obi-Wan remembered every lesson Qui-Gon ever taught him. Balance, restraint, compassion. He turned Maul’s rage against him, flowing around each blow until the opportunity came – a feint, a pivot, a clean strike – and Savage cried out as Obi-Wan made complete, burning contact across his side with his saber.
The pain in the Force was deafening.
Maul caught his brother as he fell. The rage in him sputtered, twisted, and for one brief, startling instant, Obi-Wan saw fear there.
Not for himself. For Savage.
He hesitated. Blaster fire rained down from above, making an arcing circle around Obi-Wan and forcing Maul back. For a moment, there’s nothing but a cacophony of noise and light, only ceasing as the mandalorians move to try and surround the throne room. There’s the very briefest of pauses.
Just long enough for Maul to act. The Sith lifted his fallen brother, retreating into the shadows, his voice echoing down the hall.
“You will see me again, Kenobi. And when you do? You will beg me for death.”
The doors slammed shut.
Obi-Wan stood alone in the wreckage of the throne room, chest heaving, lightsaber trembling in his grasp.
He didn’t notice the Mandalorians properly until Bo-Katan dropped from the upper ledge, helmet under one arm, her eyes fierce and wet.
“You’re a hard man to keep alive, Kenobi,” she said.
Obi-Wan looked up at her – at Satine’s sister – and for the first time since he landed, the composure cracked.
“I couldn’t save her. I’m so sorry.”
Bo’s jaw clenched. “Then help me save Mandalore.”
He nodded once. It was all he could manage.
Together they fled the palace through smoke and ruin, cutting down Death Watch guards as they went. Every echo of blasterfire seemed distant, muffled by the roar of his heartbeat.
—
When the last ship burned behind them and the engines of Bo-Katan’s speeder carried them into the night, Obi-Wan finally let himself feel it – the hollow, aching weight of loss pressing against the place where the kyber bond still pulsed.
Kix’s presence brushed his mind again, faint, searching, terrified.
Obi-Wan’s answer came in a whisper through the Force, steady and low: I’m alive.
He felt the answering pulse, a flare of relief so strong it made his throat tighten. As the stars broke open over Mandalore’s horizon, Obi-Wan Kenobi sat in the wreckage of all he’d once believed unshakable and thought, for the first time, that perhaps peace was not the absence of war.
Perhaps it was simply the choice to keep going.
For her. For him. For the family he still had.
—
The temporary medical ward on Sundari was quiet.
It shouldn’t have been – not after a coup, not after Maul – but Mandalorians, Obi-Wan had learned, grieved in private. Even Bo-Katan’s Nite Owls maintained a tight perimeter around the camp, letting no one near unless absolutely necessary.
Which left Obi-Wan alone.
Alone with his thoughts. Alone with the ache in his ribs. Alone with the hollow place in the Force where Satine’s light had been.
He adjusted the edge of the cot beneath him, exhaling slowly as the movement pulled at the bruises blossoming across his side. The red and black Mandalorian armor – a borrowed disguise from Death Watch – mostly rested in pieces on the table nearby, freshly cleaned, though he hadn’t had the strength to try and wrestle the chest piece off and aggravate his bruised ribs.
He kept looking at it. And then looking away.
Every time he blinked, he saw Satine’s face again. Every time he breathed, he felt Kix’s presence flicker through the bond… faint, distant, worried. He’d been trying to shield himself, dampening the bond so as not to let the crushing weight of grief spill over into the young man who already carried too much. But the kyber shard around Kix’s neck pulsed faintly in the Force, reaching for him with patient insistence.
You’re not alone, it whispered.
He rubbed a hand over his face, weary, and reached for his datapad. He couldn’t put it off any longer.
The holopad chimed once. Twice. Then Kix’s face appeared, tired in the way medics always looked tired, but alert, alive, and vividly warm.
“Buir,” he breathed, relief washing across his features. “Thank the Force. I felt you– I thought–” His voice broke. “Are you hurt?”
Obi-Wan inhaled through his nose. Carefully. Lightly. “I’m alive.”
“That’s not what I asked.”
Obi-Wan hesitated. It was a mistake.
