After an Almost
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Later by languageintostillair
Fandoms: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
12 Mar 2020
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Hey, is what Brienne ends up typing, I hope you’re doing well. (He will hate her for this formality, she knows, if he doesn’t still hate her for leaving.) I just got back from Winterfell. (She’d arrived in King’s Landing two months ago.) If you don’t still need my sweater, (she can’t think of why he’d need it, but she wants to be polite) do you think I could have it back? I can come by your office (she almost adds ‘or apartment’, then decides against it) tomorrow. Just let me know what time works best. Thanks.
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- Part 1 of After an Almost
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Next by languageintostillair
Fandoms: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
13 Mar 2020
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Brienne had woken up the morning after Jaime asked about coffee—she’d slept an hour, maybe two—and decided it would be best to simply get it over and done with. Like picking up the sweater, coffee with Jaime was just another errand to check off her mental to-do list. It was unfortunate that it was added to that to-do list because of a—well, a slip of the tongue, she’d just leave it at that—but it was still just an errand. That was all. And the longer she put off this errand, she reasoned, the more sleepless nights she’d potentially have to endure. Coffee with Jaime was just one more step to suffer through, to sever him from her life. It couldn’t possibly be more mortifying than the last conversation they had, just before she’d left for Winterfell.
She’d survived that. She’ll survive this.
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- Part 2 of After an Almost
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Still by languageintostillair
Fandoms: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
15 Mar 2020
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When she arrived at her building, she half expected to see his car parked on the street. It wasn’t there, though, and she wasn’t sure if this made her feel relieved, or disappointed. She wasn’t sure if she wanted to feel either of those things.
But Brienne knew he would show up, sooner or later. She knew because that’s just how Jaime is, and she knew because their whole conversation has been playing on repeat in her head for hours, no matter how else she tries to fill her time, and her thoughts. I promise I’ll never bother you again after today, he’d said. If that’s what you want.
Today is almost up when he finally shows.
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- Part 3 of After an Almost
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Maybe by languageintostillair
Fandoms: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
17 Mar 2020
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She wore the sweater to bed. And let him see that she wore it to bed. But that was—that was weakness. A coping mechanism, that was all. Brienne had done that without thinking it through. But she’s thought this decision through, hundreds, thousands of times. It’s better if she lets him go.
Jaime’s next message makes her want to throw her phone against the wall.
You want to run. That’s not the same as letting go.
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- Part 4 of After an Almost
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Shouldn’t by languageintostillair
Fandoms: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
16 May 2020
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He’d said they can take it as slow as she likes.
Jaime had said that, two years after she’d left for Winterfell. Two years after she’d run to Winterfell, after she’d finally told him how she felt, after he’d told her no in response. Two months after she’d come back to King’s Landing. Days after she’d sent him that first text. If you don’t still need my sweater, do you think I could have it back?
Well. She has the sweater back. And Jaime—
He’d said they can take it slow.
It’s what they should be doing.
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- Part 5 of After an Almost
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Could by languageintostillair
Fandoms: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
04 Jun 2020
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“I’m a mess,” she sighs, though she knows how he’ll respond. You’re not. Don’t talk about yourself that way.
Instead, he laughs softly. “So am I.”
Maybe that’s true. There’s so much she knows of Jaime’s mess, so much she doesn’t. But she doesn’t want to dwell on their messes tonight. She just wants to hear the voice that she thought she would never hear again. That’s when she realises—it isn’t that she misses his voice after only two days. It’s that she’d told herself not to miss his voice in those two years and two months, and all of that missing she’d wanted to do had lain dormant in her throughout that time. Now it finally has somewhere to go.
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- Part 6 of After an Almost
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Won’t by languageintostillair
Fandoms: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
06 Jun 2020
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What is it that normal people do? How far do they go, and when? Perhaps she and Jaime are moving slow, glacially slow, by normal standards. But it doesn’t feel like it matters. They’re not normal people, and they don’t follow normal timelines. They haven’t, so far; why should that change now? In any case, there are so many good parts to what they have. Parts that feel safe, warm like the feeling of Jaime’s hand on her belly. Hells, they barely even argue—sure, they disagree, and they bicker, they’ve always done that, but they never argue. That’s good, isn’t it? They’re doing what feels right. Everything feels right.
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- Part 7 of After an Almost
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Can’t by languageintostillair
Fandoms: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
11 Jun 2020
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“What’s wrong with me?” she struggles to say. “I can’t—I don’t know how to—”
“There’s nothing wrong, I shouldn’t have—I’m the one that, that fucked up. I shouldn’t have said any of the things I said.”
That isn’t right. That isn’t the right thing to do. That’s exactly what they’ve been doing—not saying anything, not telling the truth, not facing it—and it was the wrong thing. They knew it was the wrong thing, and they still did it. It’s exactly what brought them to this point.
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- Part 8 of After an Almost
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Must by languageintostillair
Fandoms: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
27 Jun 2020
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“I’m definitely not opposed to spending the majority of our stay in this bed. I paid for late check-out and everything.”
He must have seen her stiffen, and avert her gaze—she’d done so before she could stop herself—because he follows that with a quiet, “We don’t have to.”
She takes a deep breath. “I want to. I want to try, at least.” They’d talked it through as best as they could—her mind is so clouded with fears and insecurities that she can’t say she feels even eighty percent ready—but she trusts Jaime, she feels safer than she’s ever felt with him, and they’d agreed they could stop at any point. She reaches for his hand and squeezes it, to stem the tide of anxious thoughts. Jaime. Jaime’s here. He won’t leave. “Later,” she says. “Tonight.”
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- Part 9 of After an Almost