Chapter Text
But I guess you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'd feel it too
I could try to smile to hide the truth
But I know I was happier with you
“Eung..”
Taehyung was awakened by his own groan. He’s never felt so warm and refreshed for the past few months and he smiled contentedly. He wanted to stretch his arms but he felt himself trapped in another pair of them, not his own. That’s when he opened his eyes, only to find himself and whoever was holding him inside his dim-lit room. He tried to move again, only to feel a stinging pain on his lower back.
“Uh,” he groaned, exerting less effort in moving, trying to avoid the pain and discomfort.
His hand was trying to move, but instead, it met an expanse of a smooth skin. His cheeks began to resemble the peach fruit as he is started to realize that he and whoever was holding him are both naked. The blush on his cheeks intensified when he also realized that the arms of the man holding him felt familiar.
Extremely familiar.
And really protective, yet comfortable too.
His breath hitched as he felt the arms drawing him closer to the said man. He could only close his eyes and sniff not just the very manly scent from the other guy, but also of the traces of what took place last night. It was enough to make him blush even more. He wishes he could just pull himself away from the other coz he is starting to feel the warmth on his cheeks and it is really not helping.
Jungkook was not in a very good state. He could feel that his heart is beating at the fastest rate because in his arms is the most beautiful man that he has ever seen in his life. He silently wishes that the other isn’t awake yet because he doesn’t want things to become awkward between them. That’s the last thing that he wants to happen, now that he has made up his mind.
He drew the smaller man closer to him, arms holding on tighter around the thin frame. He smiled when he felt that the other’s breath hitched at the closeness. He resisted the urge to kiss him because God knows where that kiss would lead them. He couldn’t believe that last night happened. He thought it was all over, that he can never ever have any chance to hold the love of his life as close as this again.
He felt himself blush at the thought, and at the image that he will never ever forget.
The love of his life, flushed faced, kissing him, holding onto him, screaming his name, taking him in, loving him.
He was beautiful, always beautiful like that.
They have shared so many nights of love, heat and passion back when they were still together.
But none can ever compare to the one that happened the night before.
(Flashback to the previous night)
“I love you, Jeon Jungkook. I will---”
Taehyung didn’t get to finish his sentence when he felt Jungkook’s strong arms pulling him again, and his lips on his.
He froze. He slowly closed his eyes. Then he melted.
It has been months since the last time he felt Jungkook’s lips. It’s still as sweet and soft as it always has been. The kiss was gentle, the lips felt so gentle on his and the feeling of sharing a kiss with the man that he still loves so much made him cry.
“J-jung..k-kook,” he muttered in between the kiss. He could taste his tears.
He felt the arms around him loosened a bit, and a warm hand cupping his face. The move made his eyes open and met the younger’s misty ones. They stared at each other, before the older raised his other hand to also cup the other’s face.
Taehyung looked into Jungkook’s eyes. He can see lots of things--- sadness, pain, confusion, questions, and something he wishes to be true, forgiveness and love.
Jungkook, on the other hand, can see remorse, sadness, pain, and questions. Soon enough, tears began flowing out of his eyes but he never blinked or even attempted to wipe them. He just wanted to look at Taehyung, as if asking for some sort of comfort and assurance.
“Tae.. Do you really still love me?”
“Yes,” Taehyung answered with a nod and sobs. “I still do, Kookie. I’ve never stopped loving you.” He ran his fingers along Jungkook’s jawline.
The equally teary-eyed Jungkook nodded and wiped the tears off Taehyung’s face. “Taehyung,” he whispered with his eyes closed. “Oh god, Taehyung.. I.. I don’t know what to feel right now..” He opened his eyes again to more tears, which the older began wiping. “My emotions are on a haywire. I.. I’m..”
Thinking that maybe it’s because he has a new lover and that he could potentially hurt Seokjin, Taehyung tried his best to smile and shook his head. “Kookie, I understand. You.. You don’t have to think about me anymore.. I did so many stupid things that hurt you, that caused us to be like this. I.. I won’t take it against you. Just be happy with your new---”
“Taehyung,” Jungkook interrupted. He shook his head. “You don’t.. You don’t understand..”
“What do you---”
Taehyung didn’t get to finish his sentence again when Jungkook pulled him for another kiss, closer, this time, to the younger’s body.
The kiss, this time wasn’t as gentle as it was earlier. This kiss was hungry, desperate, pleading. And Taehyung, although responding to it equally, doesn’t understand what is going on at all.
It’s not like he didn’t want this moment to happen, no. He definitely does. He missed Jungkook kissing him like that, with their bodies pressed close to each other, holding onto him like the younger is afraid to lose him. He could cry in happiness because of how they are sharing a passionate kiss.
But there is Seokjin in the picture. He doesn’t want Jungkook to make the same mistake as he did. He doesn’t want Jungkook to cheat on Seokjin.
But a selfish part of him wants to go on and kiss Jungkook with all the love that he still has for him. The selfish part of him wants to give Jungkook all of him.
For one last time? He doesn’t know.
Maybe he should be a little selfish tonight. He missed Jungkook so much. He will never have this chance again, right? So he should take this chance, right?
Just once last time, before I let you go. Just let me be happy for one last time, Kookie.
Setting aside all his thoughts, Taehyung raised his arms and placed them on Jungkook’s broad shoulders, slowly keeping a hold on the younger’s nape. He responded to the kisses with more passion, tilting his head a little to give a better angle. He whimpered when he felt Jungkook’s arms around his waist, drawing them closer. They had to stop kissing when their breathing became ragged. Both hazily opened their eyes to stare at each other again, both admiring the each other’s faces.
Jungkook started tearing up. He couldn’t believe that he’d be able to get this close to Taehyung again, that he was able to kiss him again. How much he missed his ex-boyfriend. How much he still loves him, he won’t deny that. And the fact that the older admitted to him that he also still loves him has overwhelmed him so much.