In that half second, Kix’s eyes sharpened with clinical precision, scanning the feed. He saw the medical cot. Saw the scuffed floor. And then he froze visibly, even through the feed.
“Are you wearing armor?”
Obi-Wan glanced down at the chestplate he hadn’t fully removed, its crimson surface gleaming faintly under the ward lights.
Blast.
“It was necessary for infiltration,” he said lightly.
“Then why do you still have it on?” Kix countered, voice tight. “And why are you sitting in a clinic? And why–” His eyes narrowed further. “Why do you look like you haven’t slept in years?”
Obi-Wan almost smiled. Kix was his son in every way that mattered, keen, sharp, perceptive to a fault.
But he couldn’t know. Not yet. Not until Obi-Wan could speak the words without breaking.
“I’m fine,” Obi-Wan lied gently.
Kix’s reaction was immediate. Furious. Hurt. He leaned forward, hands braced on the edge of the holo-projector as if he could physically reach through it and shake him.
“Don’t you dare,” he whispered. “Don’t you dare shield me out. You promised.”
Obi-Wan closed his eyes to take a long, steadying breath.
The promise. The kyber. Always.
Curse it all.
“I’m not shielding you,” he said softly. “I’m… taking a moment.”
Kix stared at him for a long, heavy breath. Then, more quietly: “Then tell me what happened.”
Obi-Wan swallowed around the jagged stone lodged in his throat.
“Satine… is dead.”
Kix’s breath hitched. His eyes softened in sudden, horrific understanding. Obi-Wan couldn’t bear to keep looking at him and see the pity he just knew would be there.
“Oh– buir…”
Obi-Wan kept speaking before his voice could crack, staring off camera at his borrowed armour. Suddenly he wishes he had kept it on, he feels far too exposed. “Maul killed her. In front of me.”
Silence. A devastatingly gentle silence.
Kix didn’t pepper him with questions. Didn’t demand details. Didn’t ask how or why or who else was hurt. He simply said, in a voice too soft for war:
“I’m so sorry.”
Obi-Wan’s chest tightened.
Grief threatened to crack him open again – sharp, cold, and unforgiving – but he steadied himself with two fingers pressed to the kyber shard on his own chest, where it hung beneath his robes. Kix’s shard glowed faintly on the other end of the transmission.
They resonated. Even worlds apart.
“Bo needs my help stabilizing the capital,” Obi-Wan said eventually. “And I… owe it to Satine to ensure Mandalore survives this.”
Kix nodded. “Then stay until you’re ready. I’ll be here.”
Obi-Wan managed a small, fragile smile. “You always are.”
But Kix wasn’t done.
“Just…don’t pretend you’re alright,” he said, eyes earnest, almost pleading. “Not with me.”
Obi-Wan exhaled shakily, the weight of the last hours pressing down like gravity. “I don’t wish to burden you.”
Kix’s expression softened, but his voice remained firm.
“You’re not a burden. You’re my father.”
The words hit harder than any blow Maul had ever landed. Obi-Wan’s composure cracked. Not visibly, not fully, but enough. His shoulders sagged. His breath trembled. His eyes burned, and for the first time since Satine’s final breath, he let that ache exist in the open air.
Kix saw it. Didn’t flinch. Didn’t look away.
“I’ll come home soon,” Obi-Wan whispered.
“I’ll be waiting,” Kix murmured. “And when you get back… you don’t get to hide.”
Obi-Wan nodded once. “I know.”
The call ended. The medbay immediately felt colder without Kix’s presence filling the space.
Obi-Wan sat a long time in the dim light, staring at the faint imprint of Kix’s hologram on the air, before finally removing the rest of the red Mandalorian armor. Each piece clattered onto the table with a heavy, metallic thud, until only the undersuit remained – a reminder of infiltration, of violence, of loss.
He pressed a hand over the kyber shard again. It pulsed. Alive. Reassuring. Kix.
For the first time since Satine’s death, he allowed himself to lie back on the cot and close his eyes.
—
The journey back to Coruscant should have felt like escape.
It didn’t.
