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    Hockey Is A Dangerous Game by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    14 Apr 2026

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    Shane trusted Ilya to catch the things he didn’t.

    Maybe he became too reliant on that, and that's how he let things get this bad.

    OR

    Ilya Rozanov has a problem with self-harm, and Shane is slowly finding that out.

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    15 May 2026

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    Sound of sirens, rush of pain (I almost thought I heard you call my name) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    26 Dec 2025

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    "He imagined Shane would be similarly unforgiving if Ilya took his own
    life. Not that Ilya ever would. Unless he couldn’t help it." (The Long Game)

    or,

    Two years after being diagnosed with depression, Ilya wants to commit suicide.

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    03 May 2026

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    Back to You by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    09 Mar 2026

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    “I’m fine,” Ilya insisted weakly, though his voice lacked conviction.

    “You are bleeding all over our bathroom floor,” Shane said, his throat tight with fear. “You are not fine.”

    Ilya tried to laugh.

    The sound came out thin and uneven.

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    03 May 2026

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    you know this moment, don’t you? (time is strangely calm now) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    25 Dec 2025

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    It’s dark, and Ilya’s not quite sure where he is.

    His entire body is numb. His shoes are soaking wet from trudging lazily through the snow. His nose is running, and his lips are chapped.

    Selfishly, he wishes Shane would fuss over him now. Pull him close, whisper “I forgive you” even though he shouldn’t, because Ilya would never change, because something inside him- in his family line, in his soul- was broken.

    Ilya wondered how long ago it had clicked- when Shane had realized that Ilya wormed his way into this country and tricked the Hollanders into caring for him, then returned the favor by botching their language and leaving a trail of mess in his wake. He still can't help but wonder if that will be part of his punishment- being doomed to miss him in death, too.

     

    or: Ilya’s mostly been able to cope with the fact that he’ll never be able to articulate himself fully in this country- but he’s also never been good at talking about feelings in the first place.

    "I'm tired" is the best he's got. It definitely doesn't capture what's going on in his head, and Shane can't read minds.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    tastes like strawberry (tastes like you) by

    Fandoms: Men's Hockey RPF  

    17 Dec 2025

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    3 times Will shared his Chapstick with Macklin, and the 1 time they shared it with each other.

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    28 Apr 2026