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Pierrot
I feel something pressing down on me. I can't open my eyes. I can't move. I can't even think. I don't remember what happened before... before...?
Then I hear someone humming. I recognize the weight of someone resting on top of me. I slowly pry open my eyes to see a human on my chest, their sweet voice carrying an unknown melody as they trace hearts on my neck and chest. I can hardly breathe as I remember what happened before this.
'Y/N drugged me, they drugged me!' I want to squeal in delight 'This is a love confession. You don't drug and kidnap someone you don't love and you definitely don't cuddle them if you don't love them!'
Then I realize I'm missing a few things. I don't have my mask. That's on their nightstand. I don't have my hat. That's on the floor. They've seen me. This form anyway.
'But... they're still here. Still cuddled against me and still being sweet. Does it not matter? Do they still love me? Even after seeing what I truly am? They must if they didn't they wouldn't be here.'
They press gentle kisses to my face, covered in fur. Pet down my chest, 'oh, they took off my shirt', with their fingers barely touching me. They still adorn me with kisses and affection.
'Y/N isn't disgusted in me. They still love me.' Tears well up in my eyes, this... this is. This is painful. The love they're giving me is painful to bear. The amount and intensity overwhelm me. This is more than I had ever hoped for.
I try to move my lips to speak, but I can't. Whatever drug my dear used is very strong. I can't move at all. Though my attentive dear still notices I'm awake. They look up at me, and sadly, they sit up and stop cuddling me. They see the tears and they start talking. The words rush out of their mouth faster than I can process while they wipe the stray tears. They tumble out as they explain, reason and beg.
"Okay, I know what you're thinking, but you're okay! I promise I won't do anything to you. I just want you to love me. And this seems to be the fastest way to make you do just that! This will only be until you accept me! Then I'll let you free, so please don't be scared ,darling!"
They look so scared as their words rush out, desperate to make sure I understand, but I already understand. I understand why they're doing this perfectly. I've also dreamed of holding them hostage, of making them love me, of making them need me. They just beat me to it.
But I can't speak. I can't let them know that everything is fine. That I love them too, and nothing, nothing would change that. Especially not a kidnapping! Why would I even be mad about this? I'm frustrated that I can't make them understand me now.
They seem to take my frustration wrong. "Pierrot! You really can't be mad at me! You told me to go away, remember?" They pout and poke my cheek. "And I couldn't risk you doing that again! You have no idea how much that hurt darling!" They flop down onto the bed.
I want to cry, my dear is upset and it's my fault! I need to explain why I asked them to leave that night. It wasn't because I didn't want to spend time with them, it was because it was too hard to control myself!
I manage to move my lips, uttering a few words. "It's ... okay... my-" They cut me off. The light back in their eyes as that gorgeous smile comes back.
"Really! Oh thank the heavens! It's good you're not mad about this. It makes it easier to..." they blush and sigh, "it's easier to fall in love when you're not mad at the person."
'I'm already in love my dear! With you! Please, please somehow understand now! Look into my eyes and see what I'm feeling!' But they don't. 'Come on mouth... move!'
They get back up and start running their fingers down my chest again. "That's why I did all this you know... I just want you," they drawled. They lead back onto me cuddling me once more.
They snuggle into me, spreading their limbs on top of me, pressing their delicate body into mine. A feeling I have never felt consumes my thoughs. Lustful and overpowering. But I can't move to take them. I can barely move my tongue. But I might be able to communicate my desire to them.
"I... already love you" I finally manage to gasp out
"Huh."
Their eyes are wide as they stare at me. It's an adorable sight really. Them all shocked and flustered. Hardly believing what I said even though they heard it with their own ears.
Their already ironclad grip on me tightens, "Really? Really? You really love me? Did I hear you right?" Their face is mere inches from mine as they stare into my eyes.
I need to reassure them but I used all my remaining energy to speak. They whine and poke my cheek. "You can't just say that darling!" They ponder for a moment before releasing me and grabbing my hand instead of my body. Since my hands are tied i get both of them on their thighs.
"Here, you tap if you really said you love me." They put my hands on their thigh. I blush as I feel their soft flesh under my hand. I mentally slap myself to make myself think clearly.
Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. I move my fingers to convey my feeling. Tapping again and again. I really can't move them that fast but my dear seems so shocked that they won't move. So with them frozen I get to tap again and again to tell them my love.
"So... you really love me?" They giggle as they repeat it again and again. "You love me... you love me. You love me. You love me. Me. You me. You me. Me you."
