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Jungkook wanted to hate hoseok, he wanted to despise him, at least he’d be able to direct all the anger he felt at someone else and relive it a bit. But he couldn’t hate him one bit.
After taehyung told him about dating hoseok, the later became a constant presence in their life. He’d hang out at their apartment more often than not and they started meeting him often at the dancing studio since he was an instructor there.
Hoseok was probably the nicest person jungkook had ever met. He was kind, funny and always smiling cheering up everyone around him. And it wasn’t enough that he was one hell of a dancer, the way he danced left jungkook amazed everytime turning him into a fan instantly. As a matter of fact hoseok had quiet a fan base, including jungkook and practicly everyone in his small group of friends. It wasn’t long before hoseok became a permanent member of the small groupe, everyone liked him and he got along with all of them.
So how could jungkook hate him ? It wasn’t his fault every thing turned out this way. It wasn’t taehyung’s fault either. Jungkook could only blame himself for the way he was feeling. He was sur right now, he was depressed.
If he was feeling bad before, it doesn’t come close to how devastated he felt right now. It’s a struggle to get out of bed every day and go on with his days, the simplest tasks gives him trouble and even eating and breathing has become hard. He started expriecing anxiety and at this point he’s convinced that his becoming a little bit too dependant on alcohol. He couldn’t sleep at night without filling up his system with enough drinks to numb him and help him shut down the voices in his head. He was scared of the changes he was experiencing and seeing taehyung all happy and smiley with hoseok made him hate himself for not being good enough.
Taehyung liked hoseok, it was obvious to all his friends. He was almost always with him and when he wasn’t around he’d be on his phone smiling to himself and looking all giddy. Jungkook wanted to be happy for him or at least pretend to support him but he thought that avoiding the subject and thinking of hoseok as one of taehyung’s dearest friends was better than forcing himself to act happy around the couple. It was unbearable to see taehyung fall in love everyday with someone who wasn’t him, jungkook thinks that his heart was broken beyond repair and he’ll be deficient for the rest of his life.
It took all the will in him to get out of bed that day, he had an important test, one that he didn’t study for but whatever, and had to go to school. He shuffled out of the room dragging his feet, as soon as he opened his bedroom door he was met with taehyung standing in front of his room with hoseok wrapped around him and kissing his neck. Jungkook took in taehyung’s appearance, he was wearing a large white shirt that he deemed hoseok’s, it got to his mid thighs and he probably wore nothing but boxers underneath. His heart sunk to his stomache and he wanted the ground to swallow him whole, he run out of the room and into the bathroom knowing for sur that the couple noticed him since he heard taehyung call his name.
Jungkook went into the bathroom nd closed the door behind him before he slid down to the floor. He was having trouble breathing and his hands were shaking, he intertwined his fingers and brought his fist to his mouth to stiffen his wimpers. In the back of his mind he was aware that he was having a panick attack. He never experienced one before, he only saw taehyung go through them. It was easier to help someong through a panick attack than to deal with one, he couldn’t breath and barely could move. After a moment he started feeling sick and crawled to the toilet seat to throw up but only dry heaved since he hadn’t had anything to eat since yesterday’s lunch. The taste on his mouth was horrible and he didn’t realise he was crying until he felt the wetness on his cheeks. His chest hurt and the image of taehyung’s blessed expression as hoseok held him, like jungkook would never have the chance to, flashed in front of his inner eye everytime he was starting to calm down making it worse again. When he couldn’t breath regularly he stumbled to the shower stall and turned on the cold water, getting drenched instantly before crumbling down on the cold tiles and sobbing freely knowing the water would soundproof his cries. It took him a while to finally calm down and he was trembeling violently when he got out of the shower.
He didn’t have any change of clothes as he run to the shower without thinking. He stood in the middle of the bathroom staring into nothing before he could hear knocks on the door.
« jungkook, come oooon !! i need to use the bathroom, i’m gonna be late » came jimin’s angry voice jolting jungkook out of his trance. He walked to the door on wobbly legs and opened the door. Jimin was about to scold him some more for occupying the bathroom for so long but stopped midsentence when he noticed the younger’s state. « What happened to you ? Why are you clothes so wet ? » He asked lifting jungkook’s face and looking into his blanck expression « jungkook, what’s wrong ? Are you okay ? You’re shaking so bad » jungkook just looked at him for a moment before shaking his head and straightening up.
