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“I'm not in love with you.” There’s a jolt in Eddie’s stomach at that. “I’m not secretly pining for you, or anything like that. I don’t even see you that way.”
“Oh,” Eddie says, then forces out a laugh he hopes sounds casual. Buck’s eyes are wide, honest, like he’s desperate for Eddie to be reassured by this admission, to believe him. And how much clearer could he be? He’s not in love with Eddie. That’s fine. Eddie never expected him to be. His now empty beer bottle hits the counter too loudly, “No, of course not.”
Or: Buck reassures Eddie that he's not in love with him. Eddie feels some type of way about that.
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08 Jan 2026
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After Christopher comes back from Texas, Eddie makes an important decision: he is not going to blow up his life anymore. He will not be making mistakes, he will not be screwing up, he will not be having emotional affairs with the doppelgänger of his dead wife. He is going to be logical. Make good decisions. Use the strategies he’s learned in therapy even though he’s complained to Frank a million times that breathing exercises only piss him off more. Still, he’ll do them, because he is a logical, rational person. Or, at least, he is from now on.
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19 Dec 2025
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“Did you adopt a cat?” Shane asked, before he could get distracted.
“No.” Rozanov gave him a look. “I gave you a concussion this afternoon?”
“There’s a kitten outside.” Shane nudged his shoes off. “It followed me into the elevator.”
Rozanov’s eyebrows flew up, and he dashed to the door. The kitten was still there, and Rozanov scooped it up with one hand, cradling it to his chest. The kitten looked as alarmed as Shane felt.
“So you did get a cat,” he said.
“No, Hollander. This is not mine,” Rozanov said, waving the kitten at him.
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15 Dec 2025
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Buck tries to commit the frame to memory, wills himself not to forget the important details—Eddie on his knees in front of him, his nails seeking purchase along Buck's thighs as he drinks him down, his drawn-out gasps when Buck returns the favor.
After, when Buck reaches out for quiet confirmation in the dark, asks him, "Good?"
Eddie tells him, earnest and hard-won, "Everything is good with you," and Buck can bask in the illusion of a world where he almost believes it.
Buck is trying to leave the past where it belongs. Then he wins an all-expenses-paid trip to Italy, convinces Eddie to join him, and falls headfirst into (not so) casual sex with his best friend.
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26 Nov 2025
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Eddie tries to peek out the windows to see what's out there as he approaches the door, but Buck moves to obstruct his view. "Hey, uh. So. I found … uh, this piece of furniture, on Marketplace. And if you hate it, it's fine. No biggie! I just … it was such a good deal!"
They don't need more furniture. In fact, they actively need less, so Buck wouldn't buy something new without a really good reason.
"Okay, Buck, I trust you. What did you get?"
"It's … I guess, I mean, um. Well, I think you should just come see." Buck turns around before Eddie can reply and heads out the front door.
Eddie stays hot on his heels for barely even one square of sidewalk, stopping in his tracks when he sees the bright red metal frame that's strapped down in Buck's truck bed. It's upright, so Eddie has a clear view of what Buck picked up for them.
It's bunk beds.
Buck and Eddie try to process their grief about Bobby's death and figure out what they mean to each other, all while squeezed into Eddie's two-bedroom house.
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20 Oct 2025