now i have no one to tell how i lost my best friend

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• my lover’s the sunlight (the awful things we do to make the head go quiet) by Therunningheart

  Fandoms: Lord of the Flies - William Golding, Lord of the Flies (2026)  

  • General Audiences
  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  14 Mar 2026

  Tags

  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
  • Major Character Death
  • Jack Merridew/Simon
  • Jack Merridew
  • Simon (Lord of the Flies)
  • Simon Cambourne
  • Roger (Lord of the Flies)
  • Maurice (Lord of the Flies)
  • The way thorne and co invented wholecloth a genuinely compelling jimon storyline
  • And gaycoded Jack and Simon
  • Title from a Hozier Song
  • Song: Take Me To Church (Hozier)
  • Song: To Someone From A Warm Climate (Uiscefhuarithe) (Hozier)
  • Song: Sedated (Hozier)
  • Song: Work Song (Hozier)
  • Song: In The Woods Somewhere (Hozier)
  • Jack’s blue eyeshadow and wedding veil/juliet cap are something else
  • you’re not friends. you’ll never be friends. you’ll be in love until it kills you both.
  • Song: Foreigner's God (Hozier)
  • Song: Paris (Taylor Swift)
  • Song: my tears ricochet (Taylor Swift)
  • Song: As It Was (Hozier)
  • Song: seven (Taylor Swift)
  • Song: Cosmic Love (Florence + the Machine)
  • Song: Shrike (Hozier)
  • Jack Merridew is Gay

  Summary

  you said i killed you - haunt me, then!

  Series

  • Part 1 of now i have no one to tell how i lost my best friend

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  651

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Kudos:

  50

  Bookmarks:

  1

  Hits:

  561

• called your name till the fever broke (another leg around you in the bed frame) by Therunningheart

  Fandoms: Lord of the Flies - William Golding, Lord of the Flies (TV 2026)  

  • General Audiences
  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  16 Mar 2026

  Tags

  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
  • Major Character Death
  • Jack Merridew/Simon
  • Jack Merridew
  • Simon (Lord of the Flies)
  • Grief
  • Song: Work Song (Hozier)
  • Song: To Someone From A Warm Climate (Uiscefhuarithe) (Hozier)
  • Song: In The Woods Somewhere (Hozier)
  • when you’ve lost the love of your life and your chance at heaven why not laugh like drains
  • Title from a Hozier Song
  • Jack Merridew is Gay

  Summary

  Jack dreams a good dream.

  Series

  • Part 2 of now i have no one to tell how i lost my best friend

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  324

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  1

  Kudos:

  40

  Bookmarks:

  1

  Hits:

  579

• i was born sick but i love it (the only heaven i’ll be sent to) by Therunningheart

  Fandoms: Lord of the Flies - William Golding, Lord of the Flies (TV 2026)  

  • Not Rated
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  22 May 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Jack Merridew/Simon
  • Jack Merridew
  • Simon (Lord of the Flies)
  • Rewatched worried warrior last night
  • Last Kiss
  • implied kissing
  • Religious Guilt
  • Song: Take Me To Church (Hozier)
  • Song: Work Song (Hozier)
  • Song: As It Was (Hozier)

  Summary

  On the boat back to civilisation, Jack relives that last real conversation.

  Series

  • Part 3 of now i have no one to tell how i lost my best friend

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  401

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Kudos:

  32

  Bookmarks:

  3

  Hits:

  268

• tell me if, somehow, some of it remains, how long you would wait for me - how long i’ve been away by Therunningheart

  Fandoms: Lord of the Flies - William Golding, Lord of the Flies (TV 2026)  

  • Not Rated
  • Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  22 May 2026

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • Jack Merridew/Simon
  • Jack Merridew
  • Simon (Lord of the Flies)
  • Song: Take Me To Church (Hozier)
  • Song: As It Was (Hozier)
  • Song: Dark Paradise (Lana Del Rey)

  Summary

  whatever here that’s left of me is yours just as it was

  Series

  • Part 4 of now i have no one to tell how i lost my best friend

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  288

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  1

  Kudos:

  14

  Bookmarks:

  1

  Hits:

  181