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“How did you get home from the hospital?”
“Took an uber.”
“Does Maddie know?” Silence. “Does anyone?” More silence. More of Buck refusing to meet his gaze, staring at the door like he thought he could entice Eddie to leave by the power of suggestion. Well, good fucking luck, Eddie thought. Wild horses, and all that. “Why didn’t you call anyone?” he demanded. “Why didn’t you call me?”
“I did!” Buck snarled. The momentum of his indignation carried him into a sitting position, and Eddie could see him flinch with the pain of it. His unnaturally stoic front was gone, and something raw and wrenching took its place; it occurred to Eddie that he’d never heard Buck raise his voice before. “I did call you, Eddie! As I was bleeding out on my kitchen floor. You. Didn’t. Answer.”
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The squatter in Buck's attic has a knife. Buck has a bit of a breakdown. Eddie has a plan to make everything right.
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30 Nov 2025
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“Can you get it out of your reach? Or leave the room?”
And the thing is, he should be able to. It’d be so easy. It should be so easy. But a part of his mind knows if he makes any movement, it’ll end with him picking it up and drawing blood. So he shakes his head.
“Buck.” Oh right, Eddie can’t see him.
“I– I don’t think..” It breaks off in a sob and he doesn’t even try to finish the thought.
“Okay, Buck. It’s okay. Just stay with me, focus on my voice.”
“Eddie.” It comes out as a plea, though he’s not exactly sure what he is asking for.
“I know, baby, I know. I’m almost there.”
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or, Buck reaches out to Eddie for help when he’s about to relapse.
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- Part 2 of buck mental health
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14 Nov 2025
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Taylor broke up with him a month ago and he hadn’t told anyone, not because it was a secret, but because he hadn’t gotten the chance to talk to them. It reminded him so strongly of the time after the bombing that he wanted to cry. How easily forgettable he was.
Apparently punchable, as well. He’d been punched before; it came with the job as a bartender or when he tried out for Navy SEALS. Even his dad had gotten in a few good ones when he disobeyed to get their attention. None of the people who punched him mattered. Not like Chimney did. His brother, someone he loved.
But maybe Buck’s love just wasn’t enough. Not to stop people from leaving or from wanting him gone.OR: Buck is badly hurt when the flor of a building caves in. Eddie talks to him through dispatch and Chim finally apologies.
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09 Nov 2025
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During the fight in the grocery store, Buck finally gives in. Why is he fighting so hard to stay when it's so clear no one wants him to?
But if there's one thing Buck has always been bad at, it's dying.
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After a failed suicide attempt, Buck finally has to confront all the things that led him to the bridge. So does everyone else.
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09 Nov 2025
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how do we forgive ourselves for all the things we did not become? by rainny_days
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
26 Dec 2025
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After the shitshow that’s been his life for the past few months, Eddie decides that the best way to move forward is to outsource his life decisions to Buck - after all, Buck has always known how to manage Eddie’s life better than Eddie could. And if it prevents Buck from moving out, then all the better.
Buck is trying to find a new apartment before he gets too comfortable in the Diaz home, but Eddie keeps asking him for things he wants too much to say no to. All he wants is to not hurt anyone, but Eddie seems to be determined to make that impossible.
All the while, there’s Christopher, the firehouse, and the love of it all.
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09 Nov 2025