“But this is… This is so much more. More vulnerable. More intense. And I still don’t know if risking everything we’ve built up, everything we just got back, would really be worth the potential heartache. God, I need to stop letting everyone make me feel so hopeful. It’s like everyone knows something I don’t- and maybe they do. But I don’t think I like that. I just want it to be us. I just want to know if it would really be worth it.” the doubt everyone feels with when falling in love with their best friend 😭😭😭💔💔💔
“her eyes and tilting her lips up but still having enough control of herself as she mused out her greeting, “Hello, broody. Mister broodster. Big man brood.”” LMAO Tina i love you
“That’s rude,” Fit commented with an undercurrent of a snicker laced into his words, arching an eye at his sister and reaching forward to pinch her arm. Tina yelped, and there was a firm smack across his shoulder from Bagi looming behind him, startled into a laugh and triumphant grin when he glanced back to see her blue eyes rolling but her expression warm and soft. It reciprocated in Fit’s chest, easing a little with the familiarity and the warmth for the two of them. Even though I’ve been focused on how much Pac has changed me, I can’t deny that these two have been a big part of my life too. I’m grateful for them always- even if they’re that stupidly in-love couple that sometimes makes people roll their eyes or want to vomit.” i love them and their dynamic sm 🥹🥹🫶
“You cannot be mad at me for observing and speaking the truth,” Tina declared with a booming certainty, her regal features instantly clashed by her finger earnestly poking into his chest and finding the divot where his collarbones met. He let out a startled cough from its intensity, blinking quickly at Tina’s grin remaining but looking more coy and challenging when she aimed it at him. ”You’re sitting here and brooding with a very sad man-baby face and not dancing and celebrating the kick-ass night we had.” yes tina exactly exactly 🙂↕️🙂↕️ also i love their dynamic sm dnjsksnsklx
“I would say it’s great music to dance to depending on the context,” Tina mused haughtily, waggling her eyebrows in a way that made Fit finally decide to shove her off of his leg she had occupied, stumbling away with a yelp and quickly caught by Bagi as her arms shot under hers to lift her back up, soon straightening out and pointing an accusatory finger when she was safely nestled into her girlfriend, a pitch of accusation around her laughter, “I’m just trying to help! You’re so damn droopy! It’s really sad and pathetic and you look like a really sad puppy by itself!” damn Fit out here catching strays kkkkkkkk (also Bagi looking out for her gf 🫶)
“Not by yourself! That’s sad!” Tina pressed again, waggling her finger in front of his face again as it was studded with gold and silver rings. She placed her extra hand on her hip, Bagi’s arm looping through to hold onto her waist as the two of them watched him groan and wave his hand, flipping them off and turning back to the bar with a resigned expression Etoiles did nothing for but snicker quietly in the distance, moving even farther away from the teasing squabbles. Fit casted him a desperate glance, but seeing that he was on his own simply turned back to them, chest puffed and chin jerked in a slight challenge.” LMAO this whole interaction is making me chuckle (and also happy cuz more etoiles screen time 🫶🫶🫶)
“Tina was more subdued now, sitting down on Bagi’s lap instead and wrapping herself up more closely in hers” HAIQUHSOOAKAKSOSKP anyways so i love them
“I don’t know if it’s… Right. I mean, he’s just starting to heal and find himself again after the worst person in his life, his ex mind you, fucked him up again. I can’t- I don’t want to throw him into another possible relationship. Or stress him out that way. I can’t do that to him. I don’t want to reawaken him or pursue anything he may not want.” i love how considerate Fit is about Pac’s feelings, it really shows how much he respects and cares for him
“Tina wrinkled her nose, obvious thoughts written on her face, but she seemed to stay quiet under Bagi’s hand as it reached for her thigh and squeezed. As Tina’s eyes remained on Bagi’s hand instead, blinking quickly with a faint flush from the touch” SHJQIQJQKKAOZKSKOkzixjsjajjzkxkdHAJAKAKKXODKAKKSODKDJXKSOKWND LESBIANSSSSSSSBSBQUQIAJJZOALAKQJKWKDKKDKWLWLZKXKFLEL ok im sorry im done now trust
