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A couple of days later there is a funeral home packed with people that loved Hinata. All of the people there are all people that Hinata had managed to impact their life.
Hinata’s mom is at the podium talking about all the good memories of Hinata. Everyone laughs when she brings up an embarrassing memory. Everyone in the room has a watery smile and tears in their eyes. They know that Hinata wouldn’t want them to cry, but here they are crying. How could they not, they lost such a great person.
Tsukishima almost doesn’t go to the funeral. He doesn’t know how to react to Hinata's death and it’s all his fault. Except it isn’t, well that’s what Hinata said in the letter he left for him.
Dear Tsukishima,
Can I call you Tsuki?? Hehe well I will because if you’re reading this then I died and you can’t tell me I can’t. I don’t want you to blame yourself for my death okay? You can’t blame yourself for my death. It was all on me, I’m the one who fell in love with you. And to be honest I have no idea why I fell in love with you. Out of everyone I could have fallen for it was you. Crazy right? I mean since the beginning you never really liked me so why? I ask myself that all the time. And I don’t know why and I guess I never will know why. Well since I’m gone I want you to move on! Don’t think about me. I know It’ll be hard since I know you think you’re the reason I’m dead. If everyone doesn’t already know who I was in love with, don't tell them! I mean you can, since I’m not there to stop you. It’s your choice. Just know that I will always love you. Stay strong Tsuki!
Love,
Shouyou Hinata
Tsukishima wanted to scream at Hinata when he read that letter. How could he be so careless with his life? To throw it away because you love someone. He just couldn’t understand. But he supposes he doesn’t have to understand. He would never have to understand.
He had a constant battle with himself if he wanted to tell everyone he was the reason why Hinata died. He knows for a fact that Kageyama and Kenma knew that he was the one Hinata was in love with. They didn’t treat him any different so he wants to think that everyone else will be the same. He decided that this is something that he’d take to the grave. This was his pain to endure alone, no one else's.
Kageyama was the last one to speak at Hinata’s funeral. He didn’t want to speak, He didn’t want to stand in front of everyone and show how much he’ll miss hinata.
“He was supposed to stand on the court longer than me. He was supposed to beat me. We were going to be partners forever. Hinata was my first friend. He’ll always be my first friend. He taught me so much about being a better person. I don’t think that i’d be as happy as I am right now if it wasn’t for him. He was always there for me, and I hate that I couldn’t be there when he needed it the most. I know everyone in this room loved Hinata and as his best friend I’m so happy that there are a ton of people who love him as much as I do. I will continue to play volleyball in his name because I know he wouldn’t want me to stop. I ask that you all do the same.”
Everyone can’t help but look at Kageyama with tears in their eyes. They all see how torn up he is. They see that he has lost a piece of him that no one can replace. Hinata was his other half and to lose him so soon is not easy. Everyone knows they’ll have to keep an eye on him. They all know he’ll take it the hardest.
As Kageyama is walking up to say his final goodbye to his best friend he feels something in his throat. He dismisses it as tears and continues to the casket. He walks up slowly and sees his best friend in the casket. He leans over to say his final words to Hinata.
“I will always love you.” he says as he coughs up a flower.