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The unofficial and unsuccessful almost-proposal of Eddie Diaz by songbvrd
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
07 Jan 2026
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“Okay, please say something.” Buck managed, “I was only being weird because I didn’t want to be weird. Which I know sounds counter-intuitive, but I just wanted Christmas to be so perfect for you, because it’s our first Christmas together. I— I don’t know why I thought—”
“It, uh, it isn’t my ring from Shannon.”
Buck, obviously a linguistic mastermind, managed out a quiet ‘huh?’ in response.
“The… ring.” He sounded like he was clearing a brick from his throat. “It isn’t from my first wedding.”
“Abuela?” He asked, a little stupidly.
Eddie, seemingly broken from whatever silent stupor he was trapped in, snorted.
“No. Buck.” He stepped forward, swallowing and visibly forcing a smile onto his face. “It’s… for you. I mean, eventually.”
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Buck finds a ring Eddie was planning to use to 'eventually' propose to him. He is obviously very normal and composed about this information.
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“Just don’t expect me to walk you down the aisle,” Phillip laughed, looking around like he expected the rest to agree.
And when no one did, glancing at one another in shock, confusion, and hurt on his behalf... it’d been the last straw:
“I wouldn’t ask you to,” Buck said, as if discussing something as inconsequential as the weather, “I’d ask Bobby.”
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or Buck experiences the unconditional love of a parent for the first time in his life at a five year-old's birthday party.
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He sees a pair of legs sticking out from one of the aisles, blood slowly trickling next to it. “Eddie, Eddie!” Buck sprints toward the blood.
Eddie is laying on the ground, clutching a bunch of rolled up gauze near his neck. His hazy eyes land on Buck, and he smiles a little. There’s blood on his teeth.
“Just a little graze,” he chokes out.
“Don’t talk,” Buck rushes to say, “you’re gonna be okay.”
“I know,” Eddie smiles bigger, but it's wonky. Falling apart at the edges. It’s not Eddie’s usual smile. It makes Buck’s stomach hurt.
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Eddie gets shot.
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After the lawsuit, Buck keeps his head down—“man down,” money tight, appetite tighter—as the 118 feels colder than it should. A handful of small choices and one steady partner start turning surviving into staying in this quiet hurt/comfort rebuild made of breakfasts, daylight, and the word said on purpose.
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Steve is having a hard time adjusting to the new normal, after everything that went down. He doesn't want to bother his friends with his problems, though, when they've got so much weight on their shoulders already.
Steve stumbles on an alternate version of Hawkins, where none of it ever happened. Everyone’s alive, his headaches are gone, his friends actually want to hang out with him, and he’s… happy.
(The party has to fight another monster. But this one doesn't prey on people's fears. It preys on their deepest desires.)