“Bagi was looking back up at Fit with a surprising amount of gentleness he was still startled by. He would never forget her malice and anger from before, laced with suspicion when they first met, but it was easy to space away when she was looking at him so fondly, so full of understanding when she lamented gently” me when Bagi and Fit parallels and similar arcs in growth and character development: 🍽️🍽️🍽️🍽️🍔🍔🥪🥪🍟🍕🍟🥗🍖🥗🥗🥓🥓🍟🍟🥗😋😋😋😋😋 (i really like it a lot)
“You won’t know until you try, Fit. I know you’ve done some scary things recently, and I know this can be terrifying; it’s probably the most terrifying thing, honestly. But I think I’m one to say that it is absolutely worth it. It’s worth it to at least try.” you miss 100% of shots you don’t take 🙂↕️🙂↕️
“Tina’s expression softened, leaning over and closing her eyes to press a deep kiss to Bagi’s cheek as her gaze filled with understanding when her eyes opened back up. There was a shared moment when they met each other’s eyes, a long stare that made even Fit’s heart ache as he could clearly see the love between them; the months of waiting, of yearning, and the strife that eventually led them to where they were now. Fit felt a faint smile on his face watching them; for all of the teasing, he could feel his own love for them pulse softly. They went through it too; that uncertainty, that fear, especially with Tina and how it all exploded out of control. But they took the leap, she tried anyway, and look where that’s gotten them. They’re proof that maybe it’s worth it to take the leap; to let yourself burn. If only Pac and I could be half as lucky.” I LOVE LESBIANS ‼️‼️‼️ and i also love teaduo and hideduo parallels 😋😋😋
“Tina’s expression melted even further, sharing a quick kiss with Bagi before snuggling more into her” dhiwiahxjajabjxjdjejakkd
“Her voice was soft, goading and encouraging as she nudged him forward. “Go get him, Fit. I promise you it’ll be okay. The leap is worth it.” Yes Bagi tell him‼️‼️
“Thanks, guys. I hate you, by the way. And if this ends horribly, I’m coming back and ordering another drink just to pour it on you two.” “We love you too,” Bagi mused with a grin, Tina giggling as she slipped back further into her girlfriend’s hold and shot Fit a brighter smile, filled with her familiar mischievous glint once again.” i love them all together 🫶🫶🫶
“They really deserve this. They deserve each other. I’m glad they both found that happiness with each other; they’re perfect for the other.” AGWJQJQJAKOZOAJAJKAKZ crying rn btw 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶
“We deserve something good too. I don’t know if that’s together, but… Everyone’s right. I would regret not doing this. I… I have to try. I want to try. For him. For us. For that chance to be happy together. The leap could be worth it.” YESSS FIT, GO GET’M TIGER‼️‼️‼️
“He was able to try. Because he’s worth it. He’s worth the whole world and more. The leap would be worth it.” IMMMM CRYING BTW
“Fit felt a loose mumble leaving his lips in wordless agreement, unable to look at anything except Pac. The passion and warmth returning to his words, bringing life back into his features… It was practically impossible not to stare. And especially when he could practically feel his hands burning until they were numb, seared by the strong yearning delving down to the tips of his fingers as he pushed back against the desperation to reach for him. He did his best to act casual alongside him, even with the building storm in his head and the currently quickening pace of his pulses. God, how the fuck am I gonna do this? When I can’t think of anything except how badly I want him? This is going to be a disaster.” Fit is a D1 yearner and i’m so here for it
“mustering the will to meet his eyes even with the haywire it sent through Fit’s heart and fizzled out into his bloodstream.” i know what you are Fit…
“I understand that, absolutely. You were breathtaking up there; your passion and everything you were feeling really showed. I could tell you were letting go, that it was a part of you just waiting to be set free. It was incredible.” this gay ass motherfucker
“I would’ve never been able to confront him like I wanted to without you. To say everything that I did, to finally find it in myself to fight back because of you… You really were my guardian angel, you know? You really did protect me and be there for me when I needed you. And I just… I can’t thank you enough.” 🥹🥹🥹🥹