He has been meaning to talk to Taehyung after what happened a couple of weeks ago at his apartment. He wants to clarify some things to the older, his stand, and who Seokjin really is for him. He felt like he needed to explain to Taehyung because his heart wouldn’t rest, seeing how hurt Taehyung was when he and the older were introduced to each other. He can’t just not allow a misunderstanding. And he also wants to know how the older actually thought that Seokjin is his new boyfriend, when he made it clear before they broke up that he will only love him.
(3 weeks ago)
“Baby bunny, I think you need to explain something to Taehyung. There seems to be some misunderstanding here?”
Jungkook was just flat out silent, staring at the stairway, when he heard his bedroom door open, and when a puffy-eyed Taehyung came down.
He stood up from his seat. “T-tae---”
But Taehyung only smiled and bowed at him and Seokjin and rushed towards the door, leaving Jungkook frozen from where he is. He just stood there for a couple of minutes, before he heard Seokjin let out a loud and deep sigh. He stared at the older, who was now glaring at him.
“Seriously, Jeon Jungkook?” Seokjin asked in a very irritated tone. “You could’ve just.. You could’ve have just run after him and explain?”
“Hyung..”
The older ruffled his hair in annoyance. “Damn! It was your chance to actually talk to him, baby bunny! It was your chance! But you just had to stay rooted there huh?”
Jungkook frowned and shook his head. “Hyung, I don’t know where to start.. When I saw him last night overwhelmed me. I still am overwhelmed. I.. I just---”
“Well, here’s the thing: I can still feel the tension okay? And it’s annoying me to no end that you guys haven’t talked to each other. You’ve been off for what? More than 4 months? And you guys look absolutely miserable and I couldn’t stand it!”
The younger, suddenly feeling a bit more emotional, felt weak in the knees that he decided to sit down. “Shit,” he cursed in a hushed voice. “Shit, seriously!”
Seokjin softened at the sight of the younger. He took another deep breath before walking towards Jungkook, who has now cupped his face and placed an arm around him. “Baby bunny, I know that it’s not easy. And I know I’ve told you that you can take your time and go on a pace that is comfortable to you.” He pulled the younger closer. “But you’ve met Taehyung last night, and he was here too. That was your chance to get off whatever it was that has been troubling you for months. You really need to talk to him coz maybe, just maybe, this would resolve the whole thing.” He gently pats the younger, trying to provide the solace that he needs.
Jungkook looked at the older, revealing the fresh tears in his eyes. He nodded. “I.. I will, hyung. I want to settle things with him. I guess it’s time..”
Seokjin chuckles. “Oh dear god, you two.” He motioned for the younger to come closer, and when he did, he hugged him. “Baby bunny, my dear baby bunny, you’ve grown up to be such a fine gentleman with a great heart. I feel so proud.”
Jungkook laughed at Seokjin. “You speak like my mum.”
“Well, you grew up with me, and I was practically your mum in the U.S. so,” the older joked. “But really, I am so proud of you.” He balled his fist. “Go get your baby tiger!”
Jungkook nodded. “Yeah, I will. I will.”
It might have taken him weeks to approach Taehyung, but Jungkook felt he really had to. He didn’t want to drag this any longer, like how he did when they were still together. It ended them two, and it left a scar in his heart. He wants a clean slate in life, and it starts with Taehyung. It has to.
He pretty much guessed that what happened near Taehyung’s work location was a wake-up call. When he saw Taehyung walking with Jihan, he nearly gave up trying, but he stopped because he felt something seemed off. He felt like he had to follow them.
It turns out he was right.
In his life, Jungkook never resorted to violence, no matter how angry he was. It was why no matter how angry he was with Taehyung every time he caught the other cheating on him. The one in the restaurant, before he broke up with Taehyung, wasn’t a violent fit. He just simply threw all the glasses he saw when he was in a fit of jealousy. Jungkook never liked violence.
And yet, when he saw how Jihan hit Taehyung, his precious Taehyung, he couldn’t stop himself from hurting the jerk. The sight of a crying and pleading Taehyung being hurt by an undeserving bastard was enough for him to forget his resolve. He didn’t care if he gets hurt in return, what matters is Taehyung. Always Taehyung.
Because Taehyung will always be his everything.
Jungkook closed his eyes for a few seconds before looking again at the beautiful, flushed man in front of him. He wasted no time and pulled Taehyung, making the older straddle him. He held the back of Taehyung’s head. He looked into the older’s eyes, as if asking for a permission. When Taehyung smiled, despite the tears, and nodded, he took it as a “yes” and proceeded to kiss him with so much love, so much passion.
Taehyung clung to Jungkook. Jungkook held Taehyung.
Both had tears in their eyes but they didn’t care anymore.
The kiss grew even more desperate, needy, intense, passionate, and heated by the second. Their tongues met and danced. When they are about to run out of air, they’d break it off for a few seconds and then go on, and the exchange will be even more intense than earlier.
Soon, they felt the need for more contact and so their hands touched, grasping each other. Then let go and started touching each other’s faces. Another minute has passed and Taehyung’s hands are on Jungkook’s arms, while Jungkook’s are holding on to Taehyung’s tiny waist.
“Nnngggghhh..”
It was Taehyung.
They stopped for a moment, their hands are still where they were. They stared again into each other’s tear-streaked eyes. They saw a lot of things, a lot of thoughts, a lot of feelings. It overwhelmed the both of them that they started weeping, resting their forehead against each other.
“Kookie,” Taehyung whispered in a very needy tone. He raised on of his hand to touch Jungkook’s face, as if he was trying to take in on the younger’s features. “Kookie, do you know how much I have longed for this? To have you this close to me again?”
