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“Have you considered the possibility that Neil has chosen you, but believes you have not chosen him?” Renee says. "Have you ever explicitly told him what you want?”
“Neil knows what I want,” Andrew snaps. This is not Andrew’s fault.
“How do you know?”
Because Neil always knows. He is as fluent in Andrew’s micro-expressions as he is in German and French. He knows which head tilts mean “go on” and which ones mean “shut up.” Without ever asking, he learned what it meant to see Andrew wearing double layers of long sleeves, or taking multiple showers in a day, and learned to hand Andrew the car keys.
That has always been the most terrifying thing about Neil — his patience to wait, watch, listen, learn. The prospect that if Neil were given enough time, there would be no part of Andrew that was just Andrew’s anymore.
“He has to know,” Andrew says.
“Does he?” Renee says. “Have you ever known Neil to assume that he is wanted?”
Five times Neil tells someone that he and Andrew aren’t dating, and one time Andrew uses his words to set the record straight.
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just because it's unexpected doesn't make it bad by nightquills for fxvixen
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
17 Dec 2018
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By the time Nicky navigates his way back to the locker rooms, he’s sure that enough time has passed for them to have emptied out completely.
It comes as a surprise, then, when he walks in and is greeted by the sight of Andrew sitting on one of the benches, a freshly showered Neil standing in front of him and seemingly… Helping him out of his gear?
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- Part 2 of the world goes on
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18 Sep 2026
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“Take his helmet off” Aaron instructs, when Andrew clearly isn’t responding. Neil hesitates. Part of him knows he has to, that its a necessary evil. The other part of him doesn’t want to do it without knowing that Andrew is cognizant enough to recognise Neil’s touch. He shucks off his gloves and unsnaps his wrist-guards first, careful to unclip Andrew’s helmet with a delicacy not often afforded on the court and slips it off slowly enough that he feels it right in his chest when Andrew’s head lolls back against the cold floor. “Someone get his jersey out of the way, the bastard got him in the stomach”
“No” Neil snarls, not recognising his own voice.
Aaron reaches forward and Neil smacks his arm away. “Josten, will you fucking-”
“Neil”
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- Part 2 of becoming neil josten
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18 Sep 2026
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She really doesn’t look like a threat; as unassuming as her husband and sporting a kindly face, but the threat lingers, of letting Naim off with a stranger, of that stranger potentially leaving him alone anyway, of Naim getting hurt. They are both 18 now; no one can call the cops to take them away back to Bandee, so he supposes he should take comfort in that. Ryan is just so loath to leave him. Naim’s too trusting, too sweet, despite being burned again and again and again by adults acting in bad faith. They separate without touching, an unfamiliar sensation that sits under Ryan’s skin and buzzes with wrongness like flies in a trap.
Ryan hopes their house is warm. Naim gets cold so easily.
Naim falls ill. Ryan has to leave him with a stranger and go to work anyway.
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- Part 5 of All that's holy
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15 Sep 2026
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Andrew has a nightmare about losing Neil, so Neil spends the rest of the night in Andrew's bed. The next morning, no one can find Neil and Andrew is no help.
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