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   How a Russian Takes his Porridge by lavagirlultra

   Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   05 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Irina Rozanova (mentioned) - Character
   • Alexei Rozanov | Andrei Rozanov (mentioned)
   • Grigori Rozanov (mentioned)
   • Canon Compliant
   • Kinda
   • Depression
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Irina Rozanova Haunts the Narrative
   • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • not AI in the slightest author just loves her em dashes
   • bad metaphors
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Worried Shane Hollander
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Ilya Rozanov-centric
   • Married Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

   Summary

   Ilya's supposed to tell Shane when he's getting bad again. He's promised, over and over, to ask for help. To reach out. To let Shane take care of him for once.

   Ilya genuinely means it when he makes this promise. He has no intention of breaking it.

   The issue is this: Ilya doesn't always realize things are getting bad. Actually, he almost never notices until someone else does.

   or:

   In the midst of a depressive episode, Ilya wonders if Shane truly understands what he's signing up for.

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