Jungkook closed his eyes, feeling even more overwhelmed as Taehyung’s breath was ghosting over his lips. He nodded and opened his eyes. “Tae, baby.. Yes. And the same goes for me.” He tilted his head, just to get a better angle. “There wasn’t any time or any night that I didn’t wish to have you in my arms again, holding you, loving you..” He stared at Taehyung’s lips and gave it a light kiss. “You, giving yourself to me..” Another kiss. “Having you hold on to me..
The words made Taehyung blush and smile. He placed his arms around Jungkook’s shoulders. “Then please, hold me.. Hold me all night long.. Make love to me..”
“Yes, let’s do that, Tae..”
There were no words after that as they resumed kissing, giving it all their feelings. Their love and desire for each other are growing every second. And soon enough, soft, breathy moans can be heard.
Jungkook was the first to break the kiss, his lips travelling to Taehyung’s forehead, nose, cheeks, and all the way down to his jawline. Taehyung tilted his head back and this allowed for Jungkook to shower his neck with desperate, loving kisses. Taehyung moaned at the warmth of Jungkook’s kisses that he pulled him impossiby closer, just until the other claimed his lips again.
Jungkook lifted the both of them without breaking the kiss and this made Taehyung shift a bit, wrapping his legs around the other’s waist. The younger wrapped one arm around the older’s waist, the other securing the limbs surrounding his frame. Jungkook walked slowly towards the wall, making Taehyung lean on it, for support as he felt his knees slowly becoming shaky. They stopped for a bit just to look again into each other’s hazy eyes before continuing the kiss. Taehyung was grinding his hips towards Jungkook and this made the younger moan.
“F-fuck,” Jungkook cursed as he started to feel his pants growing tighter. “Tae baby..”
Taehyung didn’t stop what he was doing. “K-kookie, I n-need you.. Now..” He was producing breathy, need moans. “P-please, Kookie..”
Jungkook nodded. He held on to Taehyung the best way he could as they kissed their way towards the bedroom that they used to share. As soon as they got there, Jungkook, placed Taehyung on the bed, still not breaking the kiss. When felt that Taehyung was trying to pull off his sweatshirt, he decided to break the kiss to discard his upper clothes and immediately went back to claim the other’s lips.
Taehyung ran his hands on Jungkook’s torso, blushing when he felt the younger’s muscled upper body. It felt a lot more defined than from the last time. He looked at Jungkook before he took off his shirt and pulled them to lay down on the bed to resume kissing. It took them minutes to discard the rest of their clothing items.
Jungkook couldn’t help but cry and admire the beauty that is lying and moaning underneath him. How he missed this. How he really missed him and them in this. He cupped Taehyung face, tracing his fingers on the features he loved--- Taehyung’s nose and his plump lips.
“Baby, have I ever told you that you are the most beautiful person that I have ever laid my eyes on?”
Taehyung smiled at the question. “Y-yeah. You never failed to tell me that.” He let out another moan as he felt Jungkook’s fingers inside him. “Babe, you.. You don’t have to prep me..”
Jungkook shook his head. “Please, Tae.. I.. I want to make sure you aren’t in any sort of discomfort..” He paused for a moment because he suddenly feels insecure. Has he.. Slept around?
Taehyung didn’t miss the sudden look on Jungkook’s face. He understood. And he wants to give Jungkook some sort of assurance. With that, he pulled the younger into a kiss, breaking it off after a few seconds.
“Kookie, I’ve never slept around,” he confessed with a blush on his cheeks. “Just in case you wanna know.” He looked down, trying to hide his face. He played a bit with his fingers, feeling really shy after his little confession. “I.. I really mean it.”
Jungkook froze at the sudden confession. “I-if you..”
“You were the last..”
He stared at Taehyung for a moment, trying to grasp everything. When he finally understood what the other meant, he nodded. “I.. You were also the last, Tae..”
Taehyung looks up in surprise. “B-but..” He never slept with his boyfriend? How?
“..so I really should be careful. I.. I might hurt you..”
Taehyung felt tears escape his eyes again. Jungkook has always been so considerate towards him. Oh God, why did I even break his heart?
“Why are you crying?” Jungkook asked him. He withdrew his fingers from Taehyung and held his face. “Baby, did I hurt you?”
Taehyung wiped his tears and shook his head. “N-nothing.. I’m just..” He pulled Jungkook into a kiss again. I’m so sorry for ever hurting you. You have been nothing but good and loving towards me, Kookie. I do not deserve this. I do not deserve you. He broke off the kiss and looked into Jungkook’s eyes and smiled. “Take me now, Kookie. You don’t have to worry about hurting me.”
“Are you sure?” Jungkook asked, which the older replied with a nod. “O-okay..”
Taehyung lay his head on the pillow and slowly opened his legs so that Jungkook can get in between them. When the younger did, he closed his eyes and waited. His breath hitched when he felt Jungkook slowly entering him. Since he never slept around, having Jungkook in him felt a little painful and uncomfortable. He whimpered and wept at the intrusion, but still encouraged the other to go on. His hand grasped the bedsheets and he bit his lower lip just so he can forget the discomfort that he is in. He moaned and took a deep breath the moment he felt Jungkook was fully inside him.
Jungkook wiped all the tears from Taehyung’s eyes, muttering apologies and sweet words to help ease what the older is feeling. He could’ve just rammed himself in and out of Taehyung because the tight heat that is surrounding his manhood is making him lose his sanity.
But this is Taehyung, his Kim Taehyung whom he always considered as delicate and must be treated with gentleness at all costs. He muttered curses, still trying to control himself from moving. He looked at Taehyung before placing a gentle, longing kiss on his lips.
Taehyung opened his eyes and met Jungkook’s. He smiled and nodded, as if letting Jungkook know that he can finally move, which the younger did.