They squeal in delight. Flopping back onto their mattress. Their hands up in celebration as they keep laughing. Punching the air again and again. "You really do... even with everything..."
Their excitement cools down and they manage to sit calmly. They press a few gentle kisses to my face and hair, smothering me with their sweet affection.
"Thank you darling," kiss to my cheek "I won't let this love" kiss to my eyebrow "go to waste." Kiss to my lips. Then they kiss my lips again, and again, and again.
Their deliciously sweet lips press against mine. I can't move at all anymore, far too exhausted from earlier movement. I can't reciprocate at all but they continue. They close their eyes and cup my face.
This feeling overwhelms me, consumes my soul and body entirely. "I promise you'll never regret loving me" They shift to put a leg on each side of me. They slowly pull their lips away.
'I would never regret loving you!' I want to scream but my lips still won't move. 'How much longer until I can show you!' I struggle to move even an inch.
They press another kiss, this one to my chest. Placing a few before going to my neck, nipping and then gently kissing. The affection makes me shudder. I want to reciprocate. I want to show them my love. But I'm so exhausted. They are brave enough to give me this love even after seeing my hideous face and horns and I can't even kiss them!
They pull their face away from my neck. "Oh jeez. Right. Sorry Pierrot." The sulk as they rest their tiny head on my chest again. "The drugs I used will make you weak for awhile... you should sleep some more, darling!" Their feet are swing behind them as the press their face into my chest. "I'll be here when you wake up!"
I really am exhausted, and them next to me all warm and soft really isn't helping me stay awake. Their presence is just so relaxing... and the drugs are still making my thoughts fuzzy. I slowly surrender myself to the drug's effect. Falling into blissful sleep.
Y/N
His breathing evens out under me. "Hmm... I know you aren't human darling but I didn't expect you to wake up so soon." I relax against him as he falls into deep sleep, "it's impressive that you were also able to speak! You're so strong my Pierrot!"
This is very far off from what I was planning though. I don't really know how to feel about this honestly. I'm glad he loves me too but... well I was looking forward to having him here! I wanted to wake up with him in my bed and know he could never leave!
I mean if what he's saying is true I might still be able to have that but I won't have the same guarantee that he won't leave me. Course him not being human probaly would have changed things too. It seems he's stronger than the average male and I'm worried he might eat different or have some other odd needs. This complicates things. I'll still find a way to ensure that he can't leave me but physical force seems to not be an option anymore.
I grab the ropes still binding him, inspecting the knots and making sure they're tight enough. I'll take them off eventually. I need some way to make sure he wasn't joking or trying to convince me to let him go. I need to know his love is genuine. How can I be expected to let him go without further confirmation!
Harlequin
It's been hours since Pierrot left. The idiot had to go see that human. That odd human that adores him for no reason. They seriously tracked me down just to ask about his favorite food. Can they even make Bridadeiros? They aren't hard but they seem very dense.
I'm annoyed of course. I know I'm being irrationally mean to this human. I was rude when they asked me that simple question. I know I got too snappy and should have been nicer, for the circuses reputation at least. But having them ask me about Pierrot just seemed so wrong. Why are they so obsessed with that idiot?
I sigh as I begin taking off my cape. I can't help but think of what they are doing, alone, in an obviously romantic setting. They just met but I know how Pierrot feels, he's crazy for them and willing to do literally anything, and Y/N seems to be the same. So no telling how quick they will move.
Jester moves into my tent, looking around. "Harlequin." His voice is already snappy and inpatient, "Do you know where Pierrot is?" He glares down at me as he asks me the annoying question.
I groan, it's always Pierrot. Where is he? Is he okay? Stop triggering him! Stop being so rude to him. He's a sensitive brat nowadays. I'm getting tired of hearing that stupid name. "He went to meet up with that human of his." I lean back in my bed. Hoping to find some closure in my dreams.
That doesn't seem to really calm Jester down. He obviously knows about Y/N already but he might not know how deep this obsession is already. This is far deeper than with Columbina. This isn't that sickingly sweet love like before. Whatever is wrong with Pierrot mad him finally lose his marbles.
"Still? Didn't he leave hours ago? Did he even eat?" He's definitely worried. His concern even makes me feel a little bad I'm being so dismissive. Jester keeps this business together after all and we do put a lot of pressure on him. All the responsibilities...
