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The walk up on the stairs was quiet.
They just fought each other few minutes ago over escaping the underworld. how mapicc wanted to trap him there just like spoke trapped him for months.
But finally, he calmed down – Atleast spoke thought he did.
He got mapicc to finally agree on leaving together, maybe even show him the null and all that stuff. Even when mapicc was clearly not interested at all.
But of course the frustration in mapicc’s chest has not been erased at all.
It was still there, boiling. Maybe mapicc would strike later, a better time.
Just because he agreed didn't mean he didn't want to kill him anymore.
why did he even agree? stupid..
This was the perfect chance mapicc. You just let it go to waste. and for what?
You couldve easily popped his totem right there and there, Trapped him in the underworld while you got your well deserved freemdom.
Instead this is what you do?
Spoke kept on talking.
Mapicc didn’t really hear him.
He would catch few words, but not full sentences.
It had already gotten to the point where spoke’s voice really annoyed mapicc.
He wanted to say he hated it - hated him. But deep inside his chest he knew he couldn’t. He didn't. Deep inside was still the spoke he once used to know.
Spoke that he loved more than anything.
Spoke that he infiltrated the mafia with. spoke that he destroyed some random farms with. spoke that he explored the farlands with and the spoke he fought null against with.
Years of friendship, what happened to spoke..?
Did all of those really mean nothing to him?
Did their friendship EVER mean anything to him? The memories? All the fun they had?
That cursed thing changed him.
They had finally gotten out of the underworld, spoke quickly building a nether portal to get back to the overworld
how good it was to see the sunlight again.. after months of being stuck down there.
...
Well mapicc..
Its your chance now..
You used spoke to get out of there, now its time to pop that damn totem and kill him.
Mapicc's grip tightened around his sword. Suddenly it felt way heavier than it usually was.
His hands were trembling.
Spoke was walking few steps ahead of him, his back facing mapicc. Still yapping about how amazing null was or some bullshit.
It was a perfect moment to strike..
One swing and a stab in his heart. thats all it takes.
Yet, his own body betrayed him.
His hand didnt move. It stayed frozen in one place.
Was he gonna regret killing him after?
Was he gonna regret Not killing him after?
He could feel and hear his own heart beating, rapidly.
His hand finally moved, trembling. His sword slowly rose in the air, hesitant. Very hesitant.
Why was his vision getting so blurry?
Just Do it.
Finally, He looked away and closed his eyes, ready to strike down.
Maybe. Just Maybe, in another univer-
"Spoke! You're back safely.. did you find anything important?"
Oh for fuck's sake. What a great timing.
He quickly scrambled to hide his sword and wiped his eyes, looking just normal. Like nothing happened.
The null commander didn't even notice mapicc behind him till spoke acknowledged him. Are null seriously blind or somethin
After some talking between the null commander and spoke, spoke decided to actually take him to the end to show him all the null and the castles or something.. yeah yeah like mapicc cared..
(Stop being a tsundare mapicc grr..)
Well mapicc didn't wanna go to the end – obviously. He didnt want to see null. he hated them alot. And he hated spoke too.(?)
He wished he could stay in the overworld a little more longer – he missed the sunlight, The soft grass, the flowers and clouds.. oh how much it all reminded mapicc of him..
But what choice does he really have? Shucks.
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.
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There were a lot of null scattered all around them, some guarding and some building. Most of them just walking around.
Spoke kept talking to him about whatever sounded like nonsense to mapicc. Of course he wasn't paying attention at all.
The null commander was still quietly walking with them, he seemed to always be around spoke. How annoying..
he took a moment to look up at the sky while they were walking.
he found himself staring.
The end was really pretty.
pitch black void with stars scattered across all directions, different size, some different colors. it was almost mesmerizing to look at, the castles and everything looked so pretty together.
Null really had some good builders, he had to admit that one.
He didn't even realize that they already reached the main castle or whatever
"Commander. Could you leave us please?"
Spoke muttered to the commander. the null nodded and left shortly after, leaving them.
Well that was sure weird. He wanted to be alone with mapicc? To beg for forgiveness or some bullshit like that? Pfft.
The commander nodded before quietly walking away shortly after.
"Follow me."
Mapicc didn't even question, he knew better than to disobey in a place filled with null.
After that annoying long staircase they reached a door. Wait- a door? A door to spoke's room?
Gosh, what did spoke want..?
Spoke opened the door and let mapicc in first before gently closing it behind it with a soft clink.
He sighed before turning around, his expression obviously nervous while trying to cover it with a forced smile.
"Mapicc.."
"Spoke."
"Mapicc.. im.. i-im sorry. I really am-"
"Seriously spoke?! You brought me all the way here just to beg for sone stupid forgiveness?! Spoke i already told you, i fucking hate you!"
He swished his thin demon tail as he raised his voice. Pinching the bridge of his nose as he looked down, annoyed and frustrated.
"Mapicc.. you didn't even let me explain pleas-"
spoke took a step forward, trying to explain calmly.
"No spoke! Im so fucking done with you! I just want you dead! Thats all i want!"
ouch.
The silence filled the room.
Spoke didn't say a word after that.
Instead, mapicc heard a quiet sniffle.
?
He looked up from the ground, expression softening just a tiny bit, almost unnoticeable. He didn't want to show it.
He saw spoke still standing there, wiping his eyes while looking away looking away. Tail under his legs like a kicked puppy.
Fuck. Was this asshole really gonna guilt trip him with this crap..?
"Im sorry mapicc. Im so fucking sorry.."
Another sniffle. Was spoke really gonna do this..?
"Spoke.. oh my god bro.."
"Mapicc.. Im so sorry dude.."
Could he say something other than his name and useless "sorry"s? How annoying.
But it made his heart ache.
Why?
Maybe he still cared deep down.
He had seen spoke in a state like this countless times in the past, mapicc was always there for him. He would sob into mapicc's arms, head pressed against his chest while he held him, rubbing gentle circles on his back as he drenched his clothes in tears.
A part of him screamed to do the same right now.
So with a deep annoyed sigh, he took few steps forward before wrapping his arms around spoke's waist, pinning him against the door as he rested his head on spoke's shoulder.
Oh boy he was surely gonna regret this later.
It took spoke few seconds to process it before tightly wrapping his arms around him too. Now fully breaking down in his shoulder.
There were a lot of tears, one after another falling down and drenching mapicc's hoodie. He didn't really care about his clothes getting a little wet. Not right now.
Mapicc didn't say a word – he didn't need to. He raised one hand to rub circles around spoke's back, trying to soothe him.
Spoke just cried even more as he buried his face deeper into mapicc's shoulder. He kept on apologizing, trying to form some muffled sentences in between his ugly sobs.
They stayed like that for a long long time.
Spoke didn't calm down for a while, kept sobbing in his arms like he used to in the past. eventually they both got tired of standing and moved to bed.
mapicc later on noticed that spoke was no longer conscious after he heard him quiet down and his breathing became even. his arms seemed to loosen around him too.
mappic just stayed there.
he didn't want to get up.
he missed seeing spoke like this, he had to admit.
for a moment it made him see the spoke the he once used to know, instead of a coldhearted leader welding the cursed totem.
mapicc didn't forgive him.
and fuck i give up i dont know how to end this