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“I'm gay.”
He's looking at his feet, because he hasn't quite come to terms with the fact that he's saying this in a room where other people, strangers, can hear it.
But this is still the first time he's said it this way: out loud, in a declarative sentence. Being nervous is fine. Frank said that being nervous is fine, and Buck just said he's proud, and the only thought Eddie has in his head is that it's embarrassing he can't raise his head and say it like a man, so clearly, he's going to need to hang on to other people's words for the time being, someone who isn't his dad trying to explain the ways Eddie's allowed to inhabit the world.
He doesn't need to ask anyone's permission to be who he is. That's also a thing Frank said.
in which eddie attends a self-empowerment group for gbtq men to supplement his therapy, and is empowered to: forgive himself, say "i'm gay" to his own reflection in the mirror, accidentally adopt an adult, make fried rice, and tell his straight best friend that he's in love with him. not necessarily in that order.
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01 Oct 2025
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let me touch you where i want to (there, there, there, there, there) by granadas
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14 Jun 2025
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Buck feels a kind of righteous indignation. It’s just not fair. Eddie deserves some mind blowing sex. And it’s not like it would be hard to fix. As far as orgasms go, Buck’s kind of an expert.
So she can’t really help what happens next. It’s like Buck 1.0 emerges from the depths of her soul to lean in, drop her eyes down to Eddie’s lips, and say:
“I could make it good for you.”
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Or: Eddie’s always had a hard time getting off. Buck just wants to help.
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- Part 1 of the double-sided dildoverse
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27 Sep 2025
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Eddie stopped dancing competitively years and years ago. But it’s all much of the same— the inherent showmanship of life. He does kinda miss getting trophies for it, though.
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Two faces, two windows, and the one-way street between them.
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- Part 3 of wet & wilder
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21 Aug 2025
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After he's satisfied with the videos on his phone he looks at Eddie, "So, besides you being bad at tiktok and having the cutest kid on the planet—who is absolutely welcome in the studio any time, by the way—is there anything else I should know before we become dance partners?"
Maybe it's the cocky grin on Buck's face or the way Eddie can feel the start of something in his gut when he looks at Buck, but either way he says, "I don't do showmances. We're going to win this season, but I'm not getting votes by making doe eyes at you and leaking rumors to the press."
"What if they're not rumors?" Buck waggles his eyebrows.
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A Dancing with the Stars AU no one asked for, but I needed to write.
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16 Aug 2025
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Years before joining the 118, Buck’s travels take him to El Paso, where he meets Christopher. When Eddie comes back from Afghanistan and Shannon leaves, Buck ends up staying. As bills pile up, the best move is for them to get married, just for convenience, they’ll divorce when Eddie comes back from his re-enlistment.
Then Eddie gets injured and it’s just easier to stay married for a little longer, while Buck gets started at the 118. However, Buck doesn’t mention his ‘husband’ and kid, not feeling like they’re his to keep. When Eddie gets the offer from Bobby, they decide to lie and pretend they don’t know each other, so they can work together.
The whole lie gets out of hand as feelings start to become real, until it all comes to a head in the aftermath of the fire engine explosion.
AKA: Secret marriage of convenience buddie slow burn AU, where Buck and Eddie have been married for years so Buck could adopt Chris and no one at the 118 knows.
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- Part 1 of The I Do Verse
- Part 1 of All the Different Ways to Say I Do
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31 Jul 2025