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Two years…. It took two years for Jensen to find him and convince him to give him a second chance. When he got back from work one evening, he was shocked to see Jensen sitting on the couch with his parents.
“Hey, Jay, it’s good to see you.”
‘What the fuck are you doing here Jensen? Was breaking my heart not enough for you that you came all the way back here just to do it again?”
“No Jay, you don’t understand.”
“The fuck I don’t. I do. I was just a toy for you.. So if you have come here just for me...”
“Would you just stop and listen to me for a change?” Jensen yelled. “You didn’t even let me explain. Yes, I was wrong. Yes I treated you badly but never once did I lie about loving you. Never once did I lie about being afraid of losing you. Never once did I lie about making love to you. Never once did I lie while kissing you. Never..”
And Jared could see his throat closing up. Tears were brimming down from those beautiful eyes. They were telling the truth, even if he didn’t trust his words. “I was just trying to play cool, but , I was not expecting to fall for you. Or your big sweet beautiful heart, your dimpled smile, your giant brain, your cute nose, your bubbling excitement. Never once did I… It was hard not to fall for you. That day, I was gonna take you out and come clean. I was gonna tell you everything and propose a marriage to you, because I couldn’t live this lie. Hell, I couldn’t live without you. I was so fucking afraid that if I told you everything, I would loose you. For good. But just like always luck wasn’t my side and I lost you anyway. These two years without you have been hard. I’m on a sabbatical. Did you know that? I drank too much. My brain started making you up around me. That’s when I knew I had lost my marbles. I can’t lose you Jay. I’ve come back to make you see how much I love you. I can’t possibly function without you. Please forgive me. Please. Baby, I love you.”
“I love you too,” Jared mumbled with tears running down his cheeks. “But you have to gain my trust again. You have to win me back. It’s not going to be easy. If you’re willing to do that only then will I let you in. I cannot survive letting you into my life twice, only to be hurt again. I can’ handle you not in my life twice.”
“I can’t survive without you too, baby.” And Jensen was right there, embracing him tight. They both melted in each other’s arms. They knew, it was not going to be easy but they really couldn’t function without each other. Maybe they had to go through heartbreak to reach this point. They were meant to find each other, to go through hell to be back in each other’s arm to know what love really felt like.
The chiming of song, brought Jared back from his reverie. Just as the words of “Stand by me” fell on his ears, Jensen was walking down the aisle looking bright and beautiful in his white tuxedo with black lapels and black bowtie. He was gorgeous and he was all Jared’s. For the rest of his life. By the time he was near the altar, Jared had extended his hand for Jensen. He smiled that shy smile of his; the one just reserved for Jared and entwined their fingers together as they stood facing each other. They were gazing lovingly in each other’s eyes as if nothing else mattered. The ceremony was a blur but Jared would forever remember the bright smile he was graced with when he slipped the plain golden ring on Jensen’s finger or the small tears that shone in those eyes after he slipped a matching ring on Jared’s finger. Just when the priest asked them to kiss, Jared was lost in the beauty that was Jensen. Jensen leaned in, and placed one hand on Jared’s waist and the other on his cheek. “What are you thinking of, beautiful?”
“Nothing, just you.” And it was true. “Love you,” Jared leaned in and pressed his lips to that of Jensen’s. He would never tire of telling Jensen that he loved him. Because he didn’t need to. If the kiss was to go by, Jensen understood.
They were meant to be.
