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   I'll wait a thousand years (just to see you smile again) by GeekLibrarian

   Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)  

   • Teen And Up Audiences
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   18 May 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Dan Howell/Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell & Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell
   • Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell's Family
   • Phil Lester's Family
   • Angst
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • Violence
   • Domestic Violence
   • Non-Graphic Violence
   • Threats of Violence
   • Homophobia
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Homophobic Language
   • Break Up
   • Mental Breakdown
   • Self-Harm
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Suicide
   • Character Death
   • Substance Abuse
   • Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
   • Alcohol
   • Swearing
   • Fights
   • Depression
   • References to Depression
   • Anxiety
   • Anxiety Attacks
   • Mental Health Issues
   • But also
   • Fluff
   • happiness
   • Phil Lester is a Ray of Sunshine
   • Phil Lester Needs a Hug
   • Dan Howell Needs A Hug
   • Dan and Phil love each other
   • Dan Howell Loves Phil Lester
   • Phil Lester Loves Dan Howell
   • Overcoming fears
   • Healing
   • Personal Growth
   • Established Relationship
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Time Travel
   • no beta reading we die multiple times
   • Time Loop
   • Past Lives Memories

   Summary

   "I want to redo my meeting with Miss Kaname. But this time, instead of her protecting me, I want to become strong enough to protect her." - Homura Akemi, Puella Magi Madoka Magica

   “Love is our resistance. They'll keep us apart and they won't stop breaking us down” - Resistance, by Muse.

   “You heard him—true love is what he wants to come back for. That's certainly worthwhile.” - Inigo Montoya, The Princess Bride.

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   Dan Howell has no idea how many times he has awakened in the same bed, the same day. He just knows 19th October 2009 is the first moment pinpointed in his timeline, and he has been systematically failing to find the second one.
   He also knows that whatever it is, he has to do it with Phil Lester. And that Phil is the only reason he keeps trying to break through.

   Or: A tale about true love, resilience, determination and kindness, and how Dan is willing to relive his most traumatic experiences just to see Phil smile.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   13,739

   Chapters:

   6/10

   Comments:

   38

   Kudos:

   74

   Bookmarks:

   4

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   Bookmarked by definitely_not_Satan

   27 Feb 2026