The hum of the shuttle engines pressed into Obi-Wan’s skull like a second heartbeat. His body ached from the duel, his ribs bruised, his shoulder stiff, but none of that compared to the hollow echo inside him. Satine’s last breath lived there. Soft. Warm. Final. He had told himself on Mandalore that he had no right to fall apart. That he needed to help Bo-Katan secure the city. That he needed to get out, to return home, to keep going.
But Mandalore had its own ghosts. Coruscant had different ones. And the moment he crossed into Republic airspace, the kyber shard at his chest flared to life.
Kix.
The bond tingled – hesitant, searching, almost fearful – and Obi-Wan felt a single emotional thread reach across the stars:
Are you truly alright?
Obi-Wan exhaled. He didn’t answer. Not in the Force. Not yet. If he let go now, the dam would break before his boots touched Temple stone.
The doors of the landing pad opened with a hiss, releasing a rush of warm Coruscanti air onto his face. The setting sun cast gold over the durasteel walkway, and there, waiting at the bottom of the ramp, helmet under one arm, was Kix.
He looked exhausted. He looked terrified. And when their eyes met, something in Kix cracked wide open.
Obi-Wan didn’t take two steps before Kix was moving, fast, harder than was proper, colliding with him in a fierce, desperate embrace.
The bond detonated.
Kix felt everything. The grief. The pain. The quiet, aching, impossible love still lingering like a bruise. The loss that hadn’t found a shape yet.
It crashed through him like fire. Kix gasped, hands shaking as they clutched at the fabric of Obi-Wan’s cloak.
“Buir–” his voice wavered, thick, breathless. “You’re–Force, you’re hurting so much–”
Obi-Wan’s knees nearly buckled. He gathered Kix into his arms, burying his face in his son’s hair, holding on like a man who had spent days pretending he didn’t need to hold anyone.
“I’m here,” Obi-Wan whispered. “I’m here, Kix’ika. I’m alright.”
“Don’t lie to me,” Kix choked. “Not with the bond. I felt– Force, I felt all of it–”
He pressed a hand against Obi-Wan’s chest, right where the kyber shard pulsed faintly beneath the robes.
“Don’t shield me out,” Kix whispered. “Let me carry some of it. Please.”
Obi-Wan’s throat tightened painfully.
He didn’t answer. But he stopped shielding. It hurt, and it helped, and it nearly brought them both to their knees.
They made it back to the apartment in silence. Obi-Wan walked like he was moving through water – slow, heavy, suspended between past and present – and Kix didn’t leave his side once.
Inside, Cody sat waiting on the couch, helmet on the table in front of him. He stood when he saw Obi-Wan.
“General.”
“Cody.”
A beat passed – long, quiet, weighted.
Then Cody’s shoulders dropped. The faintest fracture in his expression.
“You tried, cyare.” Cody said softly.
Obi-Wan nodded once. Stiff, pained.
Cody bowed his head – the closest he could come to mourning aloud – and left them alone. Obi-Wan didn’t need his husband right now, he needed a medic.
—
Obi-Wan sat on the edge of the bed, elbows on his knees, hands loosely clasped. The room was dim, lit only by the glow of Coruscant traffic outside. Kix sat beside him, not touching, just close enough that the warmth of him felt like a lifeline.
“You don’t have to talk,” Kix said gently. “But don’t carry it alone.”
Obi-Wan closed his eyes.
For so long, he had been the negotiator, the calm, the measured center of every storm. Satine had once told him he wore serenity like armor.
But armor cracked. It always did.
“It was quick,” Obi-Wan murmured finally. “And it was cruel. And there was nothing I could do.”
His voice didn’t break. But it wavered.
Kix listened, silent, steady, his presence in the Force a soft, grounding pulse. Obi-Wan felt the bond hum between them, warm as sunlight against cold skin.
He continued, quieter:
“I’ve lost people before. But this… this was different. She wasn’t part of the Jedi. She wasn’t built for war. And Maul knew, he knew exactly what it would do to me to lose her like that. She was supposed to be safe.”
Kix’s jaw clenched. “If I ever see him–”
Obi-Wan shook his head, cutting him off sharply. “No. Don’t take my pain as your burden of vengeance.”
“And what am I supposed to take from it?” Kix whispered. “I felt you break.”
Obi-Wan inhaled unsteadily. “And yet I’m still here.”
