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Xiao Zhan pulled away from the kiss after what felt like eternity even though it couldn’t be longer than couple of minutes. When he looked at Yibo, it suddenly dawned on him what they have done. He was swept away by Yibo’s kindness and got carried away by his emotions. Before either of them could process what happened or talk about it, the door bell rang and Xiao Zhan jerked himself away from Yibo.
“I should get the door. That must be the food you ordered.” Zhan turned to walk away when Yibo called
“Ge…”
“You.. should probably stay here Yibo.. incase someone sees you. Come inside after I close the door.” with that Zhan went to open the door.
When Yibo walked back inside, Zhan was serving the food into the plates for them.
“Ge..”
“Dinner is served Yibo. Come, eat!” Xiao Zhan says keeping his eyes on the food, refusing to look at Yibo.
He’s avoiding me again. Did he not like the kiss…did I cross the line?
Yibo sits down across the table and starts picking at his food. They eat in silence for five minutes when Yibo stands and walks up to Xiao Zhan. He makes Zhan stand up and face him.
“We need to talk about what happened”
“It’s fine Yibo. I understand. You don’t have to take it seriously. Just forget it and move on”
“What are you talking about, Ge”
“Yibo.. It was just a moment of passion. I was emotional and vulnerable and we got carried away. No need to make anything out of it. I know how you feel about me. So let’s just pretend this never happened and get back to dinner. I’m starving!”
Zhan was about sit back down when Yibo dragged him into his arms.
“Ge.. it was not just a moment of passion for me. I wanted it to happen. I don’t want to forget it”
Zhan breaks out of Yibo’s embrace instantly.
“Are you playing with me again Bo di…It took me really long to get over you, I can’t go back there again…so..please..just let me be and don’t act this way from now on.”
“I won’t! I don’t want you to get over me. I will never toy with you Zhan ge..I mean it. I will never hurt you again, please trust me.”
“Yibo…what are you saying? You don’t have to pity me”
“It’s not pity. I really Love you ge…I have always loved you, I just didn’t realize my own feelings and then I lost you by the time I figured out what my heart desires. I’m sorry I hurt you, but I can’t lose you again ge…I love you…can you please take me back? I will love you for ever”
Xiao Zhan was dumbfounded. It was not a confession from Yibo rather a desperate plea to accept his feelings…One which Zhan’s mind wanted to badly refuse…but his heart…his heart couldn’t ask for anything more in this lifetime.. he waited so long for this that it felt unreal.. Yibo was standing in front of him.. confessing to him…he was delighted…but also confused…he was happy…but also anxious…he was excited..but also scared.
“Yibo…I…”
“Ge…don’t…please don’t say that you don’t love me anymore. You don’t have to answer me right away…you take your time and think through it…I will wait for you…as long as you need”
“Yibo!”
“Ge…let’s eat now…don’t ask me to leave and don’t say that you don’t love me. Let’s just eat and you sleep on it ok. We will talk again tomorrow”
With that Yibo went back to his seat and started stuffing himself with food quietly. Xiao Zhan was still dumbstruck. They ate in silence and did the dishes together in silence. Once they were done placing the dishes back they stared at each other for a moment, unable to say anything to each other.
“I’m going to sleep now Yibo…it’s late. Good night!” Zhan scurried away into his bedroom leaving Yibo alone.
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Xiao Zhan was tossing and turning in his bed. He still couldn’t believe what just happened. The love of his life finally confessed to him but he still had doubts in his head? The kiss was too good and he desired more. Everything felt delusive. Yibo’s confession was too late and also too soon…too unexpected and too unreal. After about an hour of not being able to sleep, Zhan walks out of his room to get himself some water when he sees Yibo sitting there on the couch.
“What the hell Yibo…you scared me!” he screams
“Couldn’t sleep?”
“Mn.”
“Me too”
Yibo gestured Xiao Zhan to come sit by him on the couch.
“This is just too much Yibo. I don’t think now is the time for us to start anything. It will be too much of a mess for you to handle. May be you should think about this some more. “
“I don’t want to think about it. I know I’m in love with you and I want to be with you. I don’t care about the current circumstances or the future. We will face it together whatever comes our way. I just want you Zhan ge”
Zhan did not need anymore assurance, he couldn’t hold himself back anymore. He pushed Yibo down onto the couch and jumped on him kissing him.
“I love you too Bo di” he breathed between the kisses.
“I’ve loved you for so long…i have only ever loved you. You are the only one for me Wang Yibo”
Yibo was on cloud nine now. Xiao Zhan accepted his love and was kissing him all over, running his hands all over his body. Yibo was so happy he could die.
Xiao Zhan was now exploring every part of Yibo’s mouth fighting with his tongue for dominance. Yibo flinched when Zhan reached out under his shirt to play with his nipples. Zhan pulled Yibo’s shirt unto his neck and started sucking and biting on his pink colored nipples. He now planted himself completely between Yibo’s legs and was grinding their hips together while pulling his leg over his shoulder. He could feel Yibo’s length along his hard member and the friction through their clothes was making him insane. Yibo was moaning and that was only making him harder.
