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The moment got tense as they reached the motel Clarke rented the same day, they made their way into the cramped room. It wasn’t much of a room, it was dark walls with wooden floors, there was one window with white curtains. The bathroom was small as well and Lexa wasn’t sure if she wanted to take a shower in there or not. They both took a moment to look around and settle in, the laughing and joking was over. It was like they had forgot that they where actually on their way to meet Finn.
”How do you feel?” Lexa couldn’t stand the silence.
”I don’t know, I was so sure about this but I don’t know if I will be able to even see his face” Clarke sighed as she sat down on the bed.
”Well, I will be with you every step” Lexa sat down besides the blonde and put an arm around her. ”You’re not alone, okay?” she continued.
”Thank you” Clarke smiled but Lexa could see the pain in her eyes.
”We should get some sleep” Lexa suggested.
”Aren’t you curious why I rented this shitty place?” Clarke wondered.
”Well yeah sure” Lexa thought it was strange that they didn’t just stay in Clarks apartment, it wasn’t far from Finn’s and it seemed like unnecessary money to stay here.
”I was afraid to be alone in my own home incase he would visit me” Clarke admitted and Lexa wasn’t sure how to respond. ”If I knew you would of been here though, I would of loved to show you my place…It isn’t much of an apartment but I like it I guess…I bet you have a really cool place” Clarke started rambling and Lexa chuckled.
”I just realized that we still have so much more to learn about each other” She smiled.
”I don’t even know where you live” Clarke shook her head.
”I don’t have a place jet, my plans was to stay with Anya until I knew where I would end up with work” She explained. ”And I bet your place is lovely” She added.
”I never really liked it though…It was close to work and um yeah Finn”
”Maybe…we can found a place together” Lexa asked a bit nervous.
”Do you mean that?” Clarke was suddenly smiling and Lexa’s heart melted.
”Of course I do!” She smiled back. ”We can live wherever you want to live”
”I would love that” Clarke yawned.
”We should actually get some sleep, you must be exhausted”
***
The next day when Lexa wake up Clarke was not beside her anymore, the blonde had fallen asleep in her arms and she was kind of disappointed there was no morning cuddles. She adjusted her eyes to the bright room and looked around, Clarke had to be in the bathroom.
”You awake?” Clarke yelled from the room.
”Just woke up” Lexa’s voice was a bit raspy. ”Morning” she stretched her body and Clarke walked into the room.
”I could get used to wake up to this every morning again” Clarke smirked.
”Well I don’t remember you being awake before me, I always steal my morning hugs before I get up” Lexa pouted and Clarke smiled as she lay down besides her.
”You know I love waking up to that…even if I fall asleep again” Clarke chuckled as she pulled Lexa closer to her and gazed into her eyes. It looked like the blonde hesitated before leaning in closer so Lexa met her halfway, the kiss made Lexa’s butterfly’s crazy, it was like she was falling in love all over again.
”Ready for today?” Lexa pulled the blonde closer.
”Can we just enjoy this moment?” Clarke asked as she kissed Lexa again, this time their lips did not part and it quickly got more aggressive. Lexa felt her whole body craving more and her hands where all over Clarke’s body. The blonde was suddenly on top of the brunette tucking Lexa’s shirt, the brunette got the message and held her arms up so she could pull it off. Clarke eyes filled with hunger as Lexa’s bare breast was infront of her.
”God I missed this” She breathed as she licked both nipples until it made Lexa moan. Clarke’s hands felt like thousand hands touching her body but still Lexa was craving more. She was just about to pull Clarke closer but the blonde was busy taking her shirt off, the hunger in Lexa’s eyes could not go unseen and the smirk of Clarke’s face was killing her. She wanted her close now, she sat up so she could steal kisses from the blonde and suddenly it was skin against skin and it got more aggressive.
”More” Lexa pleaded and Clarke did not hesitate to wait she wanted Lexa to feel euphoria. She pushed Lexa back to the bed and the brunette closed her eyes as Clarke kissed her way down her body, usually she would tease the brunette more but she was in a rush to explore everything she once knew so well - wondering if she could still make Lexa scream the way she used to.
***
Clarke was filled with so much emotions, her eyes was closed and she tried to get her breathing back to normal. Lexa still knew exactly what to do to make her go crazy, she didn’t want this feeling to end. She could the brunette leaving small kisses on her stomach as she crawled her way back up, their naked bodies was lingered together, like a perfect match. Lexa pulled blonde hair away from Clarke’s face and mumbled beautiful as she gently kissed the blondes lips.
”I wanna go with you to Paris” Clarke was surprised by her words, she did not expect them.
”What are you talking about” Lexa chuckled and Clarke suddenly opened her eyes to meet green.
”Lexa, wouldn’t that be perfect?” she smiled excited.