“That’s not the same.”
He turned then, truly turned, and met Kix’s gaze.
There, in the soft gaze of a medic, Obi-Wan found a truth he hadn’t let himself see.
His son hurt because he loved him. Not because of the bond. Not because he was sensitive to emotion. But because he cared, fiercely, unconditionally.
Obi-Wan cupped the back of Kix’s neck and rested their foreheads together.
“I am still learning,” he whispered, “what it means to let myself be loved without fear.”
Kix exhaled through a tight throat. “Then let me help you learn.”
—
Obi-Wan’s medical leave lasted exactly two days.
Two days of gentle breakfasts. Two days of Kix checking his ribs, his leg, the lingering burns. Two days of silence shared on the balcony as the city breathed around them. Two days of Obi-Wan relearning how to exist in a space without Satine’s memory lingering on the edges.
And then, blaring through his comm and shattering the peace of the apartment:
“Master Kenobi, your presence is required in the Council chambers.”
Obi-Wan’s spine straightened automatically.
Kix winced. “Already?”
“The galaxy doesn’t pause for grief,” Obi-Wan said softly.
“That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t.”
Obi-Wan managed a small, grateful smile. “I’ll be alright.”
He wasn’t sure if it was true. But he put on his robes. Fastened his belt. Tamed his hair. And layered calm over his heart like another set of armor.
When he opened the door, Kix caught his wrist.
“Remember,” he said softly, “you don’t have to be made of stone.”
Obi-Wan pressed a kiss to the top of his son’s head, brief, gentle, grounding.
“I’ll come back to you when it’s over,” he promised.
And then he walked into the Council chamber.
Mask in place. Posture unwavering.Voice steady. Inside, he was cracked. Grief still raw. Loss still echoing in a hollow made of memory. But the Jedi Council saw only serenity.
Because Obi-Wan Kenobi had never forgotten how to carry the galaxy on his back and smile through the ache.
—
The Council chamber was too bright.
Obi-Wan felt it the moment he stepped through the doors – cold white light bouncing off the polished floor, the faint echo of footsteps in the vaulted dome, the shifting rustle of robes as Masters turned to acknowledge him.
Every sound had a shadow. Every shadow had weight. Every weight pressed against his ribs like a tightening band.
He bowed. Automatically. Perfectly.
But the moment he straightened, the flood began.
Voices. Questions. Reports. The war. Mandalore. Satine. Intelligence updates. Clashes at the Rim. And always that soft undertone:
How are you handling the Duchess’s death?
They didn’t ask it aloud. They didn’t have to. Their concern filled the room like another presence, prickling at the edges of his senses, snagging on the rawness beneath his composure. Even Master Plo’s gentle regard felt like a hand pressed too firmly against a bruise. Obi-Wan folded his hands behind his back, inhaling through his nose, quiet and steady.
You cannot break. Not here.
But the voices kept coming.
“Master Kenobi, Mandalore will require stabilization–”
“Your presence on the strategic front is still required–”
“Grief, clouds your path, it does.”
“Are you prepared to resume full duties?”
His ears rang. The hum of speeders outside vibrated through the floor. Mace’s voice was too sharp. Ki-Adi’s questions were too abrupt. Even Yoda’s soft breathing seemed too loud. The room swayed slightly, bright, spinning, too big and too small all at once. He tried to swallow, but his throat felt tight. He tried to answer, but the words were a jumble in his mind – loose fragments of thought that refused to line up.
Images flashed behind his eyes: Satine’s smile. Satine’s breath. Satine’s fall.
He blinked rapidly, trying to force the tremor in his hands to still. No one noticed. Or they pretended not to.
Then–
A datapad clattered from someone’s grasp across the chamber. A small sound. Barely a disturbance. But it hit like a blastershot.
Obi-Wan’s breath cut short. His pupils constricted, the room folding inward. Too loud. Too bright. Too many eyes.
The Force around him contracted sharply, then flattened, not flaring, not lashing out, but dimming.
A shutdown. Silent. Devastating. Invisible to anyone who didn’t know what to look for.
Mace’s voice echoed distantly through the haze. “Obi-Wan? Are you unwell?”
Obi-Wan nodded once.
