going to begin this on a semi-serious note and say that this past week has been very difficult irl and just whenever it got to be really stressful I would just whoosh right over to my tabs and read a few hundred words of this and just feel so warm and safe!! and every night I'd just fall asleep feeling so at home ahhhh. so thank you so much for a story that has been such a comfort this week and all the weeks before, and also thank you for listening to my increasingly deranged DMs LMAOOO truly you are so kind <3
okay FIRST OF ALL when I saw the chapter title I was like oh shit I Am Not Going to Make It and guess what I was RIGHT because holy shit??? ik i am a broken record at this point but this concept of rewriting the story is SO good and i just adore how it threads through the whole fic like AHHHJSLKDFJS truly this fic is the embodiment of the best of haikyuu canon and the best of what it means to love a story so much you /literally/ rewrite it like??? it's all so meta!!! you rewrite a story about love in which the characters rewrite their own stories about love and I JUST!!!! and above all GOSH this is such a beautiful a love letter to everything haikyuu is--invincibility through the bonds we share with our loved ones, a healthy relationship with one's craft, hope in an uncertain future (but never uncertainty in a PERSON god it literally boggles me to a ridiculous degree that kags has literally NEVER doubted hinata like WHAT THE HECK???), faith that no matter what that future holds there will always be love--it all cirlces back to love AND YOU TOLD US LITERALLY FROM THE BEGINNING, "THIS IS A LOVE STORY" like HELLO IT'S WRITTEN ON THE TIN AND I AM STILL CAUGHT BY SURPRISE!!!! HAIKYUU IS A LOVE STORY!!!
*cracks knuckles* alright SO first of all how dare you rewrite the jackadlers match in such a devastating and poetic blow-by-blow way like i KNOW my kghn goggles were on but truly reading it from Their perspective is easily the fastest way to incapacitate me like PLEASEEE they are having so much fun doing the thing they love most in the world with the person they love most in the world just on the other side of the net--"It was always going to be Hinata. It still is." like MA'AM EXCUSE ME??? god the kazuyo rewrite in particular completely took me out, like I'm not really one for believing in destiny irl but TRULY jackadlers was the payoff for everything and MAN did it hit. It slapped so hard I am still reeling and every single little flourish on the end of every moment just felt so satisfying and true. ACK
THE DINNER PARTY OHMGLSKJFLSKD the WAY that hinata takes care of him even in conversations even though tobio can hold his own now like HELLO EXCUSE ME YOU ARE IN LOVE AND IT IS SO LOUD also thank you so much for this bokuaka food!!! "'Akaashi-san was the one who was cheering for Bokuto-san the loudest" like JSLKDFJSLDKJF I absolutely adore this akaashi is canonically bokuto's biggest supporter so like thank you so much for this. "Thirty of the Cutest Cat Pictures You'll Ever See" PLEASE HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T and ajslkdfj SUGA absolutely adore how he just Knows. I believe in Sugawara supremacy sometimes I think he is the captain of this ship but then again literally everyone knows these two are in love so perhaps that role gets passed around a lot skdlfjsdl
hinata walking along a literal edge of a sidewalk like an imaginary tightrope I SEE YOU!!! I AM SEEING YOU SEEING ME SEEING THIS I SEE YOU AND I AM SHAKING YOU!!! kags being honest with his words for once and point-blank saying hinata is amazing took me straight out. I also, of course, was pistol-whipped by the hand holding AND every single thing about the date (candles!!! sjdlfksj they are so,,,so ridiculous i am hopelessly endeared) and especially the arcade scene like KISSES ON THE CHEEK????? i actually squealed out loud and also wanted to kinda throttle tobio when he was like "oh lol that was just a lil smooch, i shouldn't get so worked up" like FELLAS is it GAY to kiss your homies?? just a lil smooch??? JSLKDFJSLDK and then of course sweet revenge in the photobooth that was so CUTEEEEEE. I know I already yelled about it but you literally snuck in fake dating too??? sorry brb just gonna SCREAAAAAAAAM. also them arguing over who should pay is SUCH a classic Them move and also very on brand ajslkfj 100% felt like i was astral projected to a family dinner and couldn't stop smiling
"It's time, isn't it?" <<-okay so at this point I was no longer a person like my dumbass got to "Simplicity in the grand: on a winter night, Kageyama Tobio smiled, and Hinata Shouyou fell in love" (okay which also them falling for each other during the other's respective months literally STILL not over that I'm suing you for emotional damages!!) like the night before and was like "okay!! I'm going to bed now this is a gorgeous line to mull over as a fall asleep" and then literally not seven hours later I woke up and was immediately decked in the face by "It's time, isn't it?" I have nothing to say for myself, just that this glorious build-up of over 200k words--this was my jackadlers match and holy shit I was even less prepared even though I knew at some point it would have to arrive
and arrive it DID. it was so simple!! they were just walking home!! and he knew!! He knew!!! I AM NOT OKAY!!! AND THEN HE JUST POINTED UP LIKE I LOVE HOW THEY'RE ALWAYS LOOKING UP (badum-tsss) WHEN THEY WANT TO SAY THE THINGS THEY CAN'T QUITE SAY YET BUT THIS TIME HE WAS READY. Time literally stopped for me like I think I entered into a state of infinite suspension just like floating along in the mess of my own jumbled emotions and THEN he just goes "meat bun" like JSLKDFJS it is so in-character, so simple, so ridiculously Them, how you wrote this!! "It was always you" UM OKAY I'M SORRY MA'AM IK THIS IS A WENDYS BUT IF YOU'LL JUST HOLD OFF ON REPEATING MY ORDER BACK TO ME FOR JUST A MOMENT PLEASE I STILL NEED TO TELL YOU ABOUT THIS SCENE. hinata realizing he never had to walk that tightrope bc kags has literally always looking at him UM. um. UM--crying over how this is also lowkey canon like kags has been there since day 1 and i just. i need lifealert
"this is just the beginning" oh god to continue with my tinfoil hat jackadlers parallel theory (insert *congratulations on the [basic reading comprehension] meme* jsldkfj) literally the way it matches up so well with tsukki's "what do you mean this is just the first match of the season" LIKE the ways the milestones in their relationship in the fic both a) fill in the gaps and compliment canon but also b) rhyme with and transform the events of canon (rewrite the story, if you will hehe) is just SO satisfying from a narrative perspective like!!! LIKE!!! it's bonkers!!! fic by nature transforms and references and rewrites and you do it all with such grace and musicality and I'm!!!
