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   If This Is It... by S_D_Blackthorn

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Heated Rivalry (Book), The Long Game (Book)  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   15 Apr 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Hayden Pike
   • Jackie Pike
   • Wyatt Hayes
   • Yuna Hollander
   • David Hollander
   • Sidney Crosby
   • Brad Marchand
   • Long Game Era
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Angst
   • Emotional devestation
   • Hurt/No Comfort (yet)
   • Temporary Character Death Scare
   • No Major Character Death
   • Mixed Media Format
   • Social Media
   • Text Messages
   • Instagram Direct Messages
   • Public Meltdown
   • Accidental Coming Out
   • Hockey Twitter
   • panic spiral
   • Emotional Regret
   • Last words
   • Cliffhanger
   • Author Has Chosen Violence
   • Sidney Crosby Sorta Real Life
   • NHL/MHL Player Mashup
   • Angst with a Happy Ending

   Summary

   When a petty morning argument is the last thing Ilya says to Shane before he boards the Montreal Metros’ team plane, he thinks the worst consequence will be a bruised ego and an awkward apology.

   Instead, the aircraft declares an emergency.

   As social media explodes, the hockey world halts, and Shane’s Instagram messages turn from apologies to goodbyes, Ilya is forced to confront the one truth he’s been hiding longer than his feelings:

   Shane Hollander is his. And he may have just lost him.

   A mixed-media, Long Game–era angst spiral featuring breaking news alerts, trending fan edits, locker room confessions, and the most devastating Instagram DM thread you will ever read.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   83,548

   Chapters:

   24/30

   Comments:

   2,099

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   02 Apr 2026