pick up these broken pieces 'til i'm bleeding
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i'm in pieces (it's tearing me up) by cosmicayan for lqvenderboy
Fandoms: Stray Kids (Band)
25 Sep 2026
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"Lix, what's going on?"
Felix hates that voice. It's too safe. Chan knows exactly what tone to use to make Felix feel comfortable and usually Felix appreciates it. Right now? He needs it to not be happening.
"Just—"
"I'm not leaving until you talk to me."
God, sometimes it is so frustrating how well Chan knows him. That he knows when Felix is going to argue so he stops it before the words even leave Felix's mouth. That he knows the difference between when Felix is refusing to talk and when he simply can't.
OR, the one where Felix pushes his regression down for far too long, and eventually something has to give.
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the pieces of me are pieces of you by cosmicayan for lqvenderboy
Fandoms: Stray Kids (Band)
21 Sep 2025
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It's not like Chan to lie, but... sometimes it's necessary.
He needs privacy. He has work to do, okay? So he has to tell Changbin and Jisung to not come by the studio for a few days — he's really struggling creatively right now, and he needs some time to get back into his own groove before he can work with anyone else. He has to tell Felix that he's just had a bunch of work dumped on him with a looming deadline — if Felix needs anything, to call, but otherwise Chan isn't going to be around as much for a few days.
He doesn't like to lie, but sometimes it's important. Sometimes, the outcome will be worth it.
or, it's 6 months of being Felix's caregiver, and Chan tries to do a little something to celebrate.
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i'll find a way to fix these broken pieces and let go by cosmicayan for lqvenderboy
Fandoms: Stray Kids (Band)
21 Oct 2026
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He sits there, hands shaking, adrenaline fizzling, as the shame creeps up his spine and burns his neck. The tears drying on his cheek are a chilling contrast, and all that is settling inside of him is nausea.
He failed, and it didn’t fix him for even a second.
He failed, and he hates himself, and the blood on his thighs makes him want to throw up, or cause more damage, or scream, or cry until he passes out, or be held.
Fuck, he wants to be held. He shoves his fist against his mouth and sobs, muffled, and he wants Chan, but he is a disgrace. He wants to be held, but he doesn’t want Chan to even look at him.
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Felix spirals, and hits rock bottom, and Chan tries to be there to pick up the pieces.
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