Not because he was alright. But because he couldn’t speak. He held the mask long enough to complete the meeting. Long enough to bow. Long enough to walk out of the chamber with quiet steps.
But when the doors closed behind him, the world went blank at the edges.
His shoulders shook from the effort of every step. His mind was fog, thick and unmoving. Breath shallow. Hands numb.
The keycode panel beeped under his fingers. The door swished open.
Cody rose from the dining table before the latch even sealed.
“Obi-Wan?”
A flick of blue eyes. A silent step forward. And then Obi-Wan crumpled – not physically, not collapsing quite yet, but emotionally folding inward like a star imploding.
Cody understood instantly.
“Alright,” he murmured, crossing the room in two long strides. “C’mon, love. I’ve got you.”
Obi-Wan’s fingers twitched once – a small, repetitive motion near his chest. The only sign left of his attempt to self-regulate. He tried to speak, but the words stuck behind his teeth.
Cody didn’t ask for them.
He slid an arm around Obi-Wan’s back, the other under his knees, and guided him gently to the sofa. Obi-Wan went willingly, silently, settling against Cody’s chest with a quiet, uneven exhale. Cody stretched out, letting Obi-Wan lie on top of him, head pressed to the hollow of his throat. His hand slid through Obi-Wan’s hair – slow, steady strokes that didn’t demand any responses.
His voice dropped to a soft murmur.
“You held it together too long, cyar’ika. Let go now. It’s just us.”
Obi-Wan’s shoulders shook. Just once. Then he went still.
Not frozen, just still. The softness of shutdown. The quiet surrender of a mind that could no longer bear more input.
Cody held him tighter, chin resting atop ginger hair, thumb brushing behind Obi-Wan’s ear in a familiar, grounding rhythm.
“I’m here,” Cody whispered. “I’m not letting go.”
And Obi-Wan, unable to speak, pressed his forehead weakly into Cody’s collarbone – a gesture Cody recognized as thank you.
—
Kix marched into the Council antechamber with all the fury of a medic who had reached his last limit.
Mace Windu looked up from a datapad, frowning slightly. “Padawan Kenobi. Is something–”
“You pushed him.” The words were sharp. Accusation wrapped in barely-contained fear.
Mace blinked, clearly lost. “I beg your pardon–?”
“You pushed him too hard,” Kix repeated, voice tight with emotion. “He wasn’t ready. He lost Satine days ago, he’s barely slept, and you gave him strategic assessments and demands as if he isn't still bleeding.”
“Padawan Kenobi–”
“You didn’t see him just now. You didn’t feel the shutdown through the bond.” His voice cracked on the last word. “He walked home on autopilot. He doesn’t even know where he is, not properly.”
Mace inhaled, grief flickering across his features, real grief, heavy and regretful.
“I did not intend harm,” Mace said quietly. “You must understand: war pressures all of us. And Obi-Wan is–”
“A person,” Kix snapped. “Not a symbol.”
Mace swallowed the rest of his sentence. Silence stretched between them, not tense, but somber.
Finally, Mace said, “You are right.”
Kix blinked, amazed to hear Mace Windu of all people admitting he was wrong.
Mace continued softly, “We failed him today. I failed him. But there is only so much we can do to protect a general of his stature. The Republic is fracturing. The Council is stretched thin. And grief…” He exhaled. “Grief is a luxury we are rarely given. Even when we deserve it.”
It wasn’t an excuse. It wasn’t meant to be. It was the plain, painful truth.
Kix looked down at the kyber shard glowing faintly against his chest. The echo of Obi-Wan’s exhaustion pulsed weakly through it.
“I’m going home,” Kix said quietly. “If he’s needed for anything – anything – you call me instead.”
Mace nodded, eyes soft with something akin to fondness. “He is fortunate to have you.”
Kix didn’t smile. But his voice gentled.
“I’m fortunate to have him, too.”
—
The lights in the apartment were dimmed. Coruscant’s evening glow washed the room in soft gold. Cody still lay on the sofa, Obi-Wan resting heavily on his chest, quiet, unmoving except for the slow rise and fall of breath.
The shutdown has softened now. He wasn’t gone, just quiet. Even in the force.