The thrusts were slow at first, as if they are still trying to get the hang of it. Eventually, it went faster, more desperate every second, and soon enough, there was an exchange of moans, curses, and kisses.
Taehyung clung on to Jungkook’s arms as the pace of the younger’s thrust became faster and more intense. He cursed, screamed and moaned in so much pleasure every time the younger hits his pleasure spot, urging for the other to go on. At one point, he moved his hips to meet the thrusts.
Jungkook, on the other hand, couldn’t help but still admire how beautiful Taehyung remains, even when his face is contorted due to the mix of pain and pleasure. He cupped the older’s flushed face, fingers trying to smoothen the little lines forming on the other’s face. He’d shower him with kisses all over while thrusting in a real fast pace.
Soon enough, they are slowly feeling their energy leaving them as they approach their completion. Tears formed in both their eyes and they laughed when they noticed it. Taehyung held Jungkook closer, while the latter touched his face. Their emotions and tiredness are slowly getting into them that they just had to crash their lips again into a really intense, emotional kiss they have ever shared. It was messy, it was desperate, but it conveyed the love that they have for each other.
Taehyung came first, spilling everything between their bodies. Jungkook, followed suit, filling Taehyung up, which made the older grunt. They were trembling and taking deep breaths after coming down from their high before they resumed kissing, whispering “I love you’s” and their names in between. It didn’t take long before Jungkook collapses on top of Taehyung and they stayed still and silent, looking at each other with hazy, hooded eyes and tired smiles.
Taehyung wrapped his arms around Jungkook’s body and began crying.
So did Jungkook.
They just stayed that way until sleep took over them.
(End of flashback)
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Baby, you look happier, you do
I know one day you'd fall for someone new
But if he breaks your heart like lovers do
Just know that I'll be waiting here for you
Taehyung kept his eyes closed. It felt bittersweet for him. If there’s one thing that he could wish right now, it’s for this not to end. For Jungkook to just hold him like he did the previous night. Because the moment Jungkook lets him go and they get off the bed, it means that things will go back to how it should be: Jungkook back to Seokjin, and him alone to pick up the pieces and slowly move on, to a life without Jungkook.
The thought of living his life without Jungkook pains him so much. But it has to be this way, right?
In his mind, the sight of Seokjin and Jungkook being so happy together every time they went out on their dates is something that he just couldn’t get off. He can’t be just selfish and take away what the two has shared, right?
He already became selfish last night, by asking Jungkook to stay the night and to hold him. He wanted to believe that Jungkook still loves him, but he couldn’t. He can’t let the younger hurt Seokjin. Today, he has to let Jungkook go.
He has to.
For himself. For Jungkook.
Because you have to be happy, even if it’s not with me. Someday, I will be happy too, even if it’s not with you.
If ever though that you can’t find yourself happy with Seokjin, if he hurts you like I did, I’ll be waiting here. I will take you back.
But that’s.. Far from happening.. Because I really have to let you go.
He looked up to Jungkook and gently patted his arms to wake him up. “Jungkook, you should leave now.”
Jungkook’s eyes opened at the words. “Huh?” He raised himself and looked at Taehyung, who looked back at him without any expression.
Taehyung kept his composure. “You need to.. You need to go back to Seokjin. Last night was a mistake. I can’t let you make the same mistakes I did.” He gets up from his bed, trying to avoid Jungkook’s gaze because this will crumble his resolve. He was about to enter the bathroom when he felt Jungkook’s hand pulling his arm.
“W-what are you talking about, Tae?” Jungkook asked in confusion. He tried to turn Taehyung around but the other wouldn’t budge. “Tae, look at me. Look at me!” He felt himself shaking when he couldn’t get the older to look at him. “Is this about Seokjin hyung again? Coz---”
But Taehyung cut his sentence. “I told you that I am letting you go, right?” He yanked Jungkook’s arms off him and he hurriedly went inside the bathroom. “This is for the best, Jungkook.” He placed his hand on the counter and he started tearing up. “I know you told me that you love me, but that’s just not true. You.. You already have someone else.”
“No, who are you to say that?” Jungkook asked, his voice loud and desperate. “At least let me---”
Taehyung still didn’t let Jungkook finish his sentence. “Jungkook, please. Just go.” He tried to control his sobs by covering his mouth. “Leave me. This is how things should be. Go. Go and be happy with Seokjin. I.. I will try to mend myself and move on.” He held his breath and looked up at the ceiling. “Someday, I will find someone new, just like you did. And then I will be happy.” He wiped his tears and leaned on the counter again. “And then one day, we'll meet again. And we will be friends and..”
“Is that what you want, Tae?”
Taehyung stopped. He wanted to answer, but he couldn’t bring himself to do so.
“Do you really want to forget me? Do you really think that last night was a mistake?”
It was.. Not.. But..
“Do you really want to let me go? Just after I told you so many times that I will always love you? Really, Tae?”
I never wanted to. But I have to. Because there is someone in your life now, and I don’t want you to end up cheating on him, like I did.
He heard Jungkook sigh.
He wanted to turn around, open the door and run towards Jungkook to hug him and take back what he said earlier, but his emotions are in a huge mess that he couldn’t at all.
“Did you really mean what you told me last night? That you love me?”
Yes.
“..or you are just making excuses? Tell me.”
He wanted to say something, but he couldn’t he wouldn’t let himself say anything.
“Do you know that I wanted to see you, to talk to you? Because there’s something that I wanted you to know?”
He could hear Jungkook’s footsteps approaching.
“Do you actually think that I am gonna allow you to hurt me again, Tae?”
Kookie..
Taehyung takes a deep breath. “Jungkook, please stop making things harder between us..”