Something snapped in jungkook’s mind in that moment, he could feel walls being built around his heart. He could feel himself closing up and pushing all his feelings into a vault and throwing the key into the sea. He rubbed the back of his head and gave jimin an exagerated smile before saying. « i turned on the shower accidentely and panicked so i got drenched. I’m clumsy sometime. Sorry for taking the bathroom for so long, hyung » and he patted the older’s shoulder before running to his room.
Jungkook went straight to his bed and curled on it ignoring the fact that he was wet from head to toe. He was still shaking but couldn’t register it. He didn’t know what was wrong with him, he wanted to hide away from the world and never come out again. He forgot about his test, that would affect his grade drasticly, and about taehyung and everything. He wanted to keep forgeting, until he forgets for real. He wanted to stop loving taehyung, he wanted to stop feeling all together.
He heard knocks on his door several times but didn’t answer any of them. He spent the whole day laying in his bed and it wasn’t a surprise when he started feeling hot and sweaty by the end of the day. He was shivering from the cold and his colthes were bothering him so he took them off without registering what he ws doing and pulled the covers over his naked body but he couldn’t feel warm. He was burning up and felt a terrible headache behind his eyes that he started whimpering.
As the night fell, his two flat mates must’ve had enough of his absence and they both barged into his room without knocking.
« jeon jungkook you’re such a brat … you .. » jimin was cut off when he turned on the light and saw the shivering lump under the cover. He walked up to the bed followed by taehyung and felt up his forhead « he’s burning up » he said looking at taehyung whose expression morphed into one of worry immediately.
« What do we do ? » asked taehyung touching jungkook’s cheek and muttering a small ‘oh my god’.
« we need to bring down his temprature » then he turned his attention to jungkook « come on, kookie. Let’s take you to the shower. You need to cool down » he pulled on his blanket but jungkook held on to it tightly.
« hyung, leave alone. I’m naked » he mumbled in his dazed state as though protecting his dignity was his only concern at the moment.
« don’t act like a baby. We’ve seen you naked before »
« no, i don’t want to » he whined
« okay, i’ll bring you some pants. Is that okay with you ? » suggested taehyung already looking around for a clean looking pants and only found a pair of shorts laying in the corner of the room. He handed them to jimin and he stuggled with jungkook to put them on.
Both of them helped the younger get to the shower, the all but dragged him there since he was too weak to walk properly. It too them a while to get him back to his room and into a clean set of clothes and tuck him warmly into his bed. Up till then jungkook was more or less aware about his surroundings but afterwards he just went in and out of consciousness and only registered hand feeling up his forhead and cheeks, wet towels and water sips from time to time.
It wasn’t until the next morning that he came around and was able to open his eyes fully awake. He was still aching all around his body but didn’t feel like death. The first thing he noticed as he sat up was the person snoring softly with his head on his folded arms by jungkook’s feet. Taehyung looked just as peaceful and relaxed as he usually does when sleeping.
Jungkook took his time staring at taehyung’s features. This was the boy who’s been by his side all those years, so gentle and understanding. He’s been with him through all the hardships of life and all the happy moments. They shared so much together and forged a friendship so precious to jungkook that he was ready to do anything to keep it. Taehyung deserves all the good things in life, he deserves to be loved, cherished and be taken care of so tenderly. Jungkook wanted to be the one to do all that for him but if taehyung chose someone else to be by his side then the least jungkook could do, as his best friend, was be happy for him and support his decisions. If hoseok was making taehyung happy then jungkook is ready to step aside and cheer for their happiness even if deep down he wished to be in hoseok’s place.
Jungkook, yet again, made up his mind that being taehyung’s best friend was better than being nothing to him. He loved him enough to do that for him. This time he’s going to stick to his decision and swore to only show taehyung the good side of him and keep the ugly side hidden for only himself to see and deal with.
He reached out with a tentative hand and patted the sleeping boy’s head gently while leaning in a little.
«Tae, wake up« he called softly «go to your bed, you’re gonna hurt your back« taehyung gave no response so he called his name a few more times shaking him until he stirred a bit and started opening his eyes slowly. After a moment he lifted his head and blinked lazily at jungkook before stretching and giving him a tired grin.
