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tales of emlia-eloda valdez

Chapter 3: its killing me but i want more (its killing me but its killing but)

Summary:

emlia goes to her first foster home she might be cooked

Notes:

HAY GUYS!!! the chapters are so short im posting this often *sobs*

anyways! title from grocery store by cavetown

rant abt my love life in the end notes
and
tws!
·emlia is rlly depressing
·mentions of child abuse
·suicidal thoughts
·guilt
·self harn
·internalized homophobia
DISCALMIIER!!!
i have lived in amercia for most of my life BUT i lived on the east cost and i dont live in the us annymore so geography might suck

please stay safe

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Emlia was finally allowed out of that god forsaken hospital. she still had injuries. tia rosas crashout had left some physical bruises (and mental ones but those didnt really matter did they?),but the hospital didnt care they wanted her out as much as she wanted out. so once she wasnt in danger of her rib piercing her lung they handed her to kya. fuck them.

kya wasnt so bad,even emlia had to admit that. whilst the warehouse had burnt up (still her fault still by the way) the apartment her and her mom sha- had shared was fine. she knew whre the spare key was, under the exposed pipe. she unlocked the door. it still smelled like her mom. she was slightly aware of kya following her but she couldnt carre less.
she went to her mommas room first. her eyes were watery. she could only bring a bag of stuff so she had to pick only what was important. she grabbed a photo of her and emila first. she wouldnnt allow herself to forget mamás face never. then she grabbed her mothers army jacket it didnt fit her but whatever. she left heer mamás room wiping her eyes. she grabbed some nuts and bolts from her room but thats it. she serched through a drawer to find a string. was was this godam- found it. she put the keyhole through the string and tying it to make a necklace. then she went outside to meet back up with kya

it wasnt that long of a drive to elenors house. thank god. emila got car sick very easily and it didnt help that she felt like shit. after 25 or so minutes kya said two amazing words "we're here" emlia practically jumped out off the car door. kya chuckled slighly. "c'mon kiddo lets go" emila nodded clutching her necklaces (she still had her cross one). kya rang the dooor bell.

a woman with medium olive skin opened the door."oh heey kid! emlia right?" she nodded looking at the woman. she had a eye patch,long hair that reached her butt, a sleevless long black dress,on her wrist a barcode tattoo?, and a smile the size of Texas. kya cleared her throat "elenor i swear to gods" elenor clutched heer necklace "what im being nice!".kya scoffed "anyways is zöe or even phoenix home?" who namess their kid phonix? Eleanor shook her head "nope just me! zöe is helping nyx move into her new dorm,and who knows where piper is?!" kya groaned "of all the people" Eleanor scoffed "i am not that bad ky! your just mad about the karaoke incident!" karaoke incident? emlia had to stay with elenor!? god help her. "i still have some red in my hair!" kya bit back "but for the sake of the kid i wll say you aint that bad"
wait
she was talking about emlia
crap
elenor smiled wider (how was that even possibpe at this point?) "right! thank you! i swear kid im not bad!" emlia just look at her with wide eyes. kya chuckled "well ellie you've already done all the paper work so we're done here!" elenor groaned. why was elenor so dramatic? "i hate when you get all lawer-y! anways bye ky!" kya left with a nod

emlia and elenor walked in "so you have two options" elenor grinned holding up two fingers "i can either,a)give you a tour. orrrrrr b)just show you your room! i dont mind either way." emlia thought for a little. on one hand she did want to know the place. on the other hand she was so tired mentally and just wanted to curl into a ball. the latter beat the former so she said "um i would like to just go to my room please" elenor nodded "c'mon kid" she took emlia up the stairs and down the hallway and opened a door.