“No, Taehyung. It’s you who’s making things complicated. Can you at least allow me to finish what I wanted to say?” Jungkook pleaded, a little agitated. Taehyung could tell that the younger has been crying. “You’re being selfish. You’re being unfair. I didn’t swallow my pride to look for you, to talk to you, just for you to shut me off and hurt me again.”
Taehyung knew that Jungkook was right, but he decided not to say anything. He decided that he maybe should listen to the younger, because there was something about the way Jungkook is desperately trying to tell him. He couldn’t quite understand but there’s a nagging thought asking him this time to stop being rash, or he will hurt Jungkook. He has hurt the younger so much, he doesn’t want to do that anymore.
Jungkook stares at the bathroom door, left hand on the knob. He is contemplating whether he should open and barge in or not. He is getting a little bit irritated at how Taehyung has been behaving towards him.
Last night, he was declaring his love for him, asking him to hold and make love to him.
What is he rambling on about letting me go?
He took a deep breath to control his emotions and thoughts. He won’t let this irritation and Taehyung’s behavior mess with his decision.
With this, he twisted the doorknob and was surprised to find out that Taehyung didn’t lock it. He carefully opened the door and found the older leaning onto the counter, crying. He made careful steps in approaching the Taehyung, who seemed to be unaware that he is already inside. He stared at him for a few seconds before wrapping his arms around the other’s tiny waist and placing his chin on top of Taehyung’s bare shoulders after kissing it.
Taehyung was surprised at the action, and with the fact that Jungkook got in. He wanted to remove the younger’s arms, but Jungkook didn’t allow him to do so.
“Tae, please stop running away from me.”
“I.. I wasn’t..”
Jungkook shook his head. “You are. You wouldn’t even listen to me.”
Taehyung sighed, leaning his back against Jungkook’s bare torso. “Because..”
“Tae, Seokjin hyung.. We are not together.”
The statement made Taehyung snap. He turned his head towards Jungkook, making their faces closer. “W-what?”
Jungkook chuckled. “I don’t know where you got that info, or how you got this idea of him and me being together, but yes. Seokjin hyung.. He isn’t my boyfriend. Never was. Never will be.” He smiled at Taehyung’s facial expression, the older’s eyes are blinking from confusion, his plump lips are curved into an O .
Taehyung felt like his soul left his body. So, all this time..?
As if understanding what was on his mind, Jungkook nodded. “I’ve never dated anyone after you, Tae. I just.. didn’t feel like it,” the younger confessed. “How am I supposed to see other people when I’ve always yearned for you?”
Tears welled up on both their eyes. Taehyung felt Jungkook’s grip on him loosening so he took this chance to turn around and their eyes met.
“Kookie..”
Jungkook looked at Taehyung’s right hand before taking it to entwine their fingers. “So, please hear me out. I don’t want to end this day without telling you what you need to hear.”
Taehyung nodded and proceeded to wipe the tears off Jungkook’s eyes. “Go on..”
Jungkook kissed the hand that he was holding. “I.. I hated you for hurting me, Tae. I have suffered a lot from what you did to me. You have practically ruined me..”
“I’m s-sorry..”
“I broke up with you because I wanted to get away from you, but not because I don’t want to be with you anymore,” Jungkook began. “God knows how I wanted to stay by your side. But what you did to me broke my heart so much.. The pain was unbearable..” He turned Taehyung around so that he faces his back and pulled him for a backhug.
“I started developing insecurities, as a man and as a lover. I.. I kept asking myself if I was actually good enough. I kept asking myself if I did you wrong, if I have hurt you in any way. I was thinking that you wouldn’t look at anyone else if there isn’t anything wrong with me. I figured there is. There must be something.” He took a deep breath and kissed Taehyung’s shoulder again. “That night.. That night I broke up with you, I saw you with Jihan, that bastard.” His blood boiled with anger, remember how the said man hurt Taehyung. This made him hug the older in a very possessive way.
“That night, Tae.. I saw how you looked at him, like he was perfect, that he would probably treat you better than I ever would. And that scared me to death. It all dawned on me.. That maybe something really was wrong with me. That maybe I need some time to be all by myself, to become a better man, a better lover. Maybe for you or for someone else, if ever we can’t be together anymore.”
Taehyung’s heart broke at the confession. He wishes he could take it all back. He wishes he could turn back the time to when he could’ve stopped being shallow, selfish, and attention seeking. “Kookie, I’m so sorry..” He took Jungkook’s right hand and kissed it. “I’m so sorry for making you feel that way. You.. You were perfect. You are perfect. I was the stupid one.”
Jungkook shook his head. “Tae, no. You’ve apologized enough.”
“But---”
The younger placed a finger on Taehyung’s lips. “What did I tell you about hearing me out?”
“O-okay..”
Jungkook took a deep breath before continuing. “But instead of finding a way to improve, I’ve kept it all inside and made myself believe that nothing is wrong, that I’ve ended our relationship so that I can move on. I was a mess and I didn’t know when and how to start. I’ve been convincing myself all those months that I’ve made a decision to let you go because I am so done with you. That I don’t want to be with you anymore. That I hate you..” He paused for a minute, staring and playing with his and Taehyung’s entwined fingers. “But the moment I saw you, that one night you were drunk, all of those thoughts crumbled. That I left you not because of what you did.. But because of myself. That I don’t hate you at all.”
Why do you have to blame yourself, Kookie? Why? Taehyung asked in his thoughts. It was me who cheated. It was me who was the problem. It was me who wasn’t contented.
“That day you told me about Seokjin hyung being my boyfriend? That was some sort of a wake-up call. It made me remember what I promised to myself the night I broke it off with you.” He loosened his hold again on Taehyung. “I promised myself that I will come back for you, that I wanted to take you back when the time and situation is right.”
Taehyung felt a sudden rush of emotions wash over him. “W-what?” Tears began filling his eyes again. “What are you talking about?”
