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moe was 13 again, standing infront of that burning house, she was stupid and mad. she couldnt recall why, but she remembered how her arms burned, the screams and the fire itself. the way it spiraled, the way people screams seemed to make the fire more powerful, like it was feeding it, feeding its hatred for moe, and for what she hide under her jester robes and bells.
the fire swelled, growing bigger and bigger as the screams got louder. moe honked, for help, for regect, for ze, for anyone to come and save her from the hell of her own mind but her vocal chords wouldnt work, they would never. as she gasped for air, she felt the smoke filling her lungs.she looked back at the fire, watching it grow a face.
'look what you did, moe.' the firey mouth said, its voice spoke, deep and angry. moe tried to scream, try to protest the words she feared so much. words could only hurt her, but these words felt like burning knives being stabbed into her. 'this is your fault.' the mouth spoke once again, moe struggled to breath now, then suddenly, the fire charged at her, the mouth was wide open, ready to engulf her.
moe shoot up on her bed, gripping the blanket. she breathed heavily, looking around where she was, she had to make sure she was safe. she let out a sigh as she knew she was safe, she was around ze and regect. althought, she was sweaty, braids and makeup still on. a bath would be nice, and she knew regect wouldnt mind her stealing his bathroom and all his fancy shit for a nice bath, not like the guy uses it most of it. she climbed out of the bed carefully not to disturb the other two who moved to cuddle up with one another as she got out of bed. it was cute, she smiled at them.
moe soon walked to the bathroom, if she could hum, she would. she walked in, closing the door then turning on the light, she didnt know if regect, ze or both of them, where light sensitive and she didnt want to wake them up! sleep doesnt come easy for moe and she knew the struggle of not getting a good sleep, so she made sure she was mindful! now in the way too beautiful bathroom, she bended down and dug through the cabin under the skin.
she found some bathbombs, some fancy lotion, shower streamers.. moe's smile turned wide as she found what she wanted! bubbles! she snatched them up, kicking the cabin doors closed with her foot as she leaned up. she couldnt wait to take a nice bath, more so in such a fancy bathtub! moe undressed, dropping her outfit on the floor with a soft thud thanks to all the bells carefully sewen into it.
once that was over with, she turned the bath on, sitting on the edge of the tub as she slowly took out her braids, letting her thoughts ran into whatever they choose too. she knew she should learn sign language, but it felt impossible for her sometimes and she had already learned her honk language, it was better that way anyways, only people who truly cared about her would take the time to learn it and that meant more to her than anything else.
moe hands moved to her second braid, she glanced down to the bath, making sure it wasnt full yet, she watched it filling as she took out her second braid, she avoided really looking at her arms or most of her body, it had burn marks from the fire. she hated herself for what she had done, and she hated that no matter what she did to redeem herself, she couldnt be better and deep down she knew she never would be better than her past actions, she couldnt be.
she finished her second braid, realizing she forgot to add the bubbles! thankfully the water wasnt full, so she poured a shit load in, before getting into the soapy water, switching in a pretty big bathtub. it was nice, she could bury herself completely under the water if she truly wanted too. she looked around the bathroom slightly, she needed to get her makeup off.. and she wasnt about to use the only wash cloth in the bathroom - that she could see, at least.
moe blew out some air, then shaking her head. it was fine! she could always wipe it off with toilet paper to wipe it off or something, right now was her relaxed super nice bubble bath and she would enjoy it to its fullest!
moe almost jumped out of her skin when the door opened. she slowly looked over, god she was praying it wasnt some random creepy maid or something like that.
'moe?..' regects voice was sleepy, worrisome even. 'you werent in bed when and i saw the light on from under the door..- oh shit.' he had noticed moe in the bath, thankfully, the bubbles and moes long hair hide everything. moe would kill this clingy asshole later for this. she knew he was raised different, but god he really shouldnt have even come in when the bathroom light is on! it couldve been the sleep in him and the need to have moe back, but thats besides the point. moe didnt have her horn or she would be honking it so hard it would break!
'im so sorry moe- i didnt know. i can go.' regect had turned his head away already, he was so embarrassed. his tail had wrapped around his own leg. he glanced back at moe, noticing her makeup was still on. 'do you need something to wash your face off?' he asked, watching moe nodded, he did the same.
moe sighed, shaking her head as regect left the bathroom, making the door was well closed before he left. she knew he was just clingy, and he just wanted to make sure she was okay, but that didnt make it okay, but she found endearing that he cared so much about her well being. she leaned into the water more. closing her eyes as she waited for regect to come back.
he didnt take too long, he had brought her not only some makeup wipes, but he brought her a change of clothes, she was gratefully for it. sleeping in her jester outfit wasnt that comfortable, when she got out of the bathroom, she noticed that ze was still asleep and regect was waiting for her, a silent indication she was supposed to stay, and she was happy she could. honestly she didnt know if she could sleep alone after that dream. she climbed into bed, cubbling up to ze and regect.
