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Senior year was going to be great. Ilya had his boyfriend,Friends, and a new amazing family he couldn’t ask for more.
Except his boyfriend then gets injured and can’t play hockey anymore, something Shane loves and Ilya can see it crush him.
Shane has been obsessed with hockey since birth. He definitely came out of the womb in skates poor Yuna but anyways Shane loved it now he didn’t know what to do with his life.
He was lost and one thing Shane hated more than a wrinkled shirt was being lost and out of control and Ilya hated seeing Shane so distraught.
He kept looking at Shane with concern. Shane isn’t eating much and he was talking so much but it wasn’t about anything. It was the same conversation over and over again and Ilya didn’t think Shane noticed it was concerning.
After a bit Ilya would start to get sad when he looked at Shane he wasn’t eating much or at all and Ilya couldn’t help he didn’t know how and Shane looked very tired and pale it made his freckles look faded and Ilya hated it.
The new kid Troy reminded Ilya of himself and he wanted to make Troy okay and get the stability he obviously needed and also Troy was just a good friend to have and be around.
He missed Shane though it was like Shane distended himself further away for some reason and Ilya didn’t know what to do he didn’t know how to help and he hated it even more than the fact Shane was distancing himself from Ilya.
Scratch that apparently from everyone even rose and Hayden okay Ilya was concerned before but now he was a little petrified for Shane.
Ilya had gone through this before with himself and he saw it with his mother and he was pissed at himself for not noticing before there was so many signs god he should have known losing hockey would make Shane spiral into depression.
Ilya had to do something but what? He couldn’t get Shane back into hockey and Shane didn’t want to be around him or anyone.
…wait just because Shane doesn’t want to be around anyone doesn’t mean Ilya can’t try to be around Shane to show him he’s there for him.
That’s how Ilya was in Shane’s room on a Thursday afternoon. It was a week into winter break and Shane barely texted or called him back let alone reached out first so Ilya decided enough was enough and drove over.
“Lyubimaya?” Ilya spoke softly not wanting to startle him
Shane turned around to face him, still laying down”hmm?” It was mumbled and half hearted like it took all his energy for the week to get out.
“Shane, talk to me please. It's been about a month since you started pulling away. Please come back and talk to me” he basically begged him.
“I’m fine Ilya” it was said quietly
“No you arnt look i know you lost hockey I get it i know how important it is to you but you can’t push everyone else away it’s not healthy or safe for you please zhizn Moya.”
After about an hour of Ilya begging Shane to talk to him Shane broke down crying in his arms and telling him everything he thought this past month.
That he didn’t feel good enough without hockey that it was the only thing that he was good at and enjoyed but also that he was lost and didn’t have anything to control and he just didn’t feel like he deserved to have amazing people around him if he wasn’t good enough to be around them.
It broke Ilya's heart how this amazing beautiful boy thought he wasn’t good enough that he didn’t deserve people around him if he didn’t have hockey god Ilya needed to talk to Yuna about getting him a therapist.
But first Ilya needed to get Shane to eat. He didn't know the last time he ate and he was scared to find out.
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It took about a month for Shane to be able to eat and be around people without freaking out internally.
Ilya was so proud of him he was doing so well even if it wasn’t how he thought his senior year would go he’s not totally upset about how it went.
Yes he knew it was bad and he hated that Shane was hurt and going through all of that but in the long run it made their relationship stronger and it got Shane the help he needed long before this year happened so right after graduation he proposed to Shane.
Ilya just couldn’t wait, he knew he was Shane’s and would never be anyone else’s and this year proved he would never leave Shane so he proposed to the love of his life and Shane said yes.
Sadly they didn’t get married till two years later when Shane was in college to be a physical therapist and Ilya was in the NHL playing for Ottawa.
Both were really happy where they were together and separately in their lives.
It was the night after the wedding. It was beautiful. They held it at the cottage, a small thing with friends and family. Ilya whispered” ye tebya lyubiyu” and Shane whispered it back.
~the end