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    Lan Zhan doesn’t think about him anymore.

    The days when he would obsess over every tiny work Wei Ying appeared in are long gone. His days of buying every magazine he was in, of taping his interviews and watching them over and over again just to get a piece of the real him, they’re all over. Lan Zhan doesn’t follow every project Wei Ying is a part of anymore, doesn’t try to find out if Wei Ying ever mentioned him anywhere, and doesn’t keep the TV on just in case he hears Wei Ying’s voice in a new commercial.

    He has weeks, and even months, when Wei Ying doesn’t even cross his mind at all. And when he does, it is only with a faded kind of fondness, a simmering affection to the memories they shared together.

    He’s happy for the things Wei Ying achieved. There is almost no hurt at all, almost no pain. And almost must be just as good as none.

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    Lan Zhan's world is turned upside down when his High School love, famous actor Wei Wuxian, comes back to their hometown after 13 years.

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    16 Sep 2023

  2. Public Bookmark 94

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    The number one rule of academia: don't get involved with students. Period.

    Xiao Zhan is trying his best.

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    26 Aug 2023

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    “I can’t come.”

    Xiao Zhan sputters, obviously not expecting that. His face runs through about twenty different emotions before settling on tentative concern, his lips pressing together and his brow furrowing. “Uh-huh,” he says. “As in, as in ’come’ ‘come’?” He makes a little jerking off motion over his lap and, all of a sudden, Yibo wishes he hadn’t mentioned it and had just continued to suffer in silence.

    “Yes, that kind of ‘come’!” Yibo hisses. “What other kind of ‘come’ is there!”

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    Yibo can't come. Xiao Zhan has some ideas on how to help with that.

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    23 Jan 2022

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    Before he’s even finished reading, Xiao Zhan knows this is the script, the one that could alter the course of his career. Not like Chen Qing Ling changed his life six years ago, catapulting him from a minor idol to a household name, or the way his more serious roles have slowly taken him to the upper echelons of dramatic actors. This is a love story, daring and bold, groundbreaking and unforgettable, if only he’s brave enough to do it.

    So of course, eventually, they bring up the idea of casting Yibo as his lover.

     

    In the summer of 2025, Xiao Zhan and Yibo reunite as the leads in a gay indie film, bringing their complicated offscreen history with them—and secret hopes of making things right.

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    20 Jan 2022

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    Everyone's buzzing that you canceled a meeting. Someone said you were sick. Xiao Zhan sends a weird worried face meme that Yibo doesn't recognize.

    Yibo runs a tired hand over his face. He hears from Xiao Zhan once in a blue moon. There's been radio silence since they'd had what Yibo can only keep telling himself was a wildly ill-advised hook-up backstage months back. They weren't anything to each other. Why is Xiao Zhan asking about him now?

    Yeah, is all he sends back. He tries to line up words to say next, but his brain is thrumming with bewildered exhaustion. He's staring down, thoughts moving sluggishly, as the screen dims for a moment, Xiao Zhan's text coming in right before it locks itself.

     

    Your stomach again?

     

    Yibo does, then, definitely break into slightly hysterical giggles. Yeah. Yeah, Xiao Zhan, it's his stomach again. It's definitely his stomach again. Sure. Yes. Absolutely. It's a big stomach thing. Probably going to be a huge stomach thing.

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    23 Dec 2021