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I finally made it to the backstage bathroom.
Hopefully Nene didn’t hear the fear in my voice. Why am I scared over someone calling me a girl. It’s what I want, right?
*the door clicked open.*
Nene:
“Rui.. it’s fine, you know Tsukasa didn’t mean too-“
Rui:
“I- I know.. I just froze and I didn’t know what to say so.. I just ran.”
I feel Nene grabbing my arm.
Nene:
“Rui you’re trembling.”
Rui:
“I’m fine.. just tell him I went home early because i felt sick.. I’m sorry.. Nene..”
I ran. I needed to get home. It was the only place that was safe.
*[At home—in Rui’s bedroom/garage]*
Hopefully mom and dad aren’t home—
Rui’s mom:
“Rui? What are you doing home so early darling?”
Rui:
“Oh- practice was cancelled today..”
Rui’s mom:
“Alright, dinners gonna be ready soon so I’ll shout you down.”
Rui:
“Ok, thanks mom.”
My chest hurts. I’m such a fucking coward. Why am I panicking over someone calling me a girl, I want to be seen as a girl, so why am I all worked up over it. Nenes definitely gonna be on my ass for the next few days. She’s so sweet but worries about every little flaw.
Them six words keep echoing in my mind.
‘You know Tsukasa didn’t mean it.’
I know he didn’t. No one knows my secret. Not yet anyway. I’m still surprised the boys from middle school haven’t really spread many rumours. Maybe they finally grew a pair of common sense and empathy. Maybe. Just maybe.
God I feel sick just thinking about Tsukasa's reaction.
“Ew- you’re one of them men who pretends to be a girl just so you can get your hands on them! Pervert!”
Now he’s making me sound like Lily Tino. Right what am I doing.
I’ll just work on an invention to pass the time. Robo-Nene needs some new repairs since our last show wasn’t long ago. God why did Emu have to jump on top of her.