Jungkook turned Taehyung around again and cupped his face. “Tae.. I was miserable when you cheated. But I was more miserable without you. I’m..” He cowered a little and wiped some tears that once again began forming in his eyes. “I’m sorry.”
Taehyung pulled Jungkook into his arms. “Why are you apologizing, Kookie? If anything, it should be me, coz I was the one who caused you to feel that way.” He rubbed the younger’s back for comfort. “Please stop blaming yourself. Don’t apologize to me.”
“When.. When you told me last night that you still love me, do you have any idea how it lifted off all the pain in my heart? And that it helped me with my decision?”
Jungkook brough Taehyung and kissed him on the lips. It wasn’t intense, just light but with sincere feelings. He pulled away after a couple of seconds and smiled.
“Tae baby.. Let’s put an end to this misery because I can’t be without you, and you can’t be without me, too.”
With those last words, Jungkook let go of Taehyung and went out of the bathroom, with the older trailing behind him. He went ahead into the corner where they both threw their clothes and searched for his pants. Taehyung’s brows scrunched in confusion.
“Kookie, what are you doing?”
Jungkook only smiled in response to Taehyung’s question. Once he found his pants, he carefully pulled out a tiny blue velvet box, making sure that Taehyung doesn’t see it yet. He stood up, hiding the box behind him and walked his way to the older and gave him another kiss.
“Jungkook, what are you---”
Taehyung didn’t get to finish his question when he noticed that Jungkook is slowly kneeling down and is bringing his arm forward, his hand holding on to something. He was about to open his mouth to speak, but he didn’t get to. Not when Jungkook revealed a blue velvet box and what is inside of it, a beautiful and shiny silver ring. His jaw dropped, his facial expression conveys shock, and his body began to slightly tremble.
Jungkook smiled for a moment until he started to feel a sudden rush of emotions that he ended up having tears in his eyes again, which he didn’t bother wiping.
“Tae, baby.. I know we are not in the best state for this. We don’t have our clothes on and we haven’t even eaten breakfast yet, but to hell with it,” he began, lightly laughing just to ease his nerves. He took a deep breath before continuing. “The last couple of months have been nothing but hell and misery, and I’ve made myself clear that I no longer want that. I don’t want us to be apart anymore. I want you back in my life, and I know you want me back in yours.” The now teary eyed Taehyung chuckles. “I want us to start over, you and me. It doesn’t matter if our friends approve or not, but I will make sure they will eventually do so. I just want us to be together again.”
Jungkook paused to gasp for air and Taehyung laughed because of it.
“Okay.. So.. Going back.. I know it may be too fast, but I am asking for this because.. I don’t think I can ever love another person. No other person can ever, ever take your place baby. There’s only you and it will always be only you. And I want to be the only person in your heart, the only man that you will ever love. And I sure hope you feel and think the same.. But let me finish first and then give me your answer later.”
This earned another laugh from Taehyung, “Sure, sure..”
“Okay. I want us to be together again. I want us to be happy together. I want us forever. Through heaven and hell.. Oh my god.. I’m sorry I can’t be cheesy or romantic doing this, but..”He closed his eyes for a couple of seconds and took a deep breath again. “Kim Taehyung, I’m taking you back in my life because that’s the only thing I wanted and needed. You are my love, my life, and my happiness. And I’m just really dying to share and spend this lifetime with only you. I love you so much. I promise to do whatever it takes to have you by my side and for you to love me forever..”
With one last deep breath, he looked deeply into Taehyung’s eyes, hoping that they convey his love.
“Can you come back into my life? Not just as my lover, but also my husband? Will you marry me, Tae baby?”
Taehyung stared at Jungkook with tears in his eyes and a beautiful, happy smile on his lips. He kneeled down and kissed Jungkook on his nose and on his lips. His lips lingered on the younger’s lips for a couple of seconds before nodding. “Yes, Jeon Jungkook. Yes. I’m more than happy to be back in your life, not just as your lover but also as your husband.” He cupped the younger’s face and kissed his lips again. “I love you. And thank you.”
Jungkook took Taehyung’s left hand and helped him wear the ring. Taehyung’s eyes sparkled. The ring may be very simple but the fact that it was from Jungkook, that it was a gift of love? It became the most beautiful ring that he has ever seen in his life.
They smiled at each other before they melted into another passionate, loving kiss. It went on for quite a while until an alarm tone made them stop.
Jungkook looked at the wall clock and gasped. “Shit, baby. It’s almost 10 am. Let’s have breakfast. You must be starving.”
He was about to stand up and pull Taehyung up with him when he felt the older tugging on his wrist. He looked at him, only to find a pout on his lips.
“Kookie..
“Yes, baby?”
“Let’s skip breakfast.”
Jungkook titled his head in confusion. “Huh? Why?”
A naughty smile appeared on Taehyung’s face as he placed his arms around Jungkook’s neck. “Let’s.. Make love..”
“W-what?”
Jungkook mentally cursed at Taehyung’s suggestion and he felt himself getting hard. Taehyung smirked in victory.
“Babe, breakfast can wait, you know?”
“O-okay..”
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“So wait..”
Jungkook stopped rubbing the soap on Taehyung’s back and stared at the older. “Yeah?”
It’s already 3 in the afternoon when they have decided they’ve made enough love for the day, and they’re now taking a bath. In the bathtub and not the shower room. (Because Taehyung was too sore to even stand)
Taehyung took the rubber duckie that was floating on the bathtub and squished it. “Who or what exactly is Seokjin hyung in your life?”
Jungkook chuckled, which earned him a smack in the arm. “Hey!”
Taehyung playfully gave the younger a meh look. “Well, you didn’t tell me okay?”
Jungkook smiled and sighed. “Seokjin hyung.. He is my older half-brother..”
