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(taho🦀) 2:24
hey, are you guys awake?
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 2:36
what the hrll dude its 2 am
(taho🦀) 2:37
sorry
can't sleep
(mutsuns) 2:37
Is there something wrong?
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 2:37
well now i can't sleep either, can i? what's up
(taho🦀) 2:38
not really just
i can't stop thinking
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 2:39
i mean yeah, you do that a lot
(mutsuns) 2:39
Hyogo.
(taho🦀) 2:39
shut up Hyogo
what i mean is
my thoughts are too loud
i can't tone them down
(mutsuns) 2:40
What are you thinking about?
(taho🦀) 2:40
my family
there's still so many things that changed in so little time
i don't know if i can keep up
(mutsuns) 2:42
It's overwhelming?
(taho🦀) 2:43
yeah
i mean, i've told you about this new kid Dororo right?
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 2:43
yep
still can't wait to meet him
(taho🦀) 2:45
yeah, well it's been a few months since my parents officially became his legal guardians and...
i know that he's 9 years old and he needs more attention because he's a kid and stuff but
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 2:47
you don't want to be cast aside?
(taho🦀) 2:51
yep you got it
yeah
i know it's stupid to think like that but it's understandable for me, right?
i mean, my mom was thinking about my brother during my entire childhood and it still felt like she was favoring him when she got in contact with him again and when we started living together with him and his dad
and just when i thought i was finally becoming visible in the family picture, there he comes, Dororo
both my parents love him and my bro's all over him
(taho🦀) 2:53
i like him too, don't get me wrong, he's nice (just a bit annoying) and all but
i'm just scared i'll just become a shadow again
that no matter what it'll just come back to make a circle
god all of this is making me sound like an attention-starved bastard
you already know all of this why am i repeating myself
(mutsuns) 2:54
It's not stupid to feel the way you do. It is understandable. And you're not an attention-starved bastard for wanting your family to acknowledge you. Don't put yourself down like that.
(taho🦀) 2:55
sorry for the vent
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 2:55
don't apologize taho, it's okay
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 2:57
does your family know you feel that way?
(taho🦀) 2:58
no
i don't want them to think less of me
(mustuns) 2:59
Why would they?
(taho🦀) 3:01
i don't know
maybe it's just me thinking that i have to keep a straight face, stay strong and not let myself look affected by it
if it's for me to keep it in or my family to not bother them that i do this i couldn't tell
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:02
remnants of Mr. Kagemitsu's talk about a man's emotions?
(taho🦀) 3:02
yeah, probably
(taho🦀) 3:04
goddamnit, i have to be quiet or else i'll wake my parents
(mutsuns) 3:04
Are you crying?!
(taho🦀) 3:05
what if i am?
(mutsuns) 3:05
Oh, honey...
You shouldn't keep it all in, you know? You have to let it out at some point.
(taho🦀) 3:05
i'm letting it out right now, im talking to you guys
(mutsuns) 3:06
Talking about it online can't help much, you need to have people there for you physically, to comfort you.
(taho🦀) 3:07
...it'd just be so much easier if you were here
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:07
we miss u too, boy
but mutsu's right, talking to your family can only help
i really don't think they're the type to think less of you because of something like this, are they?
(taho🦀) 3:08
no
(mutsuns) 3:08
There you go.
Don't fear your family, Taho, you really have no reason to.
(taho🦀) 3:08
...okay
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:08
don't force yourself, though
speak with them, but only when you're ready, there's no reason to rush
(taho🦀) 3:09
yeah
yeah okay
thanks guys
(mutsuns) 3:09
You're welcome.
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:09
no problem
(taho🦀) 3:12
are you guys still awake?
can we still talk a bit?
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:12
i am
(mutsuns) 3:13
Yes.
What's up?
(taho🦀) 3:13
just wanna talk a bit more, since we haven't spoken in a while
how's college?
(mutsuns) 3:13
ugh
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:13
ugh
don't remind me
(mutsuns) 3:14
Finals are barely getting started and they're already killing me.
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:14
our teachers r garbage
(mutsuns) 3:14
It's not that bad, just a lot.
We get through it, though.
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:14
how bout u
(taho🦀) 3:15
it's rough, my teachers are really severe, but otherwise i'm doing okay
(mutsuns) 3:15
Glad to hear it.
(taho🦀) 3:16
oh btw, mutsu, how's archery?
(mutsuns) 3:16
Slowly but surely getting to the nationals.
(taho🦀) 3:16
do you know if it's gonna be televised ?
(mutsuns) 3:17
Not yet. From what I've heard, the managing team in charge of the competition is a mess. I still don't even know where the first round will be, and we usually get the schedule long in advance.
(taho🦀) 3:17
either way, if it is televised, you know i'll be watching
(mutsuns) 3:18
You better. Both of you. 👀
You know it feels better to know you're there.
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:18
and if it isnt, we'll think of u hitting bulleyes during the entire day
(taho🦀) 3:18
yep!
(mutsuns) 3:19
You guys, it's 3 AM, don't be funny or you'll make me laugh and I'll wake up someone.
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:19
F then.
(taho🦀) 3:19
F
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:19
F
(mutsuns) 3:20
Screw you.
But thanks, I appreciate it.
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:20
speaking of 3 am, should we all go back to sleep?
not that i don't wanna keep talking, but yknow
it is 3 am
(taho🦀) 3:20
yeah, we should
(mutsuns) 3:20
Are you feeling better now, Tahomaru?
(taho🦀) 3:20
i do, yeah
thank you guys
good night
(ᕙ(hyogo)ᕗ) 3:21
gnight, have nice dreams!
(mutsuns) 3:21
Good night.