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POV: Yoongi
"Yoongi, I'm coming for youuu!" 6 year old Jimin yelled
"Ahhhhhh, Jiminie, I'm goiung to get awayy!"
"Are you surre, i’m not going to let that happeen!” Jimin yells running over to Yoongi and tackling him, making them both fall down in laughter.
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I wake up feeling like I'm being sucked into a black hole. The smell of my dads cooking lures me in until I come back to reality. Slowly I get out of the bed and get ready for the day sore from last night. I go downstairs thinking everything would be okay.
When I get downstairs I dread my decision and turn to go back upstairs so I won't be noticed.
"Where the hell do you think you're going, get your ass back down here?" My father booms
"I-I-m so-rr-y y" I say trying not to let the tears spill failing in the process
"Why you crying kid, why'd I even have you, you're a retarded worthless piece of shit." He yells just as he throws his bottle at me.
I open the door and run, I run until I can't breathe. I collapse on the floor and I feel that black hole feeling I felt in the morning. The darkness hits in and I feel myself going out.
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I had, had a bad day at school and so I was crying on a park bench by the park. There was this boy, he came up to me. He didn't even ask what was wrong he just gave me a hug and said,
"Come on, let's have fun-n you don't have to cryy, what's urr name." The little boy asked
"Yoongi” replied
"Jiminnn" he screamed
I get up from the bed as I remember meeting Jimin for the first time. What would I be today if he hadn't been that one kid. I walk over to Jimin and place a kiss on his head then go to take a shower.
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We’ve all been scared of something before: leaving a job, asking someone to marry us, confronting a friend about something they did to upset you. And considering the daily fear mongering by mass media outlets, fear makes a strong case for the most felt emotional sensation but have you ever felt so much fear that it's hard to even live the normal life, you're scared someone's gonna hit you. Scared someone's gonna kidnap you. Everyday I walk through the halls fearing all that's around me. The things nobody notices, the scars on your arms, the tears stained on your face, the blood on your shirt. My life is different then most, I, Min Yoongi, have walked everyday of my life scared of what's next, what's gonna happen, am I safe. The things that go on in my mind are enough to kill 1000 people. All this, what's it for, do I even have a point here. I, Min Yoongi, refuse to lay back and pretend nothing's wrong.
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I wake up in a familiar place and it doesn't hit me until I see the person next to me.
"Good Morning, Yoongi, breakfast is downstairs."
"Jiminie when did I get here, how, I'm just confused overall."
"I'll tell you later Yoongi, ok"
"No but I want now, so tell me now."
"Yoongi this isn't the time."
As Jimin tries to get up Yoongi pulls him back down wanting to cuddle not eat.
"Yoongi, what's wrong" Jimin asks worried
On command Yoongi burst into tears not being able to hold anymore. Jimin immediately turns to hold him. I snuggle up against him, chest to chest, my heartbeat slowly catching up to his, as if our bodies reacted simultaneously to our warm touch. Both of our bodies are buried under the covers, yet I can see his silhouette from the dim light peering in. The light made the body shine, very little beads of sweat glistening on his small forehead. His lips, softer than the softest thing you can think of.. I couldn’t think of anything better to do than kiss them. All the thoughts fly out of my head as our lips touch.
"I'm so sorry, Jiminie I'm so—"
"There's no need to be sorry, I love you now more than ever, please don't cry baby."
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I’ve never met anyone with whom I have half as much in common as my boyfriend of two years. We agree on the big issues — kids, money, life goals — plus most little ones — best dog breed, TV/movie preferences. We attended school together from elementary through high school (different social circles) and then got the same degree. We’re excited about marriage. He accepts my biggest flaws and I accept his. I love him with my entire heart, and I’d do anything for him.
"Thanks Jiminie, I don't know what'd I do without you, every time I look at you, it makes my heart swell. You have encouraged me to do so many things and you have kept my secret. If I hadn't met you I wouldn't be alive today."
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The sound of the door closing brought me out of the world of numbers I had entrenched myself in. Not the sound itself, but the particular tone. When your life slips into a steady rhythm and the harmonies blend perfectly, it is easy to notice a single missed note. Although the door did not have the force of a slam, something about its dull note seemed off.
I thought what had happened. I run out the door, calling his name.
"Jimin, Jimin, I'm sorry, Jimin" I felt myself going out again. As I was crying I felt strong arms pick me up and carry me. Then it was dark again.
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I get my keys and open the door to the house; when the door opens little Tae comes flying out with kookie right behind. I engulf them in a hug missing both of my children a lot. After college Jimin and I decided we wanted a child. Instead we got twins Kim Taehyung, and Jeon Jungkook.
"Where's your daddy." I ask curiously.
"I don't-t know." Jungkook says one tooth sticking out.
This reminds me of when me and Jiminie were six and we were at the park. I think of all the times Jimin has saved me. It reminds me of when we went to prom with our friends Namjoon and Seokjin. I love my family with all my heart and I never want to leave them.
I could not wish for better.
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From Yoongi
"I love you so much, please don't leave me" I set the book by his grave and the tears spill out. As I walk with my kids hand in hand I walk to my bed for the last time ever.