“Oh.”
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“HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!”
Taehyung blushed and hid his face in Jungkook’s shoulders. “I-i’m..”
Seokjin held his stomach, trying to contain his laughter. “Oh my god hahahahahahaha! I caaaaaan’t! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!”
Taehyung shook Jungkook’s arms, as if telling him to ask Seokjin to stop laughing and the younger only shook his head before mouthing I’m sorry to his lover. This made Taehyung silently wish for a hole to appear on the floor and swallow him.
Days after he and Jungkook reconciled and became engaged, the younger introduced him to his older brother, Seokjin. He found out that Seokjin was his mother’s son from an older marriage and he grew up in the U.S. that’s why nobody knows him, even Namjoon and Yoongi. Jungkook also told him that his older brother is a culinary chef.
Seokjin was a total sweetheart towards the couple. He welcomed them into his small apartment(Jungkook explained that he did offer Seokjin to move into his house, the one he bought after they broke up, but the older refused), and even made them lots of food, which Taehyung enjoyed. They were having a fun conversation when Seokjin suddenly brings up about Taehyung mistaking him for Jungkook’s new boyfriend. When he was done narrating everything, that’s when the older started in a fit of laughter.
“H-hyung, stop.. You’re embarrassing Taetae..”
Seokjin wiped the tears that formed in his eyes and clutched his stomach again. “I’m.. Hahahahaha! I’m sorry Taehyung! It’s just that.. HAHAHAHA!”
Taehyung cowered even more. “Kookie.. I’m so embarrassed!” Jungkook only responded with a pout on his lips.
It took a couple of minutes before Seokjin decided to stop laughing and smiled at the couple.
“Okay, so kidding aside.. I’m glad you two are back.” He cupped placed his elbows on the table and placed his head between his hands and smiled. “Taehyung, you don’t need to feel shy or awkward towards me, okay? I am practically your hyung now and you are gonna get married to my baby bunny real soon. Be comfortable around me, alright?”
Taehyung stopped hiding from Jungkook’s shoulder and looked at Seokjin with a small smile. “I’m.. Thank you, hyung. You have no idea how much this means to me.”
The oldest in the room smiled. “No, if anything, having you here means a lot to me.” He stared fondly at his younger brother and smiled at Taehyung. “Thank you for loving my Jungkookie, Taehyungie. Thank you for making him happy.”
Jungkook blushed. “H-hyung..”
“I treasure Jungkook so much because he is very precious. Seeing him grow up, man up and fall in love, and become happy is one of my greatest wishes in life, Taehyungie. When we were kids, he would always defend me from all my bullies at school. Like, can you believe, a cute baby boy with those bunny teeth, chubby cheeks and everything else? Defending his hyung? From bullies?” Seokjin squealed at the memory. “Kyaaaa! Kyaaaa!”
“Hey hyung, I’m not a baby bunny anymore, what are you talking about?”
The oldest chuckled at the youngest’s statement. “Nope, you are still my baby bunny, oh yes you are!” he cooed, arms reaching out to pinch his younger brother’s cheeks.
Jungkook blushed again and yanked his hyung’s hands off him. “Hyung!”
Seokjin faked a gasp. “How dare you?” When he notice Jungkook’s panicking expression, he laughed. “Fine, you are not a baby anymore. You are even getting married before me!” He held Jungkook’s hand and smiled. “But seriously, Jungkook, I’m really, really happy now.” He motioned for Taehyung to give him his hand, which the younger did. Having both the couple’s hands on each of his hands, he held them. “Taehyung, kindly take care of him for me, okay? I don’t doubt that you can make him happy or even your love for him, but Jungkook is fragile and forever will be smol in my eyes---”
“Hyung!”
“..I’m sure he will love you so much, make you the happiest spouse, and also take care of you for the rest of your lives, so I wish for you to do the same. Pretty please?”
Taehyung smiled and nodded. “Yes, Seokjin hyung.” He looked at his lover with a fond, loving smile. “I promise I will and I am bent on keeping it. There’s no way I won’t be taking care of Kookie. I.. I love him so much.”
Jungkook smiled and kissed his lover. “Thanks, baby. I love you too.” He turned to his older brother and smiled. “Thank you very much, hyung. I know I don’t say these enough, but I’m thankful that you are my hyung. I’ll be eternally grateful for you. And.. and I love you.”
Seokjin weeps at the youngest’s words. “Oh my god, you cheesy idiot! Come here! You too, Taehyungie.” He pointed to his sides, motioning for them to come over.
The couple stood up from their seats and sat on each available side of Seokjin. The oldest pulled them into a hug.
“I love you both, okay?”
The couple smiled and nodded. “We love you too, Seokjin hyung.”
“Let me be in charge of your food at the wedding reception, okay?”
“Hyung!”
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“So uh..”
Jungkook could sense the awkwardness in the room. He scratched his nape as he looked around. His other hand is rubbing soothing circles on Taehyung’s back
Namjoon and Yoongi only stared at the couple. Jimin did, too, but unlike the others, he has a huge smile on his face.
Jimin sipped his tea and stared at the fidgeting couple. “So.. You’re back together and you’re engaged?
Taehyung and Jungkook stared at each other before looking at Yoongi and Namjoon, and lastly at Jimin. “Y-yeah,” they answered in unison.
Jimin jumped on his seat, squealed, and clapped. “I don’t know and don’t care about these two,” referring to his boyfriend and Namjoon, “but I’m really, really happy!” He stood up and hugged the couple. “Oh my god!” He started fanning himself. “Like, fucking finally!”
The couple laughed nervously and stared at the other two.
Jungkook bit his lower lip and looked at his best friends. “Namjoonie hyung, Yoongi hyung..”
