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Rule #1: never fall for a straight girl
Adena knows this by heart by now, ever since that incident before she came out (it still causes her to shudder thinking about it, what with the outright rejection and dumped roses). Straight girls are a whole lotta trouble, and crushes on them almost always end up in heartbreak, save for the 1% who turn out to be actually bi or gay.
Adena knows this by heart, reciting it so often the mantra has probably been seared into the back of her brain.
Adena knows this by heart.
And yet, because Allah loves her so, everytime she sees Kat, there's always this swelling sensation in her chest, a slight quickening of the heart rate.
She thinks Kat smells of flowers, maybe jasmine, or gardenia, or some other prettily named flower, but that doesn't matter because Kat smells so wonderfully soft that it warms her to the toes. The sense of comfort is immediate when she's around her. Their playful banter, the concern they have for the other even though they barely know each other.
Adena knows you don't just fall for someone like that. It just doesn't happen that way. You've got to know the person for like a good 6 months, before you move on to a deeper level of friendship, and then you can maybe start a relationship with them.
But there's something so magnetic about Kat, she can't quite figure it out.
There's also the whole issue that Adena is still attached. Even if she did like Kat, (and that 'if' is starting to seem less of a plausibility and more of a way for her to deny her feelings) she can't just ditch Coco, someone who has been by her side for as long as they've been together. It would be unfair to her.
...but wouldn't it be unfair to her regardless because she wouldn't be loving her equally because of her potential feelings for Kat?
Who is she kidding, she does like Kat. Maybe platonically, maybe romantically, it doesn't fucking matter because she knows she wants to be with Kat, comforting her through the shit she has gone through and telling her she'd be okay.
"Fuck."