Kix entered silently. Cody lifted his gaze but didn’t stop the motion of his hand through Obi-Wan’s hair.
“He’s alright,” Cody whispered. “Just overstimulated.”
Kix nodded. “I know.”
He knelt beside the sofa and took Obi-Wan’s hand gently in both of his own. The bond pulsed faintly. A tired glow. Warm, relieved.
Kix whispered, “We’ve got you, buir.”
And though Obi-Wan didn’t speak, he curled his fingers weakly around Kix’s hand.
It was enough. More than enough.
The three of them stayed like that until the sun dipped beneath the skyline – a family holding each other through the quiet aftermath of a war that gave them no room to break.
—
Morning arrived gently.
A thin wash of pale sunlight spilled across the apartment floor, catching on the soft texture of the sofa blanket and the curve of Cody’s arm still wrapped around Obi-Wan’s waist. The city hummed distantly outside, the sound muted through the windows, softened into something like white noise.
Obi-Wan came awake slowly.
Not with clarity, or with purpose, or with that familiar crispness of Jedi discipline, but with heaviness. The kind that lodged in his bones, not painful, but so… tired.
His eyes opened halfway. Cody’s chest rose and fell beneath him, steady, grounding.
A hand brushed through his hair, slow, gentle, consistent. Kix lowered himself onto the edge of the sofa, still groggy, still in sleep-wrinkled clothes, his eyes soft with morning worry.
“Hey,” Kix murmured. “You with us?”
Obi-Wan blinked up at him. Once. Then again.
But the words wouldn’t come. Not yet.
The shutdown had faded, but burnout clung to him like the heavy sweep of ocean currents, not dangerous, just pulling him under enough that everything felt distant.
Kix didn’t push.
He ran his thumb over Obi-Wan’s knuckles and whispered, “Just nod or shake your head. That’s enough.”
Obi-Wan nodded.
Cody stirred behind him, voice still gritty with sleep. “Morning, cyar’ika.”
Obi-Wan swallowed, guilt creeping in the edges of his mind like fog rolling over a battlefield. He should get up. He should prepare reports. He should read the briefings. The Council needed–
Kix saw the way tension jumped in his shoulders.
“No,” Kix said firmly, placing a hand lightly on Obi-Wan’s sternum to keep him from rising.
Obi-Wan darted a confused look at him. Kix’s tone brooked no argument.
“You’re not working today.”
Obi-Wan’s brows knit. He signed a small, hesitant gesture with his right hand:
Should.
Cody tightened his hold around his waist. “No.”
Obi-Wan blinked. He tried again, fingers moving with more urgency:
Need to.
Kix took his hand, grounding it between both of his palms.
“Obi-Wan,” he said softly, “you can barely keep your eyes open.”
Obi-Wan could keep them open – technically – but everything felt slow and blurred around the edges, like his mind was wrapped in layers of cotton. His limbs were sluggish, his breathing shallow with lingering fatigue.
Cody shifted so he could look Obi-Wan in the face. “You burned out, love. Last night wasn’t your fault. Neither is this.”
Obi-Wan’s throat worked silently. His eyes went glassy, darting away. Guilt pressed harder now. He gestured again:
Burden.
Kix inhaled sharply, shaking his head. “Don’t you dare call yourself that.”
Obi-Wan flinched. But Kix wasn’t angry. He was hurting. The kind of hurt that comes from watching someone you love slowly fold inward on themselves.
“You have been carrying an entire galaxy on your shoulders,” Kix whispered. “Satine. Mandalore. Maul. The Council. The war. And you’re still trying to hold yourself to perfection? No. Absolutely not.”
Obi-Wan blinked hard, blinking rapidly, that tiny giveaway that he was trying not to let tears fall.
Cody pressed a kiss to his temple. “You’re doing enough.”
“I–” The sound cracked as it came out, barely more than an exhale shaped like a word.
Kix squeezed his hand, layering warmth through the bond. “You don’t have to talk. You don’t have to explain. You just have to let us take care of you today.”
Obi-Wan’s breath stuttered. His fingers twitched. Then, finally, he gave a tiny nod.
Kix’s shoulders eased in relief. “Good. That’s good.”