”Where is this coming from?”
”Just… I would not regret stopping you from a really great job opportunity, I need a new start… just imagine us spending a few years in France” Clarke looked at her with big eyes and Lexa could not help but smile big.
”I could bring to Nice, we could see the Eiffel tower - visit vineyards and just”
”and just marry each other” Clarke interrupted her and Lexa had to chuckle again.
”Maybe we should start with moving to another country”
”I want you the be mine forever Lexa” Clarke teased, the blonde always dreamed of getting married to the love of her life.
”I have always been yours” Lexa smiled. ”Okay, Clarke…Griffin” she stole a quick kiss from the blonde before she continued. ”will you marry me?” The sound of joy and laughter that came out of Clarke’s mouth was the sight Lexa had been missing for weeks now and to be the reason for that happiness made her whole body feel warm inside. Clarke hugged the brunette and they rolled around until Clarke was on top kissing her everywhere and Lexa laughed as well. It was just a pure moment of happiness.
***
It was a moment that Clarke tried to hold on to, seeing Lexa’s smile, hearing that beautiful laugh even her moans as Clarke discovered her body. Lexa was her strength as she looked at the golden hair, he was sitting alone at a table drinking a beer. He looked miserable to be honest. She took a deep breath as she walked towards him, it felt like the walk never ended but as she reached the table she was quick to sit down in front of him.
”Clarke?” He looked at her curious but his eyes got filled of hope as well.
”You wrecked me Finn” Clarke started the conversation, she didn’t need small talk she just wanted it to be over.
”I know I made a mistake - or a few I know. But that night… I’m gonna have to live with it for the rest of my life…” The blonde just stared at him. ”But I think we can overcome this babe… We’re strong - we”
”Finn” Clarke shut him up. It was sort of relieving seeing him this vulnerable. ”You and me - it’s not gonna happen, we where never good for each other. We destroyed each other and we bring out the worst in us - that’s not a healthy relationship it’s toxic. I did not come here to try to work on things, I’m done and this summer has just made me realize that we where so wrong together.”
”It wasn’t all bad” Finn tried. Clarke felt like for the first time in a very long time, she was the one who had control - she was in charge and she liked the feeling. She was feeling more like her old self.
”No, it wasn’t… but it was far from perfect. I’m here Finn because I don’t want nothing to do with you anymore - and for everything - like you say that you’re sorry, that you love me - that you wont lie. For all that bullshit you are gonna keep this promise, because you fucking owe me - I’m gonna walk out of that door and we’re done with each other. I don’t want you to call me, text me - I don’t want you stalking my Facebook - delete all my numbers and contacts.”
”But” Finn looked hurt but it seemed like she had his attention.
”This one thing you can do for me… let me move on with my life and be happy again.”
”Okay” Clarke was ready to argue but Finn looked defeated. ”I promise”
”Thank you”
”Just please know that this isn’t me and I am truly sorry for everything that I have done to you”
”Get help Finn, get sober and find that person you want to be then” Clarke stood up, she was done.
”Goodbye Princess” Finn whispered.
Clarke walked out of the pub and she felt so much lighter she looked around to find her brunette that was leaning against the car. She waved shyly and Clarke almost started running towards her.
”Let’s go back! We have a lot to do before Octavia’s wedding and she’s gonna kill us if we doesn't help her out” Clarke chuckled.
”I guess everything went okay?” Lexa was a bit confused but she followed the blonde into the car.
”That chapter of my life is over and I couldn’t be more excited for what’s next”
”I’m really happy to hear that” Lexa smiled as Clarke turned on the radio.
”Sing with me babe” and she did, they sang so loud - screaming to the top of their lungs. They didn’t have to talk more about it, they were both happy it was over. It was a different atmosphere and they just wanted to enjoy it - knowing that the finally moved forward instead of two steps back all the time.
It strange how life can change so fast, how someone you thought you lost forever was somehow brought back to your life. Maybe it was faith or maybe they where lucky - at least they where not gonna question it. They spent the trip back talking about their future in Paris, the wedding, memories from their childhood, new things they never heard about each other before. They wanted to catch up as much as possible and they where eager to do it.
It’s not like everything was forgotten - but they where done with it. They where both looking forward to leave that behind and focus on the future and what’s next. The feeling of thinking you lost someone who’s unexpected in your life again - it’s hard to describe. You appreciate it so much more and you will do everything in your power to not lose that person again. Taking risks in life is sometimes scary, grieving so hard you loose yourself is absurd but when you love someone so much it makes it all worth it. That even after all the things they went through - they found each other and they made each other complete again. That’s what love is - bringing out the best in someone.
True love, it’s seems hard to find but when you do…you know it. It might be unexpected and scary, but when you let yourself love someone so much - it’s all worth it in the end.
They both sure had the most unexpected summer.