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  1. Depths on Chapter 15 Wed 19 Dec 2018 05:38AM UTC

    hey so uh. i dont remember if ive commented on this story or not before (although I probably have considering this story is one of my favorites no matter whether im even in the bnha fandom at the time) but uh.

    Ive been a viola player for years, and quit due to my depression for a long time (4 years, ironically lol) since i both didnt have the energy to play and it made me feel horrible every time i even considered playing again. Ive loved music despite not playing in so long, and ive really missed playing in an orchestra or at All ever since I quit. but i was unable to get the resolve to play and used the excuse of not having a mute that fit my viola bridge even though i could... easily order one.
    Its been 4 years of not being able to go to concerts or fully listen to orchestral music without spiraling into a depressive episode or a flat out panic. I stopped going to even my friends orchestra concerts after i broke down crying at one and had to leave.

    i read this story maybe last year?? and i never finished it because i fell out of the fandom, but recently finished it in its entirety.

    On a related note, I unburied and retuned my viola for the first time in years.

    this is a long winded and annoying way to say this story really helped me get over my own... whatever the hell was happening to me to stop me from playing. I know it probably wasn't your intent to accidentally be therapy for me, but reading this story was immensely cathartic and i just wanted to say thank you.

    Keep writing! You're doing great.

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    1. ladyhoneydarlinglove on Chapter 15 Sat 22 Dec 2018 09:40PM UTC

      oh my god, this wasn't annoying at all, please don't think so, i uh. i actually cried a bit when i read this the first time because i thought it was so touching.

      i will say it wasn't not my intent to be accidental therapy because like. i drew a lot on personal experience to write this fic and that includes experiences with anxiety and depression, and i really did hope that some people might read it and relate and maybe feel a bit better afterwards. so the fact that you returned to your viola after four years at least in part because you read this is so amazing and wonderful to hear and it makes me so glad that this fic could be something that helped you! i know depression is a godawful shitshow and how hard those kinds of struggles can be, but i also think one of the biggest parts of getting better is that you have to try, even if it's just the tiniest of baby steps. and returning to your viola is a huge hurdle to break through, so i'm thrilled you could take that step! i wish you all the best from here on out and hope that your path to recovery continues steadily on ♥

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