beggar_always

i am a beggar always



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    Ilya Rozanov has a "tiny car accident" (his words). Shane Hollander has a full-scale, system-shutdown panic attack about it. Meanwhile, a horrified Hayden is praying for someone to throw him in a lake and tell him that this is all just a big joke, or maybe for a meteor strike; he is really not picky. J.J., on the other hand, is trying to bleach the image of his sweet captain making out with Ilya fucking Rozanov from his brain.

    It's a very normal day for the Montreal Canadiens.

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    By aerye

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    Jensen's relationship with Cougar has always been seen as a little odd. They're closer than most best friends would claim to be — the term "co-dependent" has been used more than once — but, despite what most people seem to think, there are still lines even they haven't crossed. And, in hindsight, it becomes clear that, just maybe, the main reason for that is a subconscious, deeply rooted sense of self-preservation.

    Because when they finally do cross one of those lines, things begin to unravel fast. Sleeping in the same bed as Cougar — in a completely platonic and wholly innocent capacity — might not seem all that dangerous, but it doesn't take long before Jensen realizes his mistake.

    Because, suddenly, he knows what it's like to fall asleep to the sounds of Cougar's heartbeats and wake to the brush of Cougar's bare skin against his own. And how safe he feels, wrapped up in Cougar's arms. How right it feels.

    And that, right there, has the potential to ruin everything.

    Because, unsurprisingly, Jensen wants more — but he has no idea if Cougar feels the same.

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    They’re doing everything perfectly. But, of course, it still goes wrong. Classic.

    Or: Buck can't catch a break, but at least the whole squad is here with him.

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    As the wave recedes, Buck staggers through knee-deep water searching for Christopher.
    Across town, Eddie helps the 118 with search and rescue, and tries to convince himself that his son and the love of his life his best friend are perfectly safe.

     

    Buck makes a phone call. Eddie answers.

    (What would have happened if Buck had called Eddie instead of Maddie once he reached the field hospital, post-tsunami.)

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