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  1. Public Bookmark 46

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    “Four months without a chance to fuck you. It is killing me.”

    “What if…” Shane says. “I have an idea of something that could help. Since I don’t want you to die.”

    Ilya grins wider than he means to. He catches it in his tiny frame on the corner of the screen, then fights the urge to cover his mouth like a little girl at his archrival - who he fucks regularly, and thinks about almost constantly - simply admitting he prefers him alive.

    “What, you coming here? You have early game. Three hours to fly to and from Boston in the middle of the night, I don’t think it will work.”

    “No. Remember in Nashville, when I told you I, um, have a thing?”

    “More specific, Hollander.”

    “I could use it. I could…pretend it’s you.”

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    Several months after winning MVP in Las Vegas, Ilya fights constantly to keep Shane Hollander out of his mind. After leaving a failed first date, unsatisfied, he finally finds out what color Shane’s “thing” is.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    Ilya suggests to Shane that he would be okay with Shane sleeping with other men if he wanted.
    Shane is not happy about it.
    They argue, there's silence, and then the realization of just how far they’ve come.

    or: an expanded (imagined) scene inspired by a brief mention in The Long Game, when Ilya speaks to his therapist about his relationship with Shane and thinks back to this argument after she asks whether they’re in a monogamous relationship.

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    26 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 86

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    But yes—Jane. Whoever they are, Svetlana knows her Ilyusha is in love. It breaks her heart a little bit. Maybe once she had loved him enough to marry him for love instead of convenience, but that is not the way she loves him now. Now, she loves him enough that the idea of this Jane breaking Ilya’s heart breaks hers too.

    And this is why Svetlana is his best friend: because she knows, wholeheartedly, that there is a heart to be broken. That Ilya is not a cocky, womanizing asshole (all of the time), and that he does not trust or love easily. He does casual very well because he knows he is too serious when it comes to love. Ilya is very good at not letting himself get attached, so for Jane to have stayed around for so long—she knows that he is in love.

    or, svetlana does not so much find out but rather figures it out herself.

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    26 Jan 2026

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    He drives to the airport with an unshakeable urge to pull over and turn around. He smokes four cigarettes in a row before he boards the plane, then chews an entire pack of gum on the flight to try and cover the worst of the smell.

    He exits the airport half-hoping that Shane has chickened out of the whole thing. Then he spots him, tapping his fingers against the steering wheel in the most boring suburban dad car Ilya has ever had the misfortune of laying his eyes on, and he’s so happy to see him that his legs feel unsteady beneath his weight.

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    Or, the cottage, Ilya's version: an extended ep 6 featuring my take on what happened in the gaps we didn't see.

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    23 Jan 2026

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    Ilya calls Shane "boring". It's a joke, it has been for years. One night, alone in bed while his husband is out partying, Shane wonders if it could be more than that.

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    22 Jan 2026