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    Michael was gone. That's all Gerry knew, he had to get over it. But when he comes back different than before Gerry finds he still loves this creature. Can a man love an Eldritch monster? Can an Eldritch monster handle the feeling of love?

    Aka the author writes a long enemies to lovers doorkeay fic with eventual smut to heal my yaoi urges. Rated E for eventual smut. I DO NOT GIVE MY PERMISSION TO FEED MY WRITING INTO AI. Title from Luvcat's "He's My Man".

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    22 Mar 2026

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    Michael Shelley is sacrificed to the Spiral before he has the chance to come out, even to himself. Now, as an avatar of the Spiral, his identity is even MORE painful and confusing. Alone and filled with pain he doesn't even know how to name, he searches for acceptance in the one person who ever really knew him-Gerry Keay.
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    “What do you want to be called then,” Gerry says and wraps his arms around Michael’s back.
    This conversation hurts. This question hurts. Everything hurts, so long as no one knows about his gender, so long as he has to go on being someone he’s not, someone he just can’t be anymore. He doesn’t know how much longer he can stand it.
    “I dunnooooo,” he says, grinning, but inside he knows his name isn’t Michael. It’s just not. He doesn’t have a name. He never has. And it’s absence is like a hole in his chest.
    The creature that might as well be called Michael, it supposes, if you have to call it anything, thinks about this conversation while it sits on the ceiling of its hallway and slowly digs grooves into the plaster with its fingers.
    Gerry, it thinks desperately. I have to find Gerry.

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    21 Mar 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 14

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    woke up one day and asked myself "is it possible to make doorkeay completely canon compliant?" and then wrote thousands of words to prove it . flavoured with yearning & an unhappy ending . enjoy!

    title from "something's wrong with the morning" by margo guryan

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    21 Mar 2026

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    “I’m surprised Aizawa-kun lets you scent-mark him like that.”

    Hizashi turns to blink at Yagi.

    “I hadn’t really thought about it like that,” Hizashi says with an awkward laugh. “I’m just a tactile person, I guess.”

    “I didn’t mean anything bad by it,” Yagi adds quickly. “I was just caught a little off guard because Aizawa-kun is normally so territorial. You two must be very close, for Aizawa-kun to not be bothered by your scent.”

    “Yeah, I guess,” Hizashi replies.

    (Note: Re-upload of a very old fic that I deleted a few years back. Has some minor edits.)

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    25 Aug 2025

  5. Rec 10

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    i can't summarise fics well .. you can read the tags. its freaky gay vampire shenanigans, you know the deal. enjoy!

    title from 'not allowed' by tv girl

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    20 Aug 2025