Living Instead of Just Surviving
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Learning to Make Fire by stellahibernis
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
15 Oct 2016
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This Sunday Bucky leads Steve along the street to a direction that’s less familiar to him. Soon Steve stops consciously tracking their progress and just lets Bucky lead. There are people out, even if it’s still fairly early for a Sunday, and not for the first time Steve thinks Bucky fits in the way Steve never manages.
It’s not the kind of trained invisibility that the Winter Soldier had and Bucky still can do, because people do notice Bucky. It’s just that they register that he’s an attractive man to glance with appreciation as they pass. Bucky with his slim jeans and a scarf and scruff looks like a lot of other people here, and yet stands out, the same way he used to stand out at dance halls before the war.
People look at Steve too, but it’s not the same kind of easy appreciation. Steve doesn’t know what it is about him, if it’s just the fact that his face is so universally familiar, or if it’s something about how he moves and stands.
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About the difference between living and surviving, and looking at someone you've always known with fresh eyes only to find something you never even knew you were searching for.
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- Part 1 of Living Instead of Just Surviving
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Painfully and With Wonder by stellahibernis
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
29 Oct 2016
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Bucky starts to think about what other things he wants in life beyond work, starts to think what kind of a person he wants to be. On his commute from Brooklyn to the Tower to back again he keeps to his habit of looking at the people, but not only to assess threats. Instead, he keeps watching all the ways people live their lives, and starts to think how he wants to live now that he doesn’t have to make sure he’s just as effectively blended in as he can with one metal arm.
After he moves out Steve every once in a while asks about his renovating progress and if he needs help. Bucky always declines, because quite frankly Steve looks exhausted and if he has time away from work he should probably spend it sleeping. He always tells Steve he can manage, because he can and he does.
After a while Steve stops asking, and it is only then that Bucky realizes he should have taken Steve up on the offer. It would have eased Steve into coming over, and when it doesn’t happen from the start, Bucky doesn’t know how to ask him later.
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Bucky builds a good if not perfect life for himself, and settles into it. Then he ends up getting everything he never even dared to want.
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- Part 2 of Living Instead of Just Surviving