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" fuck..." John sighed; the still cold tile of the shower pressed against his forehead . He just wanted to go back to the tower and pretend like this mission never happened. He wanted to pretend that he didnt feel like a stray dog getting a collar put back on him and having a warm home to come back to. The weight on his ring finger felt ...good .Even though he didnt want to admit that to himself .
" Come on John ..its just Bobby, Cant even handle a touch from your fake husband . " he griped at himself . He felt ridiculous as soon as the words processed . A deep groan leaving the soldier as he gently knocked his head against the wall a few times . " Its just Bobby ...Sweet Bob ." He muttered and scrunched his eyes closed while taking a step back to basically waterboard himself with the shower head. Hoping it would maybe rinse the odd affectionate thoughts of the other man from his mind . But of course for John walker nothing was that simple . Even with the scalding water running over his skin he could feel Bobs gentle touch . How kind and genuine it felt at that moment ..he didnt expect him to do that ..they hadnt even really talked about the faux public displays . How long had it been since feeling a gentle touch ?...Two ..three years ? Even before their divorce it had started falling to pieces ..He had gotten too full of himself ..too distant and rough for that gentle life . So why cant he just deal with this , if he can do it then he can keep doing it now . John asked himself while giving himelf an amused smile . " Yeah John just totally act like a dick to Bob cause you ruined your own marriage ohhh yeah great idea. The guy who can put everyone in tourture chambers if he gets too sad . " he bitched at himself . " whatever dude .." he huffed and snatched the shampoo from its place . John had kept his place in the bathroom for awhile just to stay away until he no longer could take the small space . It was quiet in the house as he walked down the hall . His bare feet padding the dark wood until he reached the corner . " Bobby ?" He called out ; brows furrowed as he made his way into the living room . " Bob ?" He called again as his feet carried him faster into the kitchen . The backdoor suddenly opening infront of him ; the younger man nearly colliding with him . " Oh shit ..Sorry John I didnt know you were right there " he apologized and looked him over to make sure he didnt bash his nose in with his unawareness. The soldiers heart settled down once the brunette came into his view ; knowing he hadnt been kidnapped or something . " What were you doing ?" Walker asked with a raised brow . Bob quickly held his phone up and shook it . " Talking to 'Lena ..see how she is doing ..told her to tell Alexei hi an that his Copy of M*A*S*H came to the tower yesterday before we left , thats it " he explained with a nervous smile . " I-I made us dinner ..I mean I ordered it " he said correcting himself . His hand pointed back in the direction of the counter , A hopeful look in his eyes that he had done the right thing . " Pizza , I got the one you like ..its the italian sausage an canadian bacon with jalapeños ..oh an the olives are on only half of the pizza . But the best part , I got you a half gallon of sweet tea ..tadaaaa" Bob said opening the fridge and gesturing to the correct amber colored drink . The young man somehow looking full of himself and near puking as he waited on a response . John could only stand there dumbfounded that he had done all of this for him, even remembered all of this information about him. That little spark of warmth curling around his chest as he looked at him. < Maybe this wont be as bad as I thought .> Walker thought to himself while taking a few steps closer to the other man ." Thanks Bobby , s'real nice of you " he said giving a soft smile at him . Loving the way Bob chuckled a bit and his cheeks tinted any time he was praised . " heheh , Youre welcome Captain ."