“The more I look back… The more I can remember his smile. The dimples. The glow in his eyes… Was I looking closely back then, even after all this time? Was I in love before I even knew it?” Fit and Tina parallels 😋😋😋
“You already have thanked me enough, Pac. You’ve already done enough to thank me and make up for it. Ten times over. You’ve done just the same for me. I wish I could thank you enough. I wish you knew how much… It all means to me. How much you mean to me.” pack it up pal we alr know you’re gay (this is so cute tho)
“Dance with me, Pac?” There was a teeter; one that threatened to yank the light away behind the widened eyes Pac bore to him in genuine shock. But it was only for a moment as the grin of light lit up Pac’s features again, bedazzled and startled but alight and joyous. And his hand finally slipped into his when he reached forward, gentle amongst his callouses, and Pac responded in the exact harmony Fit could hear perfectly in his mind and with the exact smile Fit had fallen for over and over the past months. “I’d love to, Fit.” YESSSSSSSSAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSS
“I have him. I’m holding him. And I don’t give a single fuck as to who’s staring and who’s noticed. Who cares if our names are on the papers? Who cares if rumors start? I’ll have him. I’ll have this moment. And nothing could ever take that away from me; not when this is enough.” GOD that’s so cute
“Listening to him speak of healing, of already becoming more than he already was and continuing to work on himself with a renewed vigor and life behind all of it” ack im so proud of Pac 🥹🥹
“That’s the you I adore, Fit. That’s the you I will be here for, anytime and any day. That’s the you I… I care about. More than anything.” His fingers drifted, each movement creating sparks in their wake as Fit’s flesh seemed to practically sear under Pac’s touch. But it remained careful, uncertain but true as they pressed lightly to his cheek, eyes searching along his face and briefly dancing across Fit’s lips with a gut jerk before meeting his gaze again. And Fit couldn’t remember a time he looked so certain of something, beyond the emotion that was making amber specks dazzle his eyes and light up every single whisper that left his mouth in a string of words Fit had only dared to dream of hearing spoken aloud, “Beyond the cracks, beyond the anger you had. I saw you. I will only ever see you, Fit. Always.” OHHHH MY GOD THIS IS SO CUTE IM SOBBING
“This was never just a feeling. This is everything. This is everything I want and more. I want him. Every single piece of him, broken or not. I want him. And I see him too. Every part of him. And all I want is more.” GODDDD THATS GAY ASF
“And then the distance was closed, every line crossed and every single fire burning under Fit’s skin exploding in jubilation when their lips finally pulsed together in an eruption that coursed through every ripple of skin. It was only a gentle press, one that barely snagged Pac’s lips in his own, but it was enough for his whole nervous system to send a flash of sparks up and down until everything was fizzling, his hand cupping the cheek he had and tightening around the waist in his other hold. Pac didn’t move away, the slightest lean into Fit being the only anchor for the fireworks that set off from the touch.” LETS FUCKING GOOOO‼️‼️‼️‼️
“his breath hitched at the sight rippling in glances of light and shadow. Oh. That- That wasn’t what he wanted, was it? But I thought- I could’ve sworn I-“ what if i said Tina and Fit parallels
“Brown, Fit. Earthy, warm, very warm brown. And it’s right here in front of me, it always has been, and I don’t want anything else. I want you. You, Fit. You.” JEEEEEEZZZZZZ
AND THE FINALLY DID ITTTTT LETS GO‼️‼️‼️ HIDEDUO FANS AROUND THE WORLD FOUND CHEERING‼️‼️
“I…” Fit’s brain was on autopilot, gushy from it all as he let himself laugh along with Pac in breathless spurts, shaking his head with disbelief before tugging him in and feeling him giggle under his palms before he heard it singing in his ears, the floating sensation drifting all the way up through his spine and around his head. When he was settled, Pac straightening up to gaze at him in a much easier manner, Fit exchanged another grin with him before ducking his chin, the flaming color once again returning to his own cheeks with his flustered state. “God, I cannot tell you how long I’ve waited to do that.” “I can.” Pac’s voice was so startling, almost cheeky, and when Fit blinked in surprise down at him he saw the jerk of his chin and the grin that endlessly