«kookie, you’re awake. How are you feeling ? « he asked looking at jungkook with worried eyes.
«I’m fine, I feel a lot better« answered jungkook smiling fondly «did you sleep here all night? «
«you had a nasty fever, I couldn’t just go to sleep and leave you« taehyung yawned loudly and rubbed his eyes before crawling to the bed and curling up next to jungkook in the small space he had left when he shifted awake, jungkook scooted aside to give him more space and looked down at him. taehyung was back asleep in a second, mouth a little agape and features relaxed, he held on to jungkook’s sleeve lightly. The sight made jungkook’s heart swell with affection and something akeen to guilt, but he didn’t want to think about all the thinks he feels guilty about.
He pulled the covers over his best friend, swiped his bangs out of his face and shuffled quietly out of the bed heading to the kitchen. He felt really hungry after not having anything to eat except poriddge for the past 24 hours. It was still too early in the moring and the sun was barely risen. He found some leftovers, apparently, from yesterday’s dinner, heated it up and sat to the table to eat. Alone.
Being alone with his thoughts had become jungkook’s worst fear over the past few months. Whenever he found himself in the solitude of his own mind he’d start thinking and overthinking all the things going wrong in his life and walking himself up the wall and into a dark place. What starts as simple pondering about the day’s events ends up becoming a self-destructing session of over analyzing things. Jungkook made the mistake of remembering what he saw yesterday morning, taehyung in hoseok’s arms and how comfortable and content he looked. How he looked happy and completely pliant with the other male. He made another mistake, a level higher, of imagining what went on between them before they went out of the room. He didn’t have to possess a big imagination to figure it out, it was fairly obvious if taehyung’s attire was anything to go by. That idea made jungkook feel the nausea rise up in his throat and he put the spoon down and pushed the plate away digusted at its contents.
Why can’t he be the one to hold taehyung and be by his side?
There must be something wrong with him?
He doesn’t deserve taehyung?
Why would taehyung even look at him in that way?
Taehyung sur does love him, he believes that, but not in that way. Never in that way.
Because jungkook isn’t lovable. Jungkook doesn’t deserve to be loved.
He shook his head at the idea and rubbed at his face. This isn’t good, he can’t be thinking like this. This is bad, very bad. He knows that, he is aware of the fact that he’s driving himself insane but he doesn’t know how much longer he can hold on to his awareness and keep his sanity. He never thought things would become this hard and complicated when he started liking taehyung and did nothing to stop himself from falling deeper for him.
His troubled state went on for another hour until he felt a hand on his shoulder and he was startled out of his spacing out. he jumped up so much that jimin flinched away surprised by his exaggerated reaction to a simple touch.
«easy there buddy. I didn’t mean to scare you« he looked at jungkook apologetic, jungkook sighed and shook his head.
«it’s okay, hyung. I was just … lost in thought« he explaind looking down at his unfinished meal.
« you feeling alright? « inquiered jimin sitting down in front of jungkook on the dining table.
« yeah, I’m fine« he said simply before a silence settled between them. After a moment he decided to speak «I’m sorry, hyung« jimin looked confused at that statement.
«what are you sorry for,kook? «
Jungkook hesitated to talk and refused to meet his friend’s eyes «I’ve been hard to deal with for the past couple of months … I gave you so much trouble and made you worry a lot … I’m r-really sorry« he won’t cry he refuses to
«what are you talking about? You’ve been having a hard time, you don’t need to be sorry for anything« said jimin reaching out to put his warm palm on jungkook’s forarm and leaning to look at his face making jungkook look breively at him.
« I’ll try to do better from now on … I’ll …« he bit his lower lip to prevent himself from becoming too emotional at what he was going to say « I’ll try to forget … a-about my feelings … I’ll try to get over taehyung « he paused for a moment before adding « I won’t confess … taehyung deserves to be happy … a-and hoseok makes him happy« jungkook knew he won’t be able to say anything more, he smiled at jimin and stood up heading to his room without waiting to hear what jimin wanted to say and he sur looked like he was about to say something by the pained expression on his face.
