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what he built by sadnaps
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tian Guan Ci Fu | Heaven Official's Blessing - Moxiang Tongxiu
19 Jun 2026
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Xie Lian remembered that there had been a time where rules felt like cliffs.
A time when every misstep seemed to confirm that fate was waiting for him to fail again and again. He had learned to move carefully then, to weigh every action against consequence, to measure compassion against catastrophe.
Fear had settled into his bones so thoroughly that even small choices had begun to feel dangerous.
Hua Cheng dismantled that fear piece by piece.
For years, his husband had encouraged every impulse, every reckless kindness, every softhearted detour that caught Xie Lian’s attention. If Xie Lian wanted to rebuild a ruined hut in the middle of the night, Hua Cheng brought lanterns and timber. If he wanted to cross a mountain to deliver a single lucky talisman, Hua Cheng walked beside him with amused devotion.
Rules had always existed, of course but Hua Cheng simply regarded them as suggestions.
or: Xie Lian ascends as a deity of motherhood and children- and dealing with heaven isn't so bad when you have a ghost king for a husband, and a god for a son.
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- Part 5 of all that is lost
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24 Sep 2026
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all that is lost will be held again by sadnaps
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tian Guan Ci Fu | Heaven Official's Blessing - Moxiang Tongxiu
12 Dec 2025
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After his second banishment, Xie Lian is taken captive by the royal family of Yong’an. Immortal and unaging, he becomes their divine possession- a prize passed from king to king as a symbol of Yong’an’s might and proof of Heaven’s favour.
He endures decades of control and humiliation, until the birth of a child changes everything. Lang Qianqiu- son of Yong'an's queen, but Xie Lian’s by blood- grows up beneath the shadow of secrets, lies, and stolen names.
Or: Xie Lian is Lang Qianqiu’s mother, but no one knows it, and he gets buried anyway.
OR: If you are brave enough to make it through 8 chapters of extreme angst and trauma you will be rewarded with truly egregious amounts of fluff, filthy sex and many happy hualian babies.)
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- Part 1 of all that is lost
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22 Sep 2026
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“Have you frightened them all away?” he whispers to the okuri-okami, lowering his bow and letting its knocked arrow point to the earth. Ominously, the dark centers of the wolf's pale eyes roll up to meet his stare. “Only you are allowed to eat me? Is that it?”
It gives no answer, of course. Suguru smiles, nevertheless grateful for the company—for no other ghastly, beastly resident of these woods would dare interlope on the okuri-okami’s marked hunt and steal its prey.
Which is Suguru, apparently.
While fleeing the Zen’in clan, Suguru takes up shelter in the shadow of an abandoned shrine, deep within forests said to crawl with all manner of monster. Soon enough, he finds himself with a strange, nightly companion: a great white wolf as liable to devour him as protect him.
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20 Sep 2026
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Xie Lian and Hua Cheng managing to survive the long-distance relationship due to the current situation, the quarantine can't stop them from loving each other. They find ways to ease the longing, video calls, texting... in the middle of all this Xie Lian discovers that Hua Cheng is keeping something from him and receives a surprise just as he reaches the peak of his curiosity.
Modern AU, HC and gege be dating - brief mentioning of beefleaf.
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13 Sep 2026
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feel it so, fear it though by Jie (mamakashi)
Fandoms: 将进酒 - 唐酒卿 | Qiāng Jìn Jiǔ - Táng Jiǔ Qīng
19 Jul 2022
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Shen Lanzhou and Xiao Chiye just getting to be teenage boys, growing up.
Or, Shen Lanzhou’s sexual awakening.
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06 Sep 2026