sliced through. It was a cascade effect; the warm ripple before realizing it was another moment of falling further, simply by the glow in his eyes and the stunning smile Fit would never get tired of. “Since we first met.” Fit’s heart was too mushy for a moment to fully process his words, but once he did it felt like another slam of everything that almost sent him reeling. It made his feet shuffle, adjusting to the weight of it all, but Pac was there in stride and helping him balance with a hand on his arm as he met Fit’s shocked stare, even feeling drips of horror and shame in his gut when he questioned with a faint pitch behind his words, “Really? All the way back then? Even when I was an asshole?” ”Even then.” Pac’s laughter was warm, another part of him that was too tempting to kiss and sink into, but it gradually grew softer with the genuine light behind it as he tugged Fit in again, his hand practically hovering over one side of his face while his thumb toyed with his lip, a bit sheepish but earnest before he spoke in a gentler murmur, “I think I knew something was going on. I was just waiting for the real you to come out; the one who could finally be himself without consequences and not have to live in survival mode. And look at you now. I saw it back then, and I see it now.” BWIQISJJXAIKAKAKLZLSmslsoajakskzJAJOQLAKDKLLWLW
“Even at my worst. He… He saw me. Every piece, and he still looks at me like this.” need someone to love me like this fr 💔
“To think, despite my efforts to push him away and make him hate me… He saw through all of it. And he waited. He waited for me. He thought I was worth it, whoever I was underneath- before I even knew. Being loved by him… It means waiting until it’s worth it. And waiting this long… It’s worth it. Every second of agony, of patience, of tension… It’s all been worth it. Every second, every day, every week and month. It was so, so worth it.” GODDDD THATS SO CUTE IM ACTUALLY SOBBING RN
“And to me, you’ve never looked more beautiful. More whole.” DAMNNNNNN
“It was before I even knew you. The boy I wished for when I first found out I was gay, the person I’ve wished for all my life to consider my partner. The perfect person; sweet, kind, brought out the best in me and made the whole world a better place. That’s you. And I was so, so scared I didn’t deserve you, especially with who I used to be.” awwwwwwwhhhhh ☹️☹️☹️🥹🥹🥹
“You don’t have to, Fit. You don’t have to prove anything to me or be scared anymore. You have me. You have every part of me. And you have for so long now. You always will.” um so i’m crying rn
“He leaned forward, kissing Fit’s lips lightly before drawing back, and the two met their eyes once more. In the steady thuds of their chest was further promises, further light and possibilities as they now stood in the others arms as Pac gave him another smile, his vow uttered against Fit’s lips much stronger than before, “I’m here, Fit. I’m yours. Always.” “Always,” Fit whispered with him, and one last grin was shared between them before Pac pulled him in again, their smiles still felt long into the kiss. He thought he could hear cheers and whistles from two familiar girls beyond them, but Fit didn’t tune into them or anyone else who would be looking on; all he could focus on was the man in his arms at last, in the way he only could’ve seen in his dreams.” bro that’s so cute i can’t
“At my side despite everything. Loving me despite who I was. And I didn’t even know; I didn’t even think it was possible. But he was there, the whole time, just as patient. Yearning just as much. And we have each other now. The leap was worth it. Now we can go into our new futures together. Together now, together forever. Always.” ACKKKK IM CRYING RN 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
jesus christ that was crazy, THEY FINALLY DID IT‼️‼️‼️
after 468,066 words, crazy character development, and multiple falling outs, THEY FINALLY GOT TOGETHER!!!!!!!! it’s a miracle 🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️
that was just simply incredible and, just like every other part, absolutely phenomenally written
i’m SO not ready for this series to end someone please help me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
these little guys have infected too much of my brain by now LMAO
anyways, as always, take care, remember not to burn yourself, and i’ll see you in the next one <3 (and the one after that…. right? right??)
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