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Buck wasn't exactly the poster boy for good mental health before Bobby died. After his argument with Eddie, he spirals further and in a way that no one is used to. Quietly.
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11 Aug 2025
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Buck doesn't want to make other people's problems and trauma about him. But he is involved on some level. And it would be nice if just once in a while people dug a little deeper and checked on how he's doing.
Only the more things change, the less that happens. Promises are broken, and it all makes Buck doubt himself and his place. Is he really anything more than a placeholder in people's lives?
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25 May 2025
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there it is again, sitting on my chest (makes it hard to catch my breath) by Elgney
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
24 Mar 2025
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“I just—I don’t want you to be alone,” said Eddie, softly, like an admission.
Join the fucking club, Buck thought. It was funny, but none of his laughs were coming out right tonight. “I am alone, Eddie.”
“Buck, I—”
“She wants my kidney.” There it went; Buck never could keep anything inside. Could never keep the feelings contained, could never stop them from spilling out over the people nearest him. “That’s what fucking happened, okay? My dad needs a kidney donor and they remembered why they bothered having me in the first place. Is that what you wanted to hear? That my parents finally found a use for me after all these years?”
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A request from his mom tears open old wounds for Buck. From 800 miles away, Eddie tries to stitch him back together.
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25 Mar 2025
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Really, this was bound to happen eventually. Even knowing that, though, Tony isn't at all prepared.
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- Part 6 of Best (Worst) Possible Time
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19 Jan 2025
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Buck looks at Eddie, for the first time in eight years. The changes in his face aren’t as drastic as they were for Chris – Eddie didn’t have puberty to get through. But his age shows, in the crows feet around his eyes and the slight frown lines. Before he left, Eddie was still in shape for working in the LAFD. Eddie looks – softer. Buck has no doubt he’s kept up with his fitness, but being CPAT-ready is a different deal.
And despite himself – Buck thinks Eddie looks good. It’s like a pang in his chest, when he finally lets himself acknowledge it. Eddie is older but just as handsome, even though he looks as awkward as Buck feels. His traitorous heart does a little flip, like there’s a chance of anything happening.
or: Buck hasn’t seen Christopher Diaz in eight years – not since his dad moved back to El Paso, breaking Buck’s heart in the process. He’s surprised Christopher wants anything to do with him when he moves back to Los Angeles for college, but Christopher is adamant on reconnecting. But with Christopher comes Eddie, and Buck has to contend with the fact that he never got over him.
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02 Jan 2025