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Distantly, as though he’s talking to Billy from another room, Steve says, “Are you crying?”
“Fuck off,” he says pathetically. “It’s my—it’s my—I get fucking allergies.”
He scrubs his fists over his eyes; he can’t look Steve in the face, he can’t cry.
“It’s okay to cry,” Steve says; Billy can hear him take a step closer. Can hear him breathing, wet, ragged breaths that are just audible over the whine of cicadas in the trees. “I cry all the time.”
Billy makes a disparaging noise. Sinking to his knees, curling his spine into the shape of a clenched fist; seeking the shade of the cars, retreating in fear of the light, the sound. He doesn’t want to hurt Steve, but he will if Steve forces him to. He’ll have to. It’s the only way he can get through this.
“No, really,” Steve’s voice says. “It’s okay, Billy.”
It’s not, Billy thinks, eyes still closed. It won’t ever be okay. It’s wrong. I’m wrong.
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11 Feb 2026
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Shane finds getting himself off boring.
At least, he used to. Before Ilya Rozanov got involved.
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virtue theory by gone_girl
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Jan 2026
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When Shane thought back on his life, he could not identify a serious misstep. Nothing should be wrong with him. He'd done everything exactly how he was supposed to.
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02 Feb 2026
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insanely fucking painful look at self recrimination that was so visceral it was almost impossible to see the sex as erotic. writing rec for sure, jesus
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It had been a very weird day, but Shane wasn’t going to jerk off about it a second time.
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01 Feb 2026
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never will i ever not love and read writing about the miserable trap of being closeted to yourself and the revelation of getting out of it
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"Stop asking me if it's okay. If I want it. You're always, like—whatever. I'm not one of your fucking girls, okay? If I don't like it, I'll stop you. I can make you stop."
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26 Jan 2026