Lighting_and_Shadow
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La Douleur Exquise by Lighting_and_Shadow
Fandoms: 恋与深空 | Love and Deepspace (Video Game)
25 Dec 2025
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Your entire life has been your twin sister. You work with her, you live with her, and people are only in your life because they want her. You have no real identity. So when you develop Hanahaki for one of the various people that have entered your life for her sake, you keep it quiet. Until said man, Sylus Qin, finds out.
So, you come up with a plan—he can "help" you get better (despite you knowing that you'll never get the surgery and Sylus can never love you) as long as he keeps this all hidden from your sister. He agrees. And while he searches for a remedy, for something to ease your suffering, you fall deeper and die faster. It's a bit funny to you, like your life is some black comedy—the one person who knows the truth about you and wants to help you is the very cause of your demise.
All the while, you wish from the bottom of your heart that Josephine just let you die in Ever. It's what she wanted. It's what you want. It's what's best for everyone. Yet, you continue to outlive her like the parasite you are because Sylus refuses to let death take you. His determination would be sweet if it wasn't killing you faster.
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- Part 1 of Hanahaki Disease Fics
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When he begins to lean in, your heart pounds and your stomach flutters. It's a thumping bass that drowns out all other conversations and music around you. All you can hear is your heart. All you can smell is his cologne.
All you can see is him.
Warmth flutters and circulates through your body. A warm that whispers comfort and safety. A warmth that draws you into Sylus just as he draws into you.
This warmth calls to you. Beckons you. It smothers all the guilt, denial, and determination to stay the course.
It says, kiss him, kiss him.
“Don’t you know by now that I adore you?” He mutters into your ear.
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You’re desperately in love with a man who already belongs to another.
All you’ve ever wanted was to love and be loved. But as the only person to ever be born without a soulmate, you know nothing about what that really means.
The universe itself cursed you to never know the deepest and truest love there is for a reason. Because you're unworthy. And you should’ve known your poor attempts to pretend to know what it means to be whole wouldn't last. After all, everyone will always choose truth over your lies. Why should Sylus be any different?
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- Part 1 of Ikigai Universe
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Newly married Sylus braids you, his wife's, hair.
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Hanahaki Disease Fics by Lighting_and_Shadow
Fandom 恋与深空 | Love and Deepspace (Video Game)
25 Dec 2025
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Just my collection of Hanahaki Fics in LADS (I got one request on Tumblr, and now I'm obsessed)
- Words:
- 32,405
- Works:
- 1
- Bookmarks:
- 2
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You're deseparately in love with a man who already belongs to another. But somehow, someway, you're finally able to have him after some trials and tribulations. The two of you are in love, and learning to heal alongside one another. Unfortunately, the past isn't easy to escape from and the future is muddled by a god playing with your life.
- Words:
- 137,505
- Works:
- 1
- Bookmarks:
- 11