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After settling into your seat, you turn and stare out the window. When the plane lifts off from the ground, you crack and shatter all over again, split in half by the awful juxtaposition churning in your heart. Yearning grief. You long to see Shauna. It rocks you with its intensity. Yet, you mourn for Jackie, and the sadness slides through you like syrup, heavy and sticky and slow.
Surrounded by bloody luxury, you start to cry again.
AKA: A look at Shauna's life, post-rescue, told from the point of view of her mother.
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23 Dec 2025
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Jackie likes to remind her that she's not gay. Always right before they do something that Shauna considers to be kinda gay.
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What if these two hook up when they drink and then don't talk about it after?
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- Part 1 of behind closed doors lay open arms
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14 Dec 2025
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Dean takes a really, really long drive to kick fear in the ass. It might just be the best thing he ever decides to do.
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The seat squeaks, and Dean follows the sound, his gaze trailing down. There—where Jack sat moments ago—is a much tinier version of him. He looks mostly the same, just...smaller and more dimply and cuter, if that's possible. His clothes have shrunk to fit him, so he's casually sitting in a t-shirt, jeans, and scuffed tennis shoes. He swings his feet from side-to-side over the edge of Baby's seat the same way Sam used to in the back, and he stares up at Dean with clear eyes.
"Oh," Dean blurts out, eyes bulging, "Cas is going to fucking kill me."
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02 Nov 2025
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Getting used to Heaven is something of a marvel. It ain't perfect, and Dean thinks he'd hate it if it was, which is probably why it isn't.
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"You don't understand," Dean whispers, exhaling shakily. "I know you don't, because even I don't. The instant you were gone, I wanted you back. Cas, I wanted you back. I wanted—I wanted—"
Cas stares at him, searching his face. After a moment, his own face falls slack, eyes widening just so. "Oh," he breathes out.
Dean wants to be furious that Cas has figured it out before he has—whatever it is—but he's not even that surprised. Cas knows him too well, always has, even more than Dean knows himself. He's been kicking Dean in the goddamn teeth with how deeply he understands him, even about the things Dean doesn't, ever since they first met. You don't think you deserve to be saved, that's what Cas had said. All bundled up in impossibilities and power, this being that looked at Dean Winchester and knew every single inch of him, as if he had a right to each part.
"What?" Dean grits out.
"I love you, too."
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