Jungkook walked into his room forgetting that taehyung was sleeping in his bed. The other boy was still sleeping soundly looking so soft and comfortable. Jungkook grabed his clothes and went to the bathroom. He ignored jimin when he tried to talk to him on his way out of the room muttering a dismissive ‘later, hyung’ before going to the bathroom.
He took a shower, put on whatever clothes he found and walked out of the apartment heading to a lecture he was sur he won’t be able to pay attention to.
For the next weeks, jungkook rarely saw taehyung. He made sure of that. He’d go out early in the morning and come home late. He submerged himself in whatever activities he had been pushing aside previously. He tried to concentrate on his studies, dancing and the newest addition to his schedule, partying.
Who would’ve thought jungkook would become a party animal or a party goer at all? Even jungkook himself didn’t think that was possible. However, he found it easier to lose himself and forget about everything drinking, dancing and hooking up with whoever was willing. Making out with complete strangers has become a normal occurrence for him but he couldn’t get easily over the first time he woke up in a unknown room next to a stranger.
It happened one night when his feelings got the worst of him. it was one of the rare days he actually sat down with taehyung and jimin to catch up. And taehyung wouldn’t shut up about how good hoseok was to him, how great of a guy he was. It took all on jungkook not to snap right there and then and throw a fit, instead he sat there listening and pretending not to be hurt and burning up inside. He took the first opening to go out and to the first club that came to mind.
He drunk the night away to near oblivion and was about to call it a day when he felt someone slide on the bar stool next to him, he looked at him with blurred eyes and could make out his features once his eyes were a little bit more focused. He was good looking, no arguing about that, and looked around his age and had quiet a charming smile.
«Hey, what’s your name?” the stranger asked with a smirk looking at jungkook up and down. Jungkook blushed a little under the scrunity and hesitated to say something but the alcohol gave him courage he did not know he possessed.
“Shouldn’t you introduce yourself first?” he asked smirking a little.
“fair enough” the other commented laughing a little before adding “my name is Yugyeom. Nice to meet you” and he put his open palm out for a handshake wchich jungkook took hesitantly and very brievly.
“I’m j-jungkook” he said, his courage flattered a bit and his voice went down a bit that yugyeom had to lean closer to hear him making jungkook feel a bit uncomforablt.
“are you here alone, jungkook” asked yugyeom, eyes not leaving jungkook’s face once. Jungkook looked at him for a second before nodding and looking back at his empty glass. “oh, you’re out of drinks. Let me get you something” he signaled to the bartender who somehow undertoond what he wanted and brought another glass of a pinkish cocktail and put it in front of jungkook with no words.
“You didn’t have to” although it felt wrong, jungkook accepted the drink and sipped on it.
“Now tell me. Why is such a cute guy out here on his own? Having a fight with your partner?” inquiered Yugyeom leaning in the bar counter and staring at jungkook. His gaze scanning him from his face to his neck and upper body, it felt weird but jungkook liked the way yugyeom looked at him with want on his eyes. It felt good to be wanted and desired.
“Eum … i-It’s nothing like that … I just felt like going out a bit” he was awkward and not good at talking to strangers. He was sur yugyeom would walk away after a few more seconds deeming him too boring to talk to, let alone flirt with.
Therefore, when an hour later, yugyeom was doubling over and laughing loudly hand around jungkook’s waist at something he said, jungkook could not help but feel confused. Although very briefly. The drinks he had, after that first one yugyeom offered him, made him loosen up and he was able to actually have fun. Yugyeom was a fun guy to be around, it felt like hunging out with a friend even though he flirted quiet a lot and it was clear he found jungkook very attractive.
They danced for a moment and when the music turned into a more sensensual rythme and people started getting down and dirty on each other, yugyeom snaked an arm around jungkook’s waist and pulled him flat against his own body. Jungkook was startled but didn’t pull away, he was curious and wanted to try this. He felt yugyeom’s hand move against his sides, lower back and so close to his ass.
“You’re so beautiful,” whispered yugueom against the shell of his ear before planting a fleeting kiss right under his ear. Jungkook shivered and leaned into the touch, he was sensitive and touch deprived, there was no way he could control his body reactions. No body touched him this way before, all he could think about was how good it felt to be shown so much affection. “I want you” yugyeom added, voice low and dangerous.
