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Aaron did not know how to describe it. He did not know what it meant to feel this way. All that he knew was that he liked it.
It was a Tuesday evening when he first felt it. Their family had been back to their solid unit for about a year and half now. Robert was going to be home late that particular evening from a business trip in London so that meant it was just Liv, Gerry and himself for dinner. For Aaron that meant a take out. By 7:30pm they had finished dinner and Liv and Gerry were cleaning up whilst Aaron prepared Sebs bed time bottle.
Seb was a good baby. Well for Aaron at least. He would not fuss when in Aaron’s arms, and would stay settled if he was able to remain there. He would prefer Aaron over anyone else for most things, though, Robert seemed to be the only one Seb seemed content with when he was put to bed or woken up in the morning. Robert never said anything, but Aaron knew this upset Robert when Seb would settle for Aaron over him.
Aaron could hear Seb fussing from his play mat when he was testing the temperature of the formula. “Coming little man.” Aaron said as he walked over to Seb. Like he would understand. Though he seemed to know when it was feeding time. Babies.
“Ah, there you go, little man.” Aaron said with a smile, as he rocked Seb until he had Seb drinking his bottle with a steady rhythm. For some reason Seb was more inclined to continue drinking his bottle on his own if he was rocked first.
“I don’t know who’s worse, him or Robert.” Gerry said to live as he placed the last plate onto the drying rack, “Probably Robert. His nicknames extended to ‘little prince’ or even ‘baba’!” Liv scoffed. She was never one for cute or as she would say cliched nicknames. Even for Aaron to call her ‘sis’ was a little too much for her.
“Will you two quit scoffing! I’m trying to settle him and with Rob not here it’s gonna take him longer to go down.” Aaron said in a quiet tone as he noticed Seb dozing as he finished his bottle. Once Seb had finished his bottle, he let him suck for a few more minutes until he found his dummy. “Liv take the bottle out of his mouth will you?” Aaron asked when he had locate do one of Sebs many dummies. Liv took the bottle and Aaron immediealty replaced it with the dummy. Seb did not flinch and remained asleep in Aaron’s arms.
It was then he felt it. That sense of accomplishment of being able to switch the bottle for the dummy without disturbing Seb. But there was also this other feeling that lingered in the pit of his stomach. Aaron could not exactly place his finger on it.
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On many occasions since, Aaron had that feeling in the pit of his stomach that he could not quite place. The only thing he realised that the moments had in common, was Seb. He never spoke to Robert about it. He did not know what the feeling meant and he did not want Robert jumping to conclusions and think that Aaron could not handle it anymore. And Aaron was still not good with his words so to save that heart ache he just never brought it up.
Though, Aaron had not realised that on certain occasions when he would have this feeling, Robert would notice a change in Aaron and have his own feeling in the pit of his stomach. Though Robert had a idea of what he thought the feeling meant. And the more he thought about it the more the idea of it settled with him and he became assured of his feeling. Though like Aaron, he did not want to ruin what they had now with bringing it up. So he did not meantion it.
(Idiots, still not talking things out)
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It was late one night after they had settled Seb after he had woken from a nightmare. That particular night it took both Robert and Aaron to settle him, and that feeling of being a team when it came to Seb ignited that feeling in the pit of Roberts stomach that made him feel at this point he would self implode if he did not speak his mind.
He waited till Aaron was back and settled in bed again, he had shuffled under the covers to face Robert, reaching over for a kiss “Night” he whispered as he settled into his pillow.
“Can we talk for a bit?” Robert asked in as quite a whisper as Aaron. Aaron nodded but kept his eyes closed.
“I don’t know how to explain this but I feel like I’ll explode if I don’t say something.”
Aaron’s eyes shot open at that, “Say what? What’s wrong?” Aaron asked quickly. Robert began to shake his head as he sat up in the bed, “No nothing’s wrong. It’s just, I’ve been thinking about this a lot and I don’t want to upset the abpple cart but seeing you with Seb just makes me want it more, but I don’t want to pressure-“ Aaron shushed Robert, sitting up too in the bed and rubbing his back, kissing his shoulder, “Is this about extending our family?” Aaron whispered, the thought of saying it out loud making it more real than he expected, “How did you? How-“
“I’ve been having this felling I the pit of stomach for years now, and I never knew what it meant, but the more I realised it was to do with Seb, the more I realised it was the idea of having a child of my own to care for that made me feel that way. Don’t get me wrong, I love Seb, dearly I do, but the thought of child, our child, that we plan together makes me feel in such a way that I never want it to stop.” Aaron said, with a smile that spread to Roberts lips. Robert kissed his husband, his smile never leaving his lips.
“Does that mean we are having baby?” Robert asked, his tone sounding excited. “Well we will have to look at our options and talk to Liv and Gerry, and also mention the idea to Seb. He may only be four but this will impact him also. Then can we afford another little human-“ “Can we not agree that the end result be another little human as you say?” Robert interrupted, for once Aaron being the more practical minded of the two.
“I suppose...”
“So? We are going to have a baby?”
“We are going to have a baby.”