Cody shifted, helping Obi-Wan sit up slowly, carefully, as if any sudden motion might overwhelm him again. Obi-Wan leaned heavily into Cody’s side, head resting on his shoulder, movements pliant with exhaustion. Kix moved around the room quietly, pulling curtains halfway to soften the light, arranging blankets, setting water within easy reach. When he came back, Obi-Wan had the datapad in hand.
Both clones shared a look.
Cody held out a hand expectantly. “Give it.”
Obi-Wan tightened his fingers faintly around the pad.
“Nope,” Kix said, gentle but unwavering. “Not happening.”
He pried it from Obi-Wan’s grip with practiced medic efficiency.
Obi-Wan’s hand stayed suspended mid-air for a moment – a tiny motion of disbelief and lost purpose – before it fell slowly to his lap.
“I know,” Kix murmured, brushing a thumb over the back of Obi-Wan’s hand. “It feels wrong to stop. It feels like you’re failing someone.”
Obi-Wan’s eyes lowered. His voice, when it finally came, was no more than a cracked whisper:
“Always failing someone.”
Cody’s jaw set. He turned Obi-Wan gently so they were face to face.
“Not today,” Cody said, quietly fierce. “You’re not failing anyone today.”
Kix leaned down and pressed his forehead to Obi-Wan’s, matching his breathing, steady and calm.
“You are allowed to rest, buir,” Kix whispered. “You are allowed to be tired. We’re here.”
Obi-Wan closed his eyes. And the tension that had been holding his body taut for days eased, slowly, like a string loosening. He sagged forward into Cody’s chest, hands curled loosely at his sides, breathing soft and uneven. Kix sat by his knees, one hand resting over Obi-Wan’s shin, radiating steady warmth.
No words. No duties. No decisions. Just breath and presence and the two people who loved him more than the galaxy had ever allowed him to understand. The bond pulsed faintly. Weak, tired, but warm.
And in that quiet morning light, wrapped in the safety of his family, Obi-Wan Kenobi finally, finally, let himself rest.
—
The apartment was quiet except for Cody’s calm breathing and the faint drift of Coruscant traffic outside. Obi-Wan lay half-curled on the sofa still, body slack with exhaustion but mind flickering somewhere just above the surface. He wasn't fully shut down anymore, but he wasn’t fully present either.
His fingers twitched again. That same repetitive movement. That faint, restless hum beneath the skin. A longing for motion, for some kind of outlet. And with it? The guilt. He tried to still his hand, curling his fingers into the blanket to hide the tremor. Jedi control. Jedi composure. Jedi discipline.
The old mask tugged at him like a reflex.
Kix caught it instantly. He crossed the living space quietly, sliding onto the floor by the sofa and gently prying the blanket from Obi-Wan’s hand.
“Don’t do that,” Kix whispered.
Obi-Wan blinked at him, disoriented. “Do… what?”
Kix took Obi-Wan’s hand in both of his, cupping it carefully. “You’re trying to stop yourself from stimming.”
Obi-Wan tensed automatically, old shame flickering across his face.
“Kix–”
“No,” Kix said softly. “You don’t have to hide that. Not from us. Not ever.”
Cody, still stretched out behind Obi-Wan, tightened his arm around his waist. “He’s right.”
Obi-Wan swallowed hard, his throat tight. “It feels… unprofessional.”
“Obi-Wan.” Kix’s voice was warm, firm. “You almost shut down completely yesterday. You burned through every reserve you had because you kept trying to look ‘professional’ instead of listening to your needs.”
He guided Obi-Wan’s hand toward a small wooden stim ring – smooth, warm, carved with soft edges – which he had taken from his medic bag.
Obi-Wan blinked down at it. “You… carry these?”
Kix shrugged gently. “I carry a lot of things for my patients. And for my friends.”
Cody smirked. “He also carries half of your favorite tea blends, but don’t ask him about that.”
Kix glared at him. Cody didn’t look remotely apologetic.
Kix turned his attention back to Obi-Wan. “It helps. And you’re allowed to need help.”
Obi-Wan hesitated, then took the stim ring between careful fingers.
Kix watched. Patient. Cody held him steady from behind.
