DAMN this was a dark chapter...... and the ending with lu ten 😔 'And then horrible agony, searing into his body, into his very soul. Agony he had only felt once in his life. You will learn respect. And suffering will be your teacher.' the way that i literally hate it here 'What if they don't come? Whispered a voice inside his mind. What if they realize they're better off without you?' NOOOOOOOO im glad that zuko knows that theyre his friends and has hope that theyll come, but when ur in extreme pain, it does give the illusion that time goes by slower. so it would make sense that zuko would believe that its been a long time and is slowly losing hope :((( 'Zuko almost couldn't breathe from the suffocating fear; but his friends were coming. He could hold on until they came.' THIS line is rlly sad. bc i feel like even i zuko starts to think that the gaang abandoned him and doesnt need him, he still wont betray them. he didnt do it with ozai for the longest time, and his love for the gaang is a lot more wholesome of course, so why would he betray the gaang? and that shit hurts me 'Chuzai apparently didn't expect a response, because he continued. "I do not like royalty," he said, pacing around Zuko in circles. "They sit in their palaces and dictate our lives, send us into their wars and for what?" The last words came out as a vicious snarl, his lips curling in disgust. "Power? Wealth? Or perhaps they enjoy watching the young of this country perish and burn in their pointless battles! They enjoy watching as children are stolen from their parents and murdered by savage brutes!"' THIS IS WHAT ZUKO IS TRYING TO STOP AND UR HURTING HIM STUPID ASS I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!! cant wait to see iroh end this mans whole career 'Trails of fire ran down his face as Chuzai’s fingers brushed down his cheek. Zuko couldn’t move anymore: the restraints were already stretched to their limit. He could only whine as the heat grew unbearable, surely leaving behind another terrible burn scar.' the hatred i feel? immeasurable. theres nothing better than a villian in fics that u can hate. once again, i am ready to see the iroh vs chuzai beatdown 'Heat blazed across his face, across his torso, accompanied by horrible, searing pain. Cold water filled his mouth and nose, burning his throat and filling his lungs. He tried to scream but he couldn’t make a sound. Fire and water clashed over his body, fighting over his shaking frame. They were going to tear him apart.' the fact that zuko still managed to live after that AND the torture from before really shows just how resilient his body and mind is. you see how he continues after ozai burns him, how he swum through seal tunnels in the arctic. his determination is really something else!! its like zuko lives purely out of spite. hes too powerful 'Gods, he wanted to go home . He was more scared than he had ever been in his entire life. He just wanted to go home.' i love that zuko doesnt really consider a PLACE to be his home, he considers it a people. he wants to be surrounded by his loved ones. im so emo 'Lu Ten laughed. “After we break through the wall you’ll buy me some tea, right? My favorites, jasmine or ginseng?”' SHUT UP BOTH LU TEN AND ZUKOS FAVORITE TEA IS JASMINE............ i am heartbroken the way that i dont know anything abt lu ten but hes still my emotional support minor character? yeah,,,, i just made up a bunch of hcs and a perception of him and boom i love he 'And with a sound like the world splitting in half the boulder slammed into the ground.' ughh literally AND figuratively did iroh's world split in half in that moment. i hate it here!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS WAS SO SO GOOD LIKE ALWAYS i love how quick u update i just go onto the atla tag and see a new chapter has been posted and BOOM!!!! i am in a good mood again. i am excited to see how the gaang and iroh are doing in the next chapter!!!!!!! lots of love as always <33333
This was indeed a dark chapter. We've got some grim stuff happening to our son :( and that ending literally made me cry while I wrote it :( I wanted to put in a little more ptsd and angst from that moment than the show had. I don't mind how the show kept it kind of lowkey, because it's still a kids show, but I can't pass up the opportunity to wring out every last bit of angst I could get :) He is trying to stay hopeful! But he has no idea how long he's been there, as you said he's in a lot of pain and so that distorts perception of time quite a bit, not to mention that he's been unconscious for a good amount of time as well and those combined make it next to impossible for him to tell exactly how long it's been. For all he knows he's been on that ship for a week, though it's only been about three days (Zuko's POV chapters are all taking place about a day later than everyone else's chapters, so it's been about three ish days for Zuko and about two for the rest of the gaang) But in any case it's hard to keep hope in such a grim situation but he's trying :( One of my favorite things about Zuko is how loyal he is. He wouldn't betray someone he cares about, especially since he did that once at Ba Sing Se and has been torn apart about it ever since :( We'll see if he can hold onto that resolve once he starts really breaking :):) Chuzai is at this point almost driven insane with grief and anger, so he's assigning blame where it doesn't necessarily make sense (Zuko wasn't even alive when the war started and he doesn't make the decisions about where to send the soldiers so idk what chuzai's hoping to accomplish) He is hurting inside and reacting accordingly but that does not mean I tolerate the guy. Writing chapters that chuzai is in just fills me with rage. I can't even. I'm really glad everyone seems to hate this guy as much as I do. The chuzai/iroh throwdown will be immensely satisfying for us all :) chuzai's gonna have to catch some hands from the entire gaang as well I am so ready for it Zuko is indeed an extremely resilient individual! I didn't put it in outright but by the position of the sun that was mentioned he was being dragged behind the ship and nearly drowned over and over again for at least a few hours. It's probably not realistically possible to survive for that long but idk it's a fanfic don't think too hard about it ;) Characters who live purely out of spite are my faves because first of all: mood and second of all: same I've thought about this a lot actually! I mean a house is just a bunch of wood, but it's the people inside that make it home (in my opinion anyway.) And Zuko's finally found a group of people who care about him and so he misses them really bad and gawsh darn it I'm crying again :,( The part that really wounds me is when he's calling out for iroh because it reminds me of a little kid calling for like their mom or something when they're scared. Zuko's so afraid and in so much pain and he's already lived through some horrible things at Chuzai's hands and so he's instinctively reaching out for the person who always makes him feel safe :( I am in immense pain I totally did that on purpose because apparently this chapter wasn't heartbreaking enough already. why am i like this why why why Honestly same I have so many hcs of him that it's almost like he's a character with screen time and dialogue and everything lmao Indeed that word play was 100% intentional I'm glad you caught it :) Word plays like that are my favorite! Awww thank you so much!! I have quite a bit of time to write since I have online school for only about half the day, so I can usually update pretty quickly ;) Thanks for being such an awesome human and always supporting me!! You have no idea how much it means :):):) You're absolutely wonderful luv!!! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
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