Without realizing, he’d blame the alcohol later, he leaned his head to the side giving the other more access to his neck. Yugyeom didn’t waste anytime and attacked his sensitive skin with his mout, kissing, sucking and biting leaving blooming bruises. Jungkook moaned shamelessly knowing the music with muffle the noises he was making. Yugyeom groped his ass and squeezed tightly whil he continued his ministrations on his neck all the way to his jaw line and back down to his chin, but when jungkook felt his lips ghosting over his own lips he flinched away as though burned and made some distance between them panting. Yugyeom lingered close staring at him before smiling ans pecking his cheek lightly.
“So kissing is a no. I’ll try to abid by that rule although it’s gonna be hard with those sweet looking lips of yours“jungkook blushed profusely at the complement and tried to pull away a little but yugyeom had a strong grip on him. He leaned closer to his ear, bit his ear lob inciting a whimper out of jungkook before speaking “let’s go to my place“.
Jungkook opened his eyes feeling and was soon after assaulted by a sharp sting of pain on his head. Damn those hangovers. The sun was shining brightly through the open curtains, he wished jimin or taehyung could walk in and pull them shut so he wouldn’t have to get up and do it himself. He tried to squeeze his eyes shut to avoid the blinding light and catch up on some more sleep, as he turned the other way he was startled by another shooting of pain, this time on his lower back. It was sudden and intense and it crippled him for a moment or two. He opened his eyes and blinked a few times before taking in his surroundings. It was a big room with light bleu walls, a big bed with black and white silky sheets, and a big TV hang on the wall that jungkook wouldn’t be able to afford even if he had nothing but ramen for a year.
This is definitely not his room. And why is he naked?
Jungkook started to panick, and panick hard. He couldn’t remember what happened the previous night exactly although he had some snipets of what accured. He remembers drinking way too much and the fact that he recalls so little about the day before is proof enough that he over did it.
He tried to push himself up and winced at the pain in his lower back. He sat on the bed wrapping the sheets around his waist as he was pretty much aware of his nakedness. He tried to ignore the implication of the whole situation but couldn’t chase the idea from his head. He was naked in a room he has never seen before and his back hurts at the smallest of moves. Jungkook cursed himself for being such an idiot, he wanted to bang his head against a concret wall or jump of a bridge. Although he doesn’t remember how it went, he’s smart enough, or so he thinks, to guess.
This is not how he wanted his first time to go. And he definitely didn’t want it to be with a complet stranger. He felt awfull about the whole thing and felt like crying, he was about to start looking for his clothes when the door to the room opened and yugyeom walked.
Yugyeom looked just as good in the day light as he did the previous day. He was wearing a white shirt and sweatpants and looked completely relaxed. Well jungkook has already guessed who was a top and who was a bottom so seeing the other guy completely fine and painless only rubbed salt on his wounded ego. He always thought he’d top no matter what.
As yugyeom got closer, jungkook got more and more self-conscious he gathered the sheets around his frame and looked around frantically for his clothes that were no where to be seen.
“I put your clothes in the washing machine, you can have them back in a few minutes“ he said and leaned on the wardrob looking at jungkook with a smirk “so, did you sleep well? “
Jungkook felt his cheeks heating and fidgeted with the sheets on his hands. He doesn’t know how to act in situations like this, he would expected the other to tell him to leave after they, well, finished but here he is, having spent the night with a someone he barely knew. He cleared his voice and opened his mouth a few times without saying anything.
“yeah, i-it was fine“ he ended up saying hating how he stuttered. An awkward silence settled between them when he saw yugyeom look at his phone he remembered that he should probably call jimin and taehyung to tell them he was doing okay. They must be worrying about him right now. “where is my phone? “ he made a move to look for his phone and realized how much of a bad idea it was when he felt an intense pain on his lower back and fell to the bed whimpering in agony. He heard that it was supposed to hurt quiet a bit the first time but he never imagined it’d be this bad. Yugyeom was by his side in an instant.
“are you alright? “ he helped him sit up and put quit a few pillows behind his back. It helped ease the pain a little but it still throbbed badly “you probably should see a doctor for your back. It looks pretty bad“ he said with a concerned expression and jungkook glared at him angrily which surprise yugyeom “why are you looking at me like that? “
“what do you mean why am I looking at you like this ? “ he snapped, shyness and embarassement all gone, he was in so much pain and will make sure the cause of it will hear it from him “this is all your fault .. y-you could’ve gone easy on me … what are you ? an animal?! “ yugyeom stared at him with an open mouth and wild eyes. If jungkook wasn’t so angry he would’ve found the expression comical.
