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   restless by overwhelmedbysonder

   Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)  

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   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   06 Jan 2018

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   • Dan Howell/Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell & Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell
   • Phil Lester
   • Phil Lester's Mother
   • Louise Pentland
   • Chris Kendall
   • PJ Liguori
   • Carrie Fletcher
   • Martyn Lester
   • Original Characters
   • Recovery
   • Slow Burn
   • Slow Build
   • Hospitals
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Mental Institutions
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Depression
   • Muteness
   • Mute Phil
   • Artist Dan
   • An insane amount of storytelling
   • like so much story telling
   • Sad Phil
   • Quiet Phil
   • Panic Attacks
   • Protective Dan
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Sad Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell/Phil Lester Comfort

   Summary

   Breathe. Just breathe.

   In. Out. In. Out. In.

   It’s not that I don’t try. I see my family, my friends, visiting with their faked smiles and forced laughter, desperately trying to pretend that things are fine, that nothing’s changed. I see them and I want to reach out, I want to look at them and smile and reassure them that I’m here and I’m fine and I’m here, but I can’t, I can’t, I can’t, I can’t.

   Or, the one where Phil struggles with depression, PTSD and being mute, and Dan just wants to hug him.

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