Obi-Wan turned the ring once. Twice. The repetitive pressure rolled through his fingertips, the rhythmic motion calming. Something inside him loosened. His shoulders dropped half an inch. The tension behind his temples eased a fraction. The Force around him hummed, softer and steadier.
“There you go,” Kix whispered. “Just breathe.”
Obi-Wan exhaled slowly, leaning back into Cody’s chest.
Kix shifted until he sat cross-legged on the floor in front of them. “Let’s meditate for a bit. Nothing structured. Just grounding.”
Obi-Wan nodded, small, but real.
Cody lifted a hand to brush lightly through Obi-Wan’s hair as they all settled in a triad of quiet warmth. Kix reached out, resting a hand just over Obi-Wan’s knee, grounding the physical connection with something gentle and steady.
“Follow the rhythm,” Kix said softly. “Not the thoughts. Not the feelings. Just the motion.”
Obi-Wan turned the ring. Again. Again. The repetitive glide softened the static in his mind. Cody’s fingers combing through his hair kept his breaths even. Kix’s presence in the Force was warm, a steady, unwavering flame.
Minutes melted into something weightless.
And for the first time in days, Obi-Wan felt present.
—
By early afternoon, the fog had lifted. Not all of it, but enough.
Obi-Wan’s eyes were clearer, his thoughts steadier, his breath no longer tight against his ribs. He still felt fragile around the edges, but not like he was made of shattered glass anymore. More like soft clay – pliable, tired, but whole.
Kix noticed it the moment Obi-Wan sat up straighter and stretched like a sleepy cat.
“That’s better,” Kix said warmly. “How’s your mind?”
Obi-Wan twirled the stim ring once between his fingers. “Quiet.”
“And your chest?”
“Aching. But manageable.”
Cody kissed the top of his head. “Good.”
Obi-Wan sighed, leaning into Cody’s shoulder. “You two are… too good to me.”
“Wrong,” Kix said immediately. “We’re exactly right to you.”
He stood. “Now come on. If you stay cooped up here all day, you’ll get trapped in your head again. We’re going to the Temple gardens.”
Obi-Wan blinked up at him. “Are we?”
“Yes,” Cody said, stretching in an equally self-satisfied manner, clearly pleased with how long he’s had Obi-Wan in his arms. Clingy. “Sunlight. Fresh air. And I’m pretty sure your cat misses you.”
Obi-Wan huffed a soft laugh. “She misses the lap she sleeps on, not me.”
Cody shrugged. “Semantics.”
—
The gardens were quiet this time of day. The sunlight warmed the stone pathways, drifting through the branches of the tall flowering trees. Obi-Wan inhaled deeply, the scent of blossoms grounding him in ways even meditation couldn’t always manage.
They settled beneath the large willow-like tree near the eastern pond – their usual spot. The one that had seen countless moments between them.Cody lay back in the grass. Kix stretched out beside him. Obi-Wan settled between them both, leaning against Cody’s side while Kix rested his head in Obi-Wan’s lap.
The quiet was deep. Comforting.
A few moments later, Castaña appeared from behind a shrub, staring judgmentally before climbing into Obi-Wan’s lap and sitting directly on Kix’s chest.
Kix groaned. “Why does she always do this?”
Cody smirked. “Because she has an excellent taste in people to bother.”
Obi-Wan’s fingers grazed the cat’s fur. “She senses weakness.”
Kix made a strangled noise. “She’s crushing my organs.”
Obi-Wan smiled, small but real. “I think she’s showing affection.”
Kix sighed dramatically. “Of course she is.”
And then he closed his eyes, letting Castaña settle over him with a rumbling purr, her head pressed into one of Obi-Wan's hands. Obi-Wan rested his other hand on Kix’s hair, gently carding through it. Cody’s arm slid around Obi-Wan’s waist, warm and steady. The afternoon light filtered down in golden shafts.
No demands. No missions. No Council. No war. Just three hearts drifting toward stillness together.
Obi-Wan felt the bond pulse warmly, a gentle beat, alive and steady. Not pulling. Not frantic. Just… present.
He closed his eyes. For the first time since Mandalore, he felt something like peace.
Not complete. Not healed.
But peace nonetheless.