hinata=daylight metaphors have me sobbing bc chapter title and sun imagery ofc also sobbing to how soft the waking up scenes are??? and okay so i've been trying to hold back on quoting lines otherwise we'd be here all day but: "Because this is what most people don't know: that Kageyama Tobio spent six years watching for the sun's shadow in the clouds, and then was there to greet it at first light," again, would just like to say, uhhhhh, HELP???? and of course sea of lovers reference--god I am FRAGILEEEE, just as fragile as these two dorks are when they call each other by their first names!!! that was so CUTE ohmygod I am in love with them. tobio holding groceries in his other hand so his free hand can hold hinata's--at this point I was already gone but then i was gone gone. The way they will just pause and hold each other or kiss each other on the cheek or just sit with each other has me actually holding back tears like they literally live out their love every single day and I am not!!! okay!!!
tobio's sweater,,,JLKDFJS hinata is an absolute lil shit for buying it for him but at least he'll never get lost, bc...hinata will always...find him...wait HOLD ON SJLDFKJSDLKFJ EXCUSE ME??? YOU!!! and tobio being all clingy when he wakes up i think YES HELL YES (i'm still not over happy feet though like sir PLS god he's so lucky he's cute asjldkf) and god the way they were together when hinata got the phone call,,,god they really just do life together now don't they like this is the future furudate wants. I know they told me themselves.
EDIT: ohmygod this got so long i had to frantically copypaste it to a word doc to prevent ao3 from eating it JSLKDFJS ANYWAY
OF COURSE THEY NAMED THEIR CAT VOLLEYBALL ohmygod these two. I am losing my mind also I think I forgot to mention it but everytime they call each other sweetheart or shou or tobio i just. i fall apart i can't, i think sweetheart actually made me drop what I was doing at the time i just!!! they are the loves of each others' lives,,,he FITS oh god by this point I was just beyond gone like i had ascended from this astral plane of existence they are happy with one another and they love each other. they have worked for each other and they have waited for each other and I can't stand it!!! It's insane!!!
the prpsoal,,,PROPOSAL,,,,oh god oh god a marriage,,,a vow,,,they already were invincible but marriage,,,marriage is a promise but they already promised themselves to each other so long ago but like they're MARRIED,,,the way they stand together at the very end, still looking up, still making shapes out of clouds, still looking to the sky except now they're no longer separated by time or oceans or anything else so they do it together,,,literally i have no more words i'm just gonna lay here for the next five billion years until the inevitable heat death of the universe or however long into the future that is projected to be and think about how love is real,,,absolutely bonkers. just bonkers!!! that title drop, too ohmygod--which okay i've been meaning to ask about but at least to me *puts tinfoil hat back on* it's so very haikyuu!! AHHH like the way lines connect two points, the way lines are meant to be written and rewritten, the way lines inevitability lead from one point to another??? and when the two points are two hearts?? when lines connect souls??:
"They'd met each other on the shore where the skyline held them close, where they let the truth finally unfold, rewritten. And in that truth they know that their heart lines will always be tied together, whether they're next to each other or oceans away, no matter where they are. They will always be connected.
This is still a love story, after all."
