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Bill looked away with a sigh, "I-...I still don't understand. Why don't you just kill me? I mean, once everything is back to normal, you do realize that I'll stop at nothing to tear you and everyone you love apart."
Dipper stared at Bill for a few seconds before responding, "I don't believe that you would."
"Excuse me?" Bill's expression went from solemn to a look that said 'Are you serious?', "I'm a demon, and I would not hesitate to-"
"But you obviously have feelings. And I refuse to kill a person that can feel emotion. I used to see you as an object. You never cared, not that you do now, but you were merciless, and threatening. And if someone got in your way, you'd just hurt them as if that were your only option. You were basically a drone. Now I see... that you are capable of feeling so many things! It's like you're a while different person-" Dipper smiled softly before being cut off by the boy at his side.
"Stop."
"W-wha?" Dipper began to ask, looking at Bill with a worried expression.
"Stop it now. I don't care about you filthy beings, and I never will. Don't try to imply it." Bill hissed, fighting off the thoughts in his mind that told him this was wrong. That he did like Dipper. Mabel, Wendy, and even Waddles. It was like he was having a war between his brain, And his heart, and he hated it. He tried to convince himself that he didn't need a family. He didn't need Dipper to be happy.
Dipper only chuckled, and Bill felt himself blush, unsure if he should love the sound or hate it, "Don't be silly Bill! I saw how your eye sparkled as you had your first pancake," Bill could've sworn that Dipper wasn't paying attention then-"and how you slept on the couch, curled up in a little ball," He watched him sleep? "And how guilty you looked just a minute ago when I talked about the pain you caused me,"Bill winced, "You obviously care."
Bill shook off the overwhelming emotions he'd just felt and bit his lip, "Don't be an idiot."
Dipper's smile fell as the demon child continued, "Can't you see that I'm just getting into your head?" He sneered, "that I'm acting this way so that you won't be able to harm me later on due to your frail human emotions? You humans make me sick."
Dipper glared at Bill, "If that were actually true, you wouldn't have told me you were pretending! You're just making up excuses!"
"As if! You're oblivious state just began to get on my nerves, so I had to clear things up for you! I almost feel sorry for your stupidity!" Bill spat in return.
"So you can feel!" Dipper shot back.
"I said almost!" Bill corrected as he sat up strait as he watched Dipper's deer ears go down further.
"Well maybe I shouldn't have even tried to be nice to you! All you've ever done is cause my family grieve and havoc!"
"I-" Bill paused, feeling confused and hurt, "...It used to be so easy... ever since you cast that damn curse, I've been all weird..." Bill furrowed his brows, "This is all your fault! I don't want to feel at all! You humans make everything so fucking complicated, and I-I'm sick of it!"
Dipper glared at Bill with watery eyes, but didn't say anything.
"Don't... don't look at me like that..." Bill felt a small pang in his chest as he spoke, "I just... this is all so new and different... and it just makes me feel terrible."
"..." Dipper stared at Bill for a few more seconds before sighing softly, "Are you scared?"
"What?" Bill seamed appalled at the idea, "No." Was that what he was feeling? "Maybe..." Bill looked away from Dipper to face the trees. "I don't know..."
Dipper smiled softly before grabbing at Bill's hand. Bill looked at Dipper with confusion in his eyes, but Dipper had already looked forward at the scenery too.
"I am too."