“what the fuck are you talking about? How is this my fault …. Wait a minute .. “ he stopped midsentence staring at jungkook for a minute before bursting out in laughter. Jungkook was shocked, how could he mock him like this, he was about to curse at him when yugyeom spoke again with a lopsided grin “you actually thin we had sex yesterday? “ every creative curse word jungkook was about to use died in his throat.
“we didn’t? “ he asked in a small voice cheeks tinted in a pink hue.
“as much as I want the answer to that to be ‘we did’ … no we didn’t“ answered yugyeom and took place at the foot of the bed. Jungkook was silent for a moment thinking hard to recall what happened but couldn’t remember anything with the bad headache he was suffering from. He rubbed at his tamples before talking.
“what happened then? Why do I feel like my back’s been snapped in half? “ he looked down at his naked torso before adding “and why am I naked? “ no need to be bashfull about it, he needed answers.
“well“ started yugyeom avoiding jungkook’s eyes losing his confident façade for a split second “I brought you back here yesterday … I mean, it looked like you wanted it. you gave me all the signals so I took it for consent“ he pause for a moment gauging the other’s reaction and when he saw no protest he continued “you were acting cheerful and typicaly drunk but once we got here and I … I started undressing you, you freaked out on me“
Jungkook felt all the blood rushing up to his face and neck, he remembers wanting to be with yugyeom, how good it felt to be touched in that way and how much it turned him on but every thing that happened after they left the club was blured and thinking about acting like a typical virgin in front of a stranger made him feel embarrassed and he wanted nothing more than to get his clothes and get the hell out of there. But he couldn’t make a move right now without risking feeling that intense back pain again.
“I-I understoond after that … that you …well … haven’t done that before so I decided to just leave you be … “ added yugyeom after a while before it was awkward before them again. Jungkook decided that it was up to him to lighten up the mood a bit.
“that still doesn’t explain the back pain and … the clothes? “ he asked
“oh, that. you really should see a doctor about that. as I was trying to calm you down and tell I wasn’t intending on doing anything you backed away and stumbled on the sofa falling hard and hitting your back on the coffee table … it looked really nasty and it looked like you were in so much pain … I’m really sorry about that“ he said with a sorry expression and jungkook softened a bit, yugyeom looked like a decent and nice guy “oh and about the clothes …. Well I tried to make it a bit romantic and had a bottle of wine and all .. when you fell it spilled all over you … it was some expensive shit, you’ll have to pay me for that“ maybe not all that nice.
Jungkook laughed soft before saying “I’m really sorry. I gave you so much trouble“ although he was honestly sorry for what happened he couldn’t help but feel relieved to know nothing of what he imagined accured, if he actually did it with yugyeo he would’ve regreted it deeply.
“don’t be. It was actually quiet fun. You act really cute when you’re drunk, did you know that? “ and he giggled amused at jungkook’s blushing face.
“I’ve been told yeah“
“well you’re cute when you’re sober too“ this comment made jungkook blush further and it was uncomfortable to be complimented so openly. Yugyeom was so forward with his advances and he wasn’t afraid to express his thoughts, something jungkook admired but couldn’t achieve. When he said nothing, yugyeom stood up and started walking towards the door “you can have a shower if you want … and can. I’ll bring you your clothes“and he was out in a second.
Jungkook stuggled to get up and stand straight, it was impossible to straighten up or walk normally. He really should see a doctor. He found his phone on the night stand and shooted a message to jimin quichly telling him he spent the night at a friend’s and would be back soon.
He looked into the full length mirror hung on the wall and could see the angry blueish and redish big bruise on his lower back. It looked really bad and he winced at the mare sight of it. A few minutes later yugyeom came back with his clothes and left soon after. It took jungkook nearly half an hour to get dressed, and at the end of it he was sweating and panting. His back was killing him and he felt like his head was going to explode. When he walked out of the bedroom and into the living room he was surprised by an impressive interior. It looked like a page out of an interior design magazine. White was everywhere with a subtle touches of pastel colors here and there, the fourniture was modern and design and every thing looked neat and at the exact spot it’s supposed to be. Yugyeom sat there, crossed legged with a cup of coffe in his hand and he looked like a part of the design.