LIKE I REALLY DON'T HAVE ANY WORDS IT'LL ALL JUST COME OUT AS KEYBOARD SMASHES YOU!!!! YOU!!!!! you literally captured the essence of haikyuu and distilled it into a two hundred thousand word manifesto about everything I have come to adore and love about this story and these characters and really!!! I really cannot express how joyous it is to experience ohmygoodness I am forever grateful and soso proud to have been here to watch this unfold!!! this fic will forever hold such a special place in my heart and just, thank you!!! thank you for writing with such love!!! thank you for loving these fools in love!!! i love you dearly!! <33333
oh my gosh i don’t even know what to say, this is just the sweetest and kindest thing!!! it’s also really funny i laughed so many times reading this HAHA you already know that i love and appreciate you dear friend but this is just so!!!! aaaaAAAAA thank you thank you thank you!!!!!!!
i’m really sorry that life has been rough on you, but i’m happy that this was able to give you a bit of happiness at least! :D i hope things get better!!! i look forward to messages all the time lol agsjs thank you for letting me ramble about kagehina doing whatever for this long HAHA
oh my god, the way you phrased it!!! it’s a story about love and the invincibility of finding it!!!! YES!!!!! and oh my god right sometimes i do sit and think about how right from the beginning kageyama never doubted hinata and it’s just like [head in hands] sir how did u know this boy was ur soulmate at 14 JUST HOW DID YOU KNOW
and god while writing this i had to go through the match again and,,, man,,, it truly was SO GOOD and putting kagehina as the spotlight for the entirety i almost did not make it It Was Too Much For My Heart!! but i’m really happy you think it turned out well aaaaAA
HINATAS STILL WALKING THAT TIGHTROPE!!!!! HES STILL TRYING TO GET THERE!!! TO HAVE KAGEYAMA LOOK AT HIM!!!! and AAAA YES i loved writing the arcade scene it was so fun because hinata decided he wasn’t holding back anymore and could do whatever he wanted but the joke was on him!!! kageyama kissed him too and he stopped functioning!!! he ain’t slick and immune at all!!! he’s just another boy stupid with love!!!! lmao he thought he could do it ahdjdhd but he’s just pining as hard as ever before (AND I COULDNT NOT INCLUDE JUST A SMIDGE OF FAKE DATING!! NOT WHEN THE OPPORTUNITY WAS RIGHT THERE HEHE)
aaaaa if there’s any scene i was most nervous about it’s definitely the confession scene so you saying all that stuff is really reassuring!!!!! i actually had to rewrite it a bunch of times until i was satisfied (ironic because hinata was rewriting his life as i rewrote as well lmao) and i really like how it turned out!!! their love is the simplest and gentlest thing when you really look at it!!!! they just wanna be together forever! that’s all there is to it!!! your comment here is so FUNNY i couldn’t stop laughing oh my god AGSJDBDJ
oh my god that tinfoil hat is a brain blast because yes!!!!! YOU ARE SO RIGHT everything came back in the jackadlers match and it makes me go CRAZY!!! and fic is really a beautiful thing because you can do whatever you want with it!!! you can rewrite canon a million times and still have the foundations the same but result with something entirely different and wonderful!!!!! <333
all the scenes after the confession were a little weird to write (and sort of relieving??) because i’d gotten used to writing them pining for SO LONG and now they can just be domestic! they can hold hands! they can kiss! they can lean into each other (not that they already didn’t do that lmao)! there truly was no more holding back!!!! it was soft hours all the time!!!!! i’m really really really happy you liked all these things!!!!
oh my god the SWEATER AGDJDHS HE WILL ALWAYS FIND HIM AGSJDHSN i laughed so hard here because YES EXACTLY!!!! THATS HOW ITLL ALWAYS BE!!!! WE CANNOT ESCAPE IT!!!!! this is the way they are now and i’m glad furudate agrees
THEY ARE JUST SILLY BOYS WHO WAITED LONG FOR LOVE AND NOW THEY GET TO HAVE IT!!!! THEY GET TO LIVE THE REST OF THEIR LIVES TOGETHER WITH THEIR CAT (of course theyd name her volleyball after the most important thing in their lives)!!!!! and aaaa the PROPOSAL!!!!! even back when i started writing this fic i knew that i couldn’t let it end without a proposal or marriage!!!!! there was never another way!!!! ITS A NEW PROMISE THEYRE MAKING BUT ALSO THE SAME ONE THEYVE ALWAYS HAD!!!!!!!
and oh my god YES that’s exactly what i was thinking too about heart lines!!! they’re always connected no matter what and no matter how far!!! even in brazil or tokyo or wherever they stand under the same sky!!!! their heart lines will always be tied together!!!! like red strings!!!! (as miss swift would say, an invisible string) and i’m not really into palm reading but apparently there’s this thing called a heart line and i just like imagining that when they hold hands and their palms press together their heart lines touch to be the most connected they’ve ever been!!!! it’s a pretty neat and soft idea and i thought it fit in well with how from the very beginning they were always connected and meant to find each other!!!!! and oh my god i didn’t even think of how lines are always being rewritten but YES EXACTLY!!!!!! YOU GOT IT EXACTLY RIGHT MAAM!!!!!!!!!
i really don’t know what else to say but THANK YOU TOO!!!!!!!!!! you know full well that this probably wouldn’t exist without you and writing it was so fun and great and i really love this fic so i owe a lot to you!!!!!! i’m so fond of it and it means so much to me and it makes me super happy that you liked it!!!!!! haikyuu is such a love story that i just ran with it and i’m really happy with how it turned out!!!! thank you so much for letting me message you all the time about kagehina and about this fic and screaming about whatever (even when they’re basically incoherent)!!!!! thank you thank you!!!! i love you lots!!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3
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