"He's obsessed with that human. My guess they're too busy in eachother to notice how long they've been at it." I try to joke but I end up agitated at the thought. This is getting annoying now.
Jester frowns, "... Maybe." He sighs. "Come get me when he comes back. This can't become a reoccurring thing." He finally leaves my tent. Leaving me along with these odd feelings.
I scowl and shove these feeling away, no, no this is not happening. Not again. I do not feel anything for that pathetic human. No way. I'm just upset Pierrot is causing trouble and I can't mess with him. Yeah, I'm just mad that that human is getting in the way of me playing a few jokes on Pierrot. That's it. That's all there is to it.
I nod and accept this truth. I throw the last of my clothing to the floor and lay down in my bed. Such a foolish thing to even consider, me feeling anything for that human. Such nonsense, I am not like Pierrot. I close my eyes and force myself to stop thinking about it all together. I will rest and tomorrow I will torment that Pierrot, somehow.
Tomorrow comes too damn fast. Purple and blue blurs burst into my tent, throwing my discarded clothes at me and trying to rush me up. One hand grab my arm, sharp claws digging in.
"Pierrot never came back. He's gone. We need to find him now. Where does that damn human live?" One of them yells at me as they pull me up. They're rough and obviously stressed.
"Mghhhh I dunno..." I rub my eyes and try to focus on what's going on. Though that is very difficult. "Somewhere in this city I guess..." he that's stupid to say. I'm tired.
The blue blur smacks the back of my head like you would to a misbehaving child. "Yes you do, we know you do, where is Pierrot?" This one is more stressed than the other. Ticket Taker is more worried about what will happen if Pierrot were to cause some event.
I groan and try to remember, I followed them once so I do know. "Ugh... ####### ##th, that's their address, third story first door. It was after they found me to ask about his favorite food. I was so mad and decided to skip the whole advertising the circus just to follow them. I don't realky know why I did that. I didn't hurt them like I thought I would. "Do I have to come with?"
Jester waves me off. "No. You can stay here with Doctor. We'll be back soon." Hopefully they're more annoyed at Pierrot than me for not managing him. Hopefully he's caused some chaos so I get the right to torment the sucker.
I almost giggle at the thought of Pierrot getting in actual trouble. Though that probably won't happen. We all know how unstable he can be and everyone else does whatever they can to make sure he stays calm. "Hey, make sure not to hurt his human. He's already very attached to it."
They don't respond to that as they leave. Oh well... doesn't matter anyways. Pierrot will be miserable no matter what happens tonight. "Ehehe see you soon, you loser" I lay back down on my bed. It'll be fun seeing him gloomy tomorrow! I manage to fall asleep with blissful thoughts this time.
Y/N
I'm redoing the ropes for the tenth time. I'm paranoid that once he gets his strength back he'll escape. There'll be nothing I can do but watch as he leaves me. No, the mere thought is unbearable. I sneak to the kitchen. Pulling out the drugs and staring down at them. Preparing some more food. Dropping some drugs in there.
And now I have more drugged food. Not nearly as much as last time. This dose would only be enough to keep him weak, it wouldn't knock him out. My hands shake as I set it down on my table. I did it again. He said he loves me so there's no reason to do this but I still did.
I'm not doing this to make him love me anymore. I'm going this simply because I'm scared of him leaving me for even a moment. I had him all to myself for hours today, how am I supposed to return to how we were before? I can't! I can't let him just go, talk to other people, touch other people...
I walk back to the bed, staring down at my Pierrot. My love. My darling. I kiss his forehead again. Then his lips again. Then everywhere I can again and again. I'll keep him here forever. He was okay with this happening once. He'll be okay with this happening forever.
My balcony door break, the glass scattering across the carpet as two tall figures step into my apartment. They look pissed as their eyes go from me to Pierrot. Poor Pierrot with his arms and legs tied. Poor Pierrot who is unconscious. They know what happened and I know that without them saying a word. I look back at the just baked drugged sweets. That's how they know I drugged him. They can smell it in the air.
Their eyes lock onto Pierrot both of them looking disappointed in the clown. He knew too that the sweets were drugged yet still ate them. I back away to my kitchen and grab one of my knives. The two others simply ignore me as they walk to Pierrot and cut the rope. They do it so simply that It's hard to even be angry. Just a swipe of their claws and he's free. They do turn back to me after releasing them. Just their angry gaze is enough for me to sweat buckets.
"This... this isn't what it looks like...." I hold up my hands.