“Sorry for the intrusion“he said once he reached where the other was sitting. “I’ll be going now“
“I’ll give you a ride in a minute, just sit for a bit“said yugyeom patting the spot beside him on the couch
“You don’t have to, I can go on my own. When I figure out where I am, that is“ he laughed awkwardly and wished yugyeom would just let him leave.
“I doubt you’ll be able to go far in your state … and I kinda feel guilty about all this“ he mumbled the last part.
“why would you feel guilty? It’s not your fault“ asked jungkook and watched yugyeom hesitate before answering.
“well, I kinda took advantage of you. I was drunk too but not half as drunk as you and I knew you weren’t thinking right but still brought you to my place… I don’t do this kind of thing usually, really. But I wanted to get to know you … and then I lost it and I feel really bad about it … I’m sorry“ yugyeom was rumbling and looking really guilty. Jungkook hated how he blamed himself for something he gave consent on.
“I was completely aware of my surroundings when I followed you here. You didn’t take advantage of me, I don’t blame you for anything. You don’t have to be sorry“he said with a bright smile and watched as yugyeom’s eyes grew wilder and he averted his gaze quickly with a faded blush.
“You’re cute when you smile too“he mumbled after a moment and jungkook didn’t know what to do with all the compliments he’s receiving today.
Jungkook ended up accepting the ride since he couldn’t imagine walking all the way to the subway station feeling every step like a hammer hitting his spine. It felt as though his back was getting worst and by the time the got to his apartement he was sweating badly and in desperate need of painkillers.yugyeom suggested to take him to the hospital but he insisted he’de be fine at home and the other left after asking for his number, jungkook couldn’t refuse as he really liked the other’s personality and thought they can be good friends.
He made it to the apartment with great trouble. As soon as jimin saw his agonizing face frowned and started scolding him.
“you’re gonna be the death of me jeon jungkook!! why do you keep making me worry and getting yourself into trouble. Why can’t you take care of yourself? You’re not a kid? What happened to you this time? “ jungkook groaned and doubled over his hand cradling his side. “jungkook,what’s wrong? “
“I hurt my back, hyung. it really hurts“
“come sit. I’ll bring you an ice bag“ said jimin before leading jungkook to the sofa and helping him settle down. It feels a little bit less painfull when he sits still.
After a few seconds, taehyung walked into the living room looking disheveled and sleepy. “kookie, you’re back? Where did you spend the night ? I was worried“ he said flopping in the sofa next to jungkook.
“eum … i-I was with a friend … I-I lost track of time and ended up sleeping over“ he answered awkwardly not used to lying to taehyung.
“you don’t look too well. Are you alright? “ questioned taehyung looking concerned
“I fell and hurt my back“
“don’t you have to go to the hospital? “
“I don’t think I can go anywhere. I just wanna sit still … it really hurts“ he complained feeling his muscles going stiff from how still he was trying to remain. Taehyung brought more pillows to pile around him so he could feel comfortable. It felt weirdly normal between them as taehyung fussed about him and tried to help him. jungkook has been having touble relaxing and acting normal around taehyung for the past few weeks and it was starting to worry both of them so sitting there talking about jungkook’s back like they talked usually felt good and jungkook thought secretly that every bad situation had a bright side.
Jimin came back with an ice pack and some patches and asked jungkook to lay on his stomach. It took almost half an hour to numb the pain a bit and he took some painkillers before he could relaxe a bit and breathe in relief. He spent the afternoon with his two friends talking, laughing and even watched a movie together with them. It felt normal and peacefull and jungkook felt content for the first time in what felt like months.
So when taehyung told them about his vacation plans jungkook thought that nothing good lasts long for him.
“I want to go on a vacation with hoseok“
Of course he has to mention his boyfriend when jungkook was feeling a little better.
He didn’t like the idea and dreaded what taehyung was going to say and do. But what choice does he have? Whatever taehyung wants to do he’ll be there for him even if it means he’ll have to see him with hoseok.
Jungkook will do anything for taehyung. anything.