Namjoon, whose arms are crossed, stared at Taehyung, which made the latter a bit nervous. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. “Hey, Kim Taehyung?”
Taehyung glanced up at the mention of his name. “Y-yeah?”
“I hate you.”
Taehyung flinched at the words. He scooted closer to Jungkook, who smiled apologetically to him and held his hand for comfort. “I.. I understand..”
“I also hate you,” Yoongi blurted out, staring daggers at Taehyung, ignoring the light slap Jimin gave his arm. “I hate you for cheating on Jungkook and for breaking his heart.”
“Yeah, and really? I personally do not approve that you guys are back together,” Namjoon added.
“Hyung..
“Shut up, Jungkook.”
Taehyung bit his lower lip to prevent himself from crying. He pretty much understands why Jungkook’s best friends hate him. But he won’t let their words break him or even shake his rekindled relationship with Jungkook. He took a deep breath before speaking. “First of all, Namjoon hyung, Yoongi hyung, I understand what you two feel. And I’m really sorry for what I did to Jungkook. Believe me, I regret it so much.” He stared at Jungkook with a small smile and squeezed his fingers. “But, I love Jungkook. I do, I still do. I will always do. Your approval matters so much to me. I have to admit that I am sad that you don’t approve of me, but that doesn’t mean that I will let your words or your thoughts and feelings about me and what I did in the past to affect me and my decision to be with Kookie.”
Jungkook smiled and squeezed Taehyung’s fingers back. “Baby.”
Taehyung smiled. “Babe.” He raised their entwined fingers and kissed them. “Whether you agree or not, I have made the decision to make up for what I did to Kookie for the rest of my life. I.. I will always give him all the love that I can give to him. I will take care of him. I will always be by his side, no matter what happens. I.. I will just love him the best way that I could.”
The couple smiled at each other before bringing their lips to a sweet kiss. Jimin squealed on his seat and cooed at the love and cuteness in front of him.
“Oh my god. I hate the fact that you guys are forgetting that I am here too, but shit really, Taehyungie, Jungkookie, you guys make me cringe and weep at this display of sweetness!”
All five turned their heads to the lone seat by the wall, staring at the man sitting on it.
Hoseok scoffed. “So now you realized I’m here. What the actual fuck?” He stared at the unconsumed milkshake in front of him before looking at all the five people with him. “Anyway. Yoongi hyung, Namjoonie. I think it’s high time we let bygones be bygones. Look at TaeKook.”
“TaeKook what..?”
“Can we like set aside the past? I mean it’s Jungkook’s decision to take Taehyung back, who are we to decide for them?” he continued, giving the couple a smile. “Look at them. They look so happy, albeit the nervousness because of the two of you, and so in love. Why would you wanna stop love? It’s clear that they love each other, miserable without each other. Would you rather see them off and moping around, missing each other? You, Yoongi hyung? Can you bear having Taehyung drag Jimin every day? You tell me?”
Jimin stared at his boyfriend with a pout and nodded. “Yes, hon. Listen to Hoseok hyung.”
Yoongi and Namjoon stared at each other, at Jimin, at Hoseok, at Taehyung and Jungkook, and then back at each other.
“Yoongi hyung.”
Yoongi nodded at Namjoon’s words, as if agreeing on something. “Fine.”
Jungkook looked at his best friends. “F-fine what?”
Namjoon sighed and let his facial expression soften. “Hoseok hyung is right. We don’t have any say on this. It’s on the two of you.”
Yoongi nodded again and held Jimin’s hand. “We’re cool. But Taehyung?”
Taehyung looked at Yoongi. “Yes, hyung?”
Yoongi’s face softened and let out a small smile. “Please keep your promise. Love Jungkook and make him happy. Don’t you ever make him cry again.”
“Ditto,” Namjoon added.
Taehyung’s nervousness left and his he took a deep breath. “T-thank you.. I will.”
Namjoon smiled. “Okay, make sure you do.” He turned to Jungkook. “And you.”
Jungkook gulped. “Yes?”
“Be happy.”
The youngest nodded and looked at his lover and they kissed each other again, to Hoseok’s horror.
“God, I’m cringing!”
Jimin hit Hoseok and stared at the couple again with so much fondness. Thank God, they’re finally back together. When he noticed Taehyung was looking at him, he smiled and gave him a thumbs up and a finger heart.
The group proceeded to start celebrating for the newly engaged couple. They ordered a lot of food and drinks. Their order’s arrived after a couple of minutes but they didn’t eat just yet. They decided to exchange stories and fool around with each other. The room was full of noise when..
“Oh hey, am I late?”
The first to turn around to look at the newly arrived guest was Namjoon and his jaw dropped.
“Seokjin hyung! Glad you made it!” Taehyung greeted, waving his hands.
“I know right?” the new guest, Seokjin, replied. “Do you honestly think I will miss this for the world?”
Jungkook and Taehyung stood up to greet Seokjin and motioned for him to sit beside the only available space in the room, the seat next to Namjoon.
Once seated, Seokjin bowed at Namjoon and smiled. “Hi, I’m Seokjin, “ he introduced, his hands up to shake Namjoon’s hand. “I’m Jungkookie’s hyung. You are..?”
Namjoon tried controlling his blush and stared at the hand infront of him before taking it for a handshake. He had a smile on his face.
“I’m Namjoon, Jungkook’s best friend.”
“Hi Namjoon, it’s nice to meet you.”
Jungkook and Taehyung looked around the room with smiles on their faces. They both feel very happy that they are now surrounded with the people that they treasure the most, celebrating their relationship. They looked at each other with so much love and fondness, and shared another kiss.
“I love you, Jeon Jungkook.”
“And I love you, Kim Taehyung.”
They entwined their fingers and kissed. They leaned on to each other, basking in the love and happiness that they feel for and with each other.
= T H E E N D =