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The large knocks startled Asahi out of his daydream.
He has been staring up at the ceiling for god knows how long. Everything was feeling so off, he missed his friend, he missed his boyfri- no just friend he missed his friend. Asahi has never been in a situation where he had liked someone this much.
After 19 years of his life he had never felt this much emotion.
He knew that avoiding jaehyuk wasn’t going unnoticed. He knew that the older boy was confused, he knew hyunsuk saw right through him, he knew that eventually he would have to face up to his fear.
Startling him out of his thoughts he quickly jumped up from the loud knocks. Not even questioning who was at the door he opened it right away.
Mentally face palming himself for not asking who it was cause next thing he knew he was being pinned on the now slam shut door. Hands by either side of his head, a heavy breathing, intensified jae staring directly into his soul.
He’d swear he was in an actual story and he was the main character cause there was no way this was ACTUALLY happening to him.
“Jae what the hell-”
“What did i do wrong, why are you avoiding me”
“Jae i- i just um i-”
It dawned on Jaehyuk that he was probably over stepping with caging asahi. “Sahiya i'm sorry i don't know what got into me.” The older boy said as he dropped his shoulders. “I just missed you, it hurts having someone you like avoid you” he said, head hanging low, the last part coming out barely as a whisper.
At this point Asahi knew he couldn’t run from his fear of commitment. He really liked Jaehyuk more than he knew himself. Knowing that this was the only chance he got he grabbed the latter hand and brought him to his bed. Without saying a word he laid the older boy down.
Confusion started to wrap all over Jaehyuk as to why he was being laid down. He tried his best to keep his head out of the gutter, Because he knew it was definitely not the time to start thinking with his dick.
All that sudden confusion washed away once the younger boy laid his head on the latters chest, wrapping his arms around the older males torso. Not knowing where to place his hands, Jaehyuk just kept it in the air, still a little shocked as to why the Asahi was cuddling up to him.
“Its ok Jae you can put your hands on me i won’t bite” asahi said with a slight chuckle. As much as Asahi was nervous it didn’t stop him from still remaining nonchalant.
Still uncertain, Jaehyuk lowered his hand wrapping it around the younger males waist. They laid there in a comfortable silence both not wanting to break the silence.
Asahi listened to the older one's heart beat. The soft sounds of the older males heart beats and the scent of rich chocolate soothed asahi. He sighed and melted more into the older boy's touch. He missed it, he missed him.
“Before i say anything you have to promise me you won’t say anything jae, no laughing okay or say anything till i'm done”
The older boy made a sound of approval. With a sigh he finally let out what he was holding onto for so long.
“First i want to say i’m sorry for avoiding you, i do really like you but-”
“But” Jae said in a worried tone. Asahi looked up at the older boy with a not so impressed look “didn’t i just say not to say anything”.
“Sorry I couldn't help it, I'll hush now”.
“Like i was saying, I do really like you but i was too scared to accept those feelings, i was scared of what will end up happening”. He said finally letting out a sigh he’s been holding onto for so long.
“Can I talk now?” Jaehyuk said said a little uncertain. “Yes I'm done talking I guess”.
“Well I like you and you like me and you’re basically laying on top of me so are we-”.
“ I can get off of you,” Asahi said, raising himself to scoot away. “ No no i’m sorry” the older said, latching back onto the younger boy pulling him closer to her chest.
“I want to take you out”
“That’s cheesy,” Asahi scuffed. “And besides I don't think we can really do that, deeming who we are”.
Jaehyuk knew they couldn’t publicly show their affection for each other but he still wanted to treat Asahi like the angel he was. As much as he loves his idol life he does wish he could be normal for a while, especially in this factor.
Jaehyuk sat up making Asahi sit up as well. He took the other boy's hand into his own and stared into the boy's eyes. The soft glow of the moon made Asahi look truly magical. Jae saw how fans really found him beautiful because he truly was.
The door suddenly swung open, making both Asahi and Jaehyuk snap their heads to the direction of the intruder, only to find a very shocked and frozen haruto staring at them.
“Are you just gonna stand there or-” Asahi said, raising an eyebrow.
“Shit guys i didn’t know yall were um- I just um, yeah i’ll just come back later”.
“He kinda ruined the moment,” Jaehyuk said with a light chuckle. “No kidding” the younger boy said looking down at their still intertwined hands. They sat there for a few minutes before asahi decided to break the silence.
“Can I kiss you”.
This made Jaehyuk mentally choke on air at how direct the younger boy was all of a sudden. “Huh um yea-” he couldn’t even finish the sentence because the next thing he knew was there were soft lips on his.
It took him a while to start moving his lips along with the latter, dancing against each other. Unlike last time this one was more warm, not heated. Asahi brought his hands to the older boy's hair, tangling his fingers in between the strands.
Sighing into the kiss this is what Asahi was so afraid of, falling in love. Everything felt perfect, the large hands roaming his back felt perfect, the plump pair of lips on his felt perfect, this was perfect, he was perfect, but he knew eventually this moment would come to an end. Reluctantly he pulled away slightly out of breath causing a whine from the other boy “but why” Jae said all pouty.
“You need to go back to your room, we both know Haruto is waiting outside the room.”
“I don’t see the reason why i can’t stay here”
“If you stay here I would be tempted to do things I wouldn't want others to see”
“I see no problem in that,” Jaehyuk said, diving back into a kiss but was stopped by a hand.
“As much as I want to kiss you need to leave” with that Asahi was already standing up pushing that latter towards the door. All this was happening too fast and before he knew it he was already getting pushed out the door.
“Wait wait wait can i atleast have one more kiss, just for the road” trying his best to pull the biggest puppy dog eyes. As much as Asahi found it adorable he still wasn’t bugging “ No” and with that he fully pushed the latter out his room and closed the door leaving a very pouty Jae outside his door.
Jaehyuk stared at the no closed door with a shocked expression. Still happy at the fact that he finally got Asahi, his new favorite form of happiness.
Walking back to his room he bumped into Jihoon who couldn’t help but make a sly remark.
“Dick game still strong”
“It was never weak to begin with”.
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“So are y'all like dating”. Haruto said getting ready to start the day.
“ I mean i guess we are”
“Still can’t believe i walked in on yall fondling” he said the last part in a more disgusted tone gaining a slap on the arm. “Shut up dude we were literally just holding hands, besides i’m not dumb enough to do anything with a house full of boys”.