oh SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM this is the best birthday present you could have gotten me 😭😭😭 my boy is SO SAD you wrote him SO WELL this is incredible!!!!! like where do i even START
Feelings like these remind him of his parents saying “Don’t be such an attention seeker,” and curling up in his too-big bed under his too-heavy blankets, tiny fists pressed tightly against his chest to calm down his sobbing breaths.
this…. god…… baby hiyori being just a lil bit neglected and being SO SO upset but having to learn even at such a tiny age that he CANT feel like that, that he has to hide it makes me want to scream…. please someone comfort this tiny child!!!!
Even when his shoulders felt heavy under the guilt and he couldn’t make himself get out of bed in the morning. On mornings like that, Jun would slip under the covers with him, and just hold him, and that was enough.
UGH. they’re so in love it’s STUPID!!! i love how jun just KNOWS what hiyori needs and does it without asking and the fact that really, hiyori doesn’t need much as long as it’s jun giving it to him and i just. 😭
alright. didn’t mean to hit send that early. thanks phone. anyways back to my regularly scheduled screaming about this fic
Close enough to feel the goosebumps on Jun’s skin, and it takes all of Hiyori’s self-control not to stick out his tongue to lick, suck, claim.
hiyori you little weirdo!!!!!!! that’s not even your boyfriend you cannot suck the sweat off of his neck in public like that!!! i love him. freak. also if he did i just know jun would a) be weirdly into it and b) not even blink twice. yeah ohiisan left that mark. it’s just cause he says i’m his. no it’s not romantic. (idiot boy)
Jun turns his head to look at Hiyori, and Hiyori turns his head away because he doesn’t want Jun to see. Even though he does want Jun to know.
oh this line hits…… i know exactly how you feel hiyori 😭 the wanting to be Known without having to be vulnerable…. ough hiyori baby it’s okay!!!
Hiyori shakes his head. There are words in his chest, somewhere, that he wants to say to Jun, but they’re buried somewhere deep and he can’t get them out. His breathing goes shallow, and Jun—his precious, perfect Jun—notices.
and then right after hitting us with this?? because jun DOES see him. jun DOES know him and understand him. and he doesn’t even have to say anything jun can just… pick up on it by now. wow wow these two. insane.
alright i’m trying to find words to describe. how the end of this fic made me feel. very difficult to articulate other than the fact that wow. they love each other. also you nailed their canon-ish relationship so well because they’re Not dating. but had you not included the pre relationship tag and the lines about hiyori not knowing if jun feels the same i would’ve absolutely been like. oh yeah this is established relationship. they’re gay and in love in this one. because that’s just how they are!! incredible work on nailing their dynamic like that!!
once again. and i cannot say it enough. THANK YOU FOR THIS!!! this is an INCREDIBLE fic, a wonderful character study on hiyori!! you really understood him and what exactly makes him tick and why he is the way that he is and you executed it beautifully to write a fic that surely i will be thinking about for the rest of my life!! if i wasn’t trying to go cry-free on my birthday i probably would’ve cried a little at the end of this!! it’s just SO wonderful and i cannot thank you enough for feeling not only me but the entire hiyojun community for my birthday!!
thank you and i love you 😭 truly i couldn’t have asked for a better gift ❤️❤️
wahhh eden, you're the BEST, this must be the most amazing comment I've ever received ❤️ Thank you so much for encouraging me to write Hiyori POV, because this guy is such a complicated layered character and it was SO fun to dive into his brain and follow his thought processes. All this trauma and the inability to express himself fully (even with Jun, for now), and yet longing to be understood. And Jun just being able to pick up on all of that because of all the time they spent together, and yet both of them still refusing to be totally honest with the other ("don't tell him I said that") ughhh IDIOTS. Their canon relationship is so fascinating to me, because to everyone else it's SO obvious they're in love, but somehow they CANNOT SEE IT.
Ahem. Anyway, I love how you like, picked out all of my favourite bits and lines to comment on. Jun DOES see Hiyori, they just both need a little more time and courage to take that final step. But they'll get there eventually!!
Thank you again, and I am glad to have been able to brighten your birthday a little bit more!! ❤️❤️❤️
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