the room was so cool. she had a twin sized bed,a desk,there was a teedy bear ontop of her bed,she had a bookshelf with so many good books (such as but not limeted to hunger games,wonder,and kotlc), and she had her own bathroom! she must have looked as star-struck as she felt cause elenor chuckled "i went a bit over board huh" all emlia coould sqieak out was a small "thank you" elenor smiled "dony worry about it kid! dinners at eight kay!" emlia nodded as elenor left. she waalked into her bathroom curled up and finally started to sob

she scratched at her calf as tears feel downn.she needed the pain,wanted it. lurched for.it . was there anything sharper! she stood up shakily and rummaged through the cabinets untill...bingo! she foundd a black razor with a note attached 'not that you need it but iff you want itt kid its yours :)-eleanor' as annoying as elenor was she almost sobbed with relief uncapping the blade. she didnt hesitate cutting her skin

emlia was mesmerized when the blood started to drip down on her calf (a/n gods that sounds like a misery lyric) people dont liike blood, they say it brings pain and suffering. emlia strongly disagreed. the stingg in her calf made her feel better, and the blood was such a pretty color! she needed a shower though.she grabbed some spare clothes with a towell (that also had a note from elenor but her dyslexia was bad enough when she wasn't crying her eyes out.)

she sat doown in the shower turning the water on. watching as the clear water went down her body,and turning dark piink,then light,then yellow ,and back to clear she grabbed the loofah? that was a stupid name.and scrubbd hoping that would clean everything utterlly wrong with her

the only thing that did was turn her dark skin pink. ugh. she quickly did her hair. got out dried off put on her clothes. once she was out of the bathroom and into her bedroom she noticed two things. one that it was currently 7:35 which ment she had 25 minutes before dinner. and two that eleanor left aother nnote(seriously what wass her deal woth notes!) which emila read as 'hey kidod i togta gift fro uoy!-e' stupid dyslexia!. emlia sat on her bed. she was saafe.

at 7:50 emlia went downstairs to a grinning elenot.did this woman ever stop smiling? "would you like some help?" emlia asked. elenor chuckled "your so sweet! can you set the table?"she waved to a cabinet. emlia gave a curt nod. she set up the table and sat down as elenor brought the food. it was definitly a Latin dish most likely from Argentina. elenor sat down wiyh her. "i know its not that good my wife is a lot better" elenor said with a slight blush.wife?wasnt elenor a girl? two girls couldn't get married! "wife?" emlia asked. eleanor perked up "yeah yu heard abt her zöe! yeah we've known eachoth for six yrs married for one!" emlia nodded "whos phoenix?" elenor chuckled "me zöe and piper,one of my other friends adopted him when we were like nineteen they're in collage now. thats why her and zöe arent here!" why didd eleanor keep using differnt pronouns for him? her?them?

emlia had stayed for a month before she told herself to run away . elnor was so nicce to her even though she didnt have to be.so she hadd to run (she would later regret this decision) she packed up everything she neeedded (and a couple things she wanted) the stuff she gotten form her home,A book or two,and the blade. she opened the window getting ready to jump before she heard a noise behind her. she turned around elenor. for the first time since emlia came here elenor wasnt smiling."you have to do this right?" emlia nodded . elenor sighed like she knew waaat was coming "please aleast take this" she took out gum? she took a piece put and it turned into a dagger.what?"how did you do that?" emlia asked . elenor chuckled without humor"youll find out sooon enough. good luck kiddo"emlia took her gifft and nodded


she jumped

Notes:

love life rant

so i had this crushh on a girl (lets call her vic) right and i was head over heels! but she had a bf so i kin didn't have a chance untill she broke up with him. so a month later (reminder im under eighteen and they only dated for a month) so i tell my other friend (lets call him twink)
and he got uus together
!!!
but after a month she broke up with me bc shes mostly into boys (IM GENDER FLUID) and broke up with me
we stayed frriends tho...
NOW shes flirting with me again and idk what to do

rant over

(fun fact zöe Eleanor phoenix and kya are my ocs)

Notes:

this is either gettinf a second chapter in two weeks or two hours

im sorry this sucks ASS i get better i swear just wait for her in thee gang... heehe(EDIT)
i forgo a rlly important scene so he