“Ge! Wait!”
Xiao Zhan was startled when Yibo spoke.
“Sorry! Too fast? Want me to stop?” Zhan said embarrassed
“No! Bedroom?” Yibo asked coyly
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After almost a week of turmoil, Xiao Zhan felt light hearted when he woke up the next morning with Yibo still plastered against him in his arms. He had to pinch himself to believe that last night wasn’t a dream.
Venting out his anger, Yibo’s confession, the kisses and their first night together…everything felt so surreal. He was lost in thought when he noticed Yibo smiling gleefully in his sleep.
“Are you awake?”
“Mn”
“Why were you smiling, did you have a nice dream?”
“Yes! My dream came true. I woke up in your arms. Best day ever!” He moved up to kiss Xiao Zhan’s lips. He deepened the kiss while his hand found Xiao Zhan’s member under his shorts. He continued the onslaught of kisses while palming Zhan’s length. Xiao Zhan fumbled under the sheets to grab Yibo’s hardening length in return. They kissed sloppily, bodies entangled while rushing for their pleasures.
“Seriously…best day ever!” Yibo repeated when they were both finally down from their high and now lying on their backs next to each other breathing heavily. Xiao Zhan giggled and pulled Yibo back into his arms.
“So what do you want to do today?” he asked
“Clean up!” Yibo chuckled
“After that?”
“Whatever you want to do ge”
“Let’s shower and have some brunch and then will decide how to spend the rest of the day”
“Sounds good”
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They spent the rest of the afternoon in each other’s arms, talking to each other, reminiscing the past, confessing their thoughts and just making up for the lost time and making most of the few hours they have left together before Yibo has to leave.
Yibo coils his hand into Zhan's and speaks “Ge…promise me that you won’t be upset anymore…whatever happens…you won’t drink alone…you won’t go online to check what’s happening…and you won’t shut yourself out again.”
“Okay I promise! I promise!”
“Promise me that you will call me and talk to me when you are depressed or frustrated or lonely”
“Okay fine, I promise. Anything else, my love?”
“I also want you to talk to your family and friends now. Tell them that you are fine, so they don’t worry anymore”
“Mn.Okay”
“Thank you for listening to me” Yibo planted a kiss on Zhan’s forehead
“I don’t have a choice. You are pest, and won’t let me be” Zhan growled
“But I’m your pest!”
“Yes, you are mine and I’m yours. Forever!” Zhan leaned in to kiss Yibo but he was pushed away.
“Now get going and finish what I’ve asked you to do.”
Zhan begrudgingly picks up his phone and walks into the bedroom to do what Yibo has asked him.
When Xiao Zhan turned his phone back on, he received a call from his manager letting him know that his role has been cut from a variety show he had shot a while back. All the three dramas that he had finished, which were supposed to air in the summer have been pushed back into winter or even the next year. He was saddened by the news. When he finished the call, he was reminded of the promises he made to Yibo, his smiling face flashed before him…and just like that….all the gloom left him in an instant.
I promised Yibo that I won’t be upset anymore. I won’t let this bother me. I’m not alone…I have Yibo with me now. I know I will get through this. All I need is his love and support.
Xiao Zhan spent rest of the evening calling his family and closest friends..apologizing for not being in touch lately and assuring them that he was doing well now. Though he still insisted that no one should support him and get dragged into this mess. Then he called up his studio to discuss his upcoming plans.
By the time he was done with the calls, he found Yibo struggling to cook in the kitchen.
“Yibo.. why are you doing this? I would have cooked for you”
“I wanted to cook for you Zhan ge. I knew you would be tired after talking to everyone for so long. It’s not so hard…I managed to make some easy pork fried rice. It is not as good as your cooking, but I hope you’ll like it.”
Zhan hugged him from behind. “I will like whatever you cook for me Bo di” he kissed the back of Yibo’s neck which sent shivers through Yibo’s spine. Zhan filled him in on the calls and the discussion with his manager while he continued to stir the rice.
As they ate, the impending separation was looming over their thoughts. It was Xiao Zhan who finally broke the silence and addressed the elephant in the room.
“When do you have to leave?”
“I’m taking the early morning flight out, so will have to sleep at my place tonight”
“When will you be back?”
“In two weeks. But I will message you and call you every chance I get. i will miss you so much ge!”
“I will miss you too Bo di”
“Do you have anything planned this week?”
“I want to release a song. I have been thinking about it since morning. I have to put myself out there again. So I will start with a song and then maybe make some art piece when I release it”
“Wow! That’s great ge…do you have anything in mind for the song already?”
“I do…I will send it to you once I finalize everything”
“I can’t wait to hear your voice. I’m sure everyone will love it”
“I hope so Bo!”
“I love you Zhan ge”
“I love you too Bo di”
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The End.