'good night moe..' regect mumbled, pulling the blanket up and over all three of them.
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moe had been doing her job the best she could for the past few days, but no one found her funny because they couldnt understand. she wasnt a good jester, but she was a good clown. she didnt like that, but she supposed it was her own fault for it.
the king and his maid were very disapproving, it was scary in a way. the way they judged in the silent, letting their stares carry more than their voices. the king was the worst with his looks at moe, when she would fail to make his fancy guest laugh or something.
she didnt care about his guest, she wasnt a jester for them! she was for regect! for his son! the king was just selfish, but thoughts could never leave her head, even if she could only tell ze and regect. she was in her room at the moment, touching up her makeup, she was sweaty and it fucked her makeup..
her door was soon pushed opened, causing her to look over, tilting her head at ze.
'moe? regect wants me to take you to get dress fitted for the royal ball that is coming up.' ze gave a small bow, moe rolled her eyes, snatching her horn, honking. 'the ball!! im so excitedfor it, i amost forgot about it, and dont bow, ze. you dont need to.' she smiled, getting up. 'i know. but it felt right.' she smiled, honking her horn in such a way it could be a giggle sound.
the walk to the fitting area, it just a few halls down from regects part of the castle. well, maybe it was long for those who werent in this castle all the time, this place was fucking huge! moe couldnt blame anyone for thinking the walk she found short was long. she perked up once they got to the fitting area, she was excited! she couldnt wait to get fitted for a big puffy pretty dress, and she would get a fan, and they would do her hair! she was over the moon! she was so happy regect had decided to make her his special guest, and because she is a special guest of a prince, she would get special treatment!
it was great for her, but ze didnt seem to enjoy standing there while moe choose out which dressed she wanted to wear, and listening to other girls tell moe all this stupid info, which she had to argue, knowing 20 different ways to hold a fan. that, was fucking stupid, she had to agree. she hummed, standing next to ze.
'having fun?' he asked. moe nodded, 'what dress did i look best in?' she asked, looking down at him. 'uh.. the green one, actually. the sleeves were pretty long thought..' ze shrugged, moe smiled. 'yeah its kinda the point, im thinking about the green one too! i think it makes me pop!' ze nodded in agreement, 'i think you like good in most dresses.' ze looked off more, before moe could honk anything else out, he added onto it 'sorry. forget that.'
moe would laugh, but she couldnt nor would be the most appropriate time too laugh in the first place. moe looked away from ze as well, he was cute, moe liked his slight awkwardness, it made her feel really pretty in a way, and he was so gentle too, so was regect.. man, she wished she could just have both of them.
moe shock her head, soon enough she was being dragged way by more maids to try more dresses on.
dressing fit took hours for some reason! she ended up going with the green dress that ze liked, so she would have the dress soon in a better fitting for her body time, something about making her curves pop out more, honestly she didnt listen to on she had too that much. she was bored and listening to anything while being bored was so hard sometimes!
she was back in her room now, it was late. she had wiped her makeup off, taken her hair down, and now she was cleaning her horn, she was so ready to fall into her bed and sleep forever! but of course, she couldnt, not yet at least. she had been learning how to sew thanks to miss fisher taking the time to teach her, and she had been trying to make dolls of her, regect and ze. they looked like shit right now, but it would be nice to work on the dolls for a bit more before she called it a night.
So thats what moe did, she was sitting on her bed, sewing wings into the back of her shitty little ze doll, she had her bed side lamp on and she was all tucked in, she was comfortable, she was trying to keep her mind focused on the task she was supposed to be doing, but her eyes keep closing,, and she poked herself in the finger. damnit, she really wanted to get these wings on.. but whatever, she would always have time to get it done, and right now wasnt a good time, she was gonna hurt herself more if she did.
She put the doll on the bedside table, the needle and thread right by it before she flicked off the light, and tucked herself fully into bed, she was finally feeling a bit better about sleeping lately, it was getting better, she rolled onto her side, nuzzling her pillow as the